IWalkWithHim
Sep 2nd 2008, 12:51 PM
Hello all:
I am seeking the prayers of all of you that are willing to pray along with me for me and my family. I have been saved since I was 13 and have walked with the Lord for most of my life thereafter. I am married now (12 years) with 3 children. Throughout the course of my family's life together, changes are occuring recently that I KNOW are not for the better. I have never been much of a prayer warrior but I do pray everyday. But the circumstanses that I am dealing with MUST be due to a spiritual warefare that I am in. Here's the short of it:
My son is now 15 and facing life from a different standpoint than that of my teachings and his Mothers. As he gets older, he is seeing more and more the thoughlessness and selfishness this world really has. Considering my son is suffering from some physical and mental abuse (not me, his Biological Father), he has such a hard time dealing with confrontation and disorganization. He is suffering from bouts of anger and hateread. He knows it isn't good for him and I pray for him and talk to him about it often, trying to break it's grip on his life. He resents his Dad deep down and thinking of how he did what he did to him and nothing happened to him for it angers him so much. I think he feels as though his Dad should have been punished for what he done and it makes him mad that he wasn't. Couple that with the fact that his Dad talks down to him a lot and is hardly EVER around considering he took my wife and I to court for leagal visitation. Every since his Dad abused him, his Dad's parents are the one's doing the visiting. He is angry that his Dad never apologized or even shows any remorse for what he did. Helping him through this has been a tough struggle for me but I'm afraid if I slow down, the emotions he's dealing with will smother him and cause him to act out. I need prayer that he will find peace in knowing that Jesus is more than able to help him deal with what hapened and to have peace once again...
My oldest daughter is struggling with the idea of growing into a young lady. She is 12 years old and is afraid to let go of the past. Her resistance to wanting to grow up a little is creating a heavy strain on the family as a whole. She is very thoughtless in a lot of instances and thinks that "sorry" fixes everything. I love my daughter with all my heart but being honest, she is very selfish. She even forgot her Mother's birthday recently. I am talking with her about her fears of growing up and reassuring her that we (her parents) and God will be there for her every step of the way and that she has nothing to fear. Nonetheless, she continues to act like a 6 year old. I want her to see that there is so much more that life has to be enjoyed as a 12 year old. But its a struggle. I love her so much but I need help in prayer that she will learn to be confident in herself and let go of the past.....
I need prayer for my wife, the woman that I love. She is struggling with her identity and is affecting every area of her life. She too, is an abuse victim. She was abused in ways that I can't share here but it was VERY serious. No real Father to be a part of her life and surrounded by people that consistantly walked out of her. She is so lost as to who she is right now and I have so much compassion for her. She has said repeatedly that "if she knew she was, things would be better for everybody". She seems distant in many ways but she is trying her best to stay connected with me and the children. Sometimes she appears depressed and angry and it's hard to read her sometimes. In a way, I'm kinda glad this is happening now because this is something that she has needed to deal with for a long time. But with me as a distraction and birthing and raising children in the earlier years, there wasn't much time to focus on that. But now, it is hitting her full force. I KNOW that God has called her to ministry but I feel that she is very distant from God. Now she will go to church without any arguement whatsoever. Many times, she is the one pushing me to go!! I think she is hoping that something will jump out and help her know who she is. I know that only GOD can do that, no one or nothing else can. I need prayer that I will represent God in a manner that will draw her near to Him and that she will find her true identity burried in His love for her and the strength to endure the time needed for her to realize who she is.
And lastly prayer for myself. I have accepted the fact that God is calling on me to stand in the gap for my family while they are going through. Because of this, I STAY tired most of the time now. I remember reading in a book a few years ago that when you are in a spiritual warefare that you feel physically tired from the battle in which your spirit is locked in. I need your prayers for me that I will be renewed in strength everyday and that I keep my eyes focused on Christ and that I will carry out His will not only for me, but for that of my family. I love each and every one of you here, my brothers, sisters, mothers and father's in Christ.
Will you please pray with me and for me and mine??:pray:
I am seeking the prayers of all of you that are willing to pray along with me for me and my family. I have been saved since I was 13 and have walked with the Lord for most of my life thereafter. I am married now (12 years) with 3 children. Throughout the course of my family's life together, changes are occuring recently that I KNOW are not for the better. I have never been much of a prayer warrior but I do pray everyday. But the circumstanses that I am dealing with MUST be due to a spiritual warefare that I am in. Here's the short of it:
My son is now 15 and facing life from a different standpoint than that of my teachings and his Mothers. As he gets older, he is seeing more and more the thoughlessness and selfishness this world really has. Considering my son is suffering from some physical and mental abuse (not me, his Biological Father), he has such a hard time dealing with confrontation and disorganization. He is suffering from bouts of anger and hateread. He knows it isn't good for him and I pray for him and talk to him about it often, trying to break it's grip on his life. He resents his Dad deep down and thinking of how he did what he did to him and nothing happened to him for it angers him so much. I think he feels as though his Dad should have been punished for what he done and it makes him mad that he wasn't. Couple that with the fact that his Dad talks down to him a lot and is hardly EVER around considering he took my wife and I to court for leagal visitation. Every since his Dad abused him, his Dad's parents are the one's doing the visiting. He is angry that his Dad never apologized or even shows any remorse for what he did. Helping him through this has been a tough struggle for me but I'm afraid if I slow down, the emotions he's dealing with will smother him and cause him to act out. I need prayer that he will find peace in knowing that Jesus is more than able to help him deal with what hapened and to have peace once again...
My oldest daughter is struggling with the idea of growing into a young lady. She is 12 years old and is afraid to let go of the past. Her resistance to wanting to grow up a little is creating a heavy strain on the family as a whole. She is very thoughtless in a lot of instances and thinks that "sorry" fixes everything. I love my daughter with all my heart but being honest, she is very selfish. She even forgot her Mother's birthday recently. I am talking with her about her fears of growing up and reassuring her that we (her parents) and God will be there for her every step of the way and that she has nothing to fear. Nonetheless, she continues to act like a 6 year old. I want her to see that there is so much more that life has to be enjoyed as a 12 year old. But its a struggle. I love her so much but I need help in prayer that she will learn to be confident in herself and let go of the past.....
I need prayer for my wife, the woman that I love. She is struggling with her identity and is affecting every area of her life. She too, is an abuse victim. She was abused in ways that I can't share here but it was VERY serious. No real Father to be a part of her life and surrounded by people that consistantly walked out of her. She is so lost as to who she is right now and I have so much compassion for her. She has said repeatedly that "if she knew she was, things would be better for everybody". She seems distant in many ways but she is trying her best to stay connected with me and the children. Sometimes she appears depressed and angry and it's hard to read her sometimes. In a way, I'm kinda glad this is happening now because this is something that she has needed to deal with for a long time. But with me as a distraction and birthing and raising children in the earlier years, there wasn't much time to focus on that. But now, it is hitting her full force. I KNOW that God has called her to ministry but I feel that she is very distant from God. Now she will go to church without any arguement whatsoever. Many times, she is the one pushing me to go!! I think she is hoping that something will jump out and help her know who she is. I know that only GOD can do that, no one or nothing else can. I need prayer that I will represent God in a manner that will draw her near to Him and that she will find her true identity burried in His love for her and the strength to endure the time needed for her to realize who she is.
And lastly prayer for myself. I have accepted the fact that God is calling on me to stand in the gap for my family while they are going through. Because of this, I STAY tired most of the time now. I remember reading in a book a few years ago that when you are in a spiritual warefare that you feel physically tired from the battle in which your spirit is locked in. I need your prayers for me that I will be renewed in strength everyday and that I keep my eyes focused on Christ and that I will carry out His will not only for me, but for that of my family. I love each and every one of you here, my brothers, sisters, mothers and father's in Christ.
Will you please pray with me and for me and mine??:pray:
