For the small things in my life, I dont have the man I love or the family for christmas to spend with but I am grateful for the life I do have. I'm healthy and loving and like the person I am, I can at times feel the light coming out of me, and that is all your doing.

I know I am suffering at this time and I know that my prayers will be answered in time I just have to be patient.

I'm grateful for find this forum I deseperatly needed guidence and fellow people to talk to who wouldn't judge me. You wouldn't believe the message boards that encourage you to turn your back from every problem and "Move On" no faith involved or anything, Just move on.

Here is full of hope and though not always will God give you want you want, if you pray from you heart chances are if its in your best interest he WILL answer. That is my hope and faith anyway.

So Jesus you have become a good friend to me that I rely on daily. Never before have I been so in need of someone to help with pain and sadness. I lost my cross pocket charm last week and it makes me sad I would hold on to that in my hand when I needed to feel his power. I will have to another one. Cross in my pocket its called.

Anyway God Bless you and me and everyone.

Thank You Lord for the peace found in thanking You for everything.