MaryFreeman
Mar 21st 2010, 12:53 AM
I can face tomorrow....
Because He lives....
All fear is gone....
Because I know....
He holds the future....
And life is worth the living....
Just because He lives....
I have had certain family members living with me for 3 years.... Lately I have been feeling a resentment in my heart.... I finally got transportation and instead of fixing their own car they choose to constantly borrow mine.... They got a good sized tax return but will not get their own phone.... And they keep moving their move out date further and further away because they are trying to purchase a home.... When they have nothing to put down and no credit to work with.... All because they have their hearts set on a home that first off sounds like it is in bad need of repair.... And secondly they cannot get a loan.... And a contract for deed is OOTQ because they do not have a large enough down payment nor do they have the credit to work with....
I have five people in my household alone.... I live with four more.... And they keep bringing all sorts of animals in the house.... I now live with my two cats.... My daughters guinea pig.... And their three dogs and TWO dwarf hampsters.... And I live in the heart of my city! And everyone talks about what a relief it is that my dog is gone.... He was lost at the governors mansion and no one took the time to look for him.... Just came home and told me my dog was gone.... And to this day I wonder what ever happened to him.... Did someone find him? Was he taken care of? Was he out there alone? Is he still alive? Even my husband didn't care how much it hurt me to lose my dog....
I live in a three story home with a full finished attic.... There are three rooms on the second level.... And the people who live with me have taken over the first level.... I don't have a dining room anymore.... Their daughters have chosen to eschew sharing rooms with my daughters and have taken up residence in a public area.... And now we have to worry about making any sort of noise at all when moving about our own home.... And my dining room has been made into a bedroom for the parents.... One of whom has a very verbally abusive manner when anyone other than himself exibits authority over MY home.... And I could not even tell my children to stay away from friends of his children without being publicly degraded and humiliated.... Even lied about and impugned by him.... For hours.... Eventually changing my mind is the only thing that gets it to stop.... And he told me there wasn't anything I could do about his treatment.... So now I live in fear.... Feeling forced to share my things as if they are community property instead of mine.... Their daughters constantly break my household rules and I feel I cannot take it to them....
For three years I have lived with this.... And I pray constantly that the burden gets lifted.... That my life and my home.... Authority and control over it.... Be returned to me.... That my peace be returned to me.... My family cannot even talk amongst ourselves about our church and its pastor without hearing a very negative and hurtful opinion out of either him or his children about it.... This hasn't happened in a while but the effects are still here.... We feel stiffled and constrained.... Out of control in our own home..... And just when I think I cannot take anymore.... I start hearing this song....
Because He lives.... I can face tomorrow....
Because He lives.... All fear is gone....
Because I know.... He holds the future....
And life is worth the living....
Just because He lives....
:cry::rolleyes::lol::pp
Because He lives....
All fear is gone....
Because I know....
He holds the future....
And life is worth the living....
Just because He lives....
I have had certain family members living with me for 3 years.... Lately I have been feeling a resentment in my heart.... I finally got transportation and instead of fixing their own car they choose to constantly borrow mine.... They got a good sized tax return but will not get their own phone.... And they keep moving their move out date further and further away because they are trying to purchase a home.... When they have nothing to put down and no credit to work with.... All because they have their hearts set on a home that first off sounds like it is in bad need of repair.... And secondly they cannot get a loan.... And a contract for deed is OOTQ because they do not have a large enough down payment nor do they have the credit to work with....
I have five people in my household alone.... I live with four more.... And they keep bringing all sorts of animals in the house.... I now live with my two cats.... My daughters guinea pig.... And their three dogs and TWO dwarf hampsters.... And I live in the heart of my city! And everyone talks about what a relief it is that my dog is gone.... He was lost at the governors mansion and no one took the time to look for him.... Just came home and told me my dog was gone.... And to this day I wonder what ever happened to him.... Did someone find him? Was he taken care of? Was he out there alone? Is he still alive? Even my husband didn't care how much it hurt me to lose my dog....
I live in a three story home with a full finished attic.... There are three rooms on the second level.... And the people who live with me have taken over the first level.... I don't have a dining room anymore.... Their daughters have chosen to eschew sharing rooms with my daughters and have taken up residence in a public area.... And now we have to worry about making any sort of noise at all when moving about our own home.... And my dining room has been made into a bedroom for the parents.... One of whom has a very verbally abusive manner when anyone other than himself exibits authority over MY home.... And I could not even tell my children to stay away from friends of his children without being publicly degraded and humiliated.... Even lied about and impugned by him.... For hours.... Eventually changing my mind is the only thing that gets it to stop.... And he told me there wasn't anything I could do about his treatment.... So now I live in fear.... Feeling forced to share my things as if they are community property instead of mine.... Their daughters constantly break my household rules and I feel I cannot take it to them....
For three years I have lived with this.... And I pray constantly that the burden gets lifted.... That my life and my home.... Authority and control over it.... Be returned to me.... That my peace be returned to me.... My family cannot even talk amongst ourselves about our church and its pastor without hearing a very negative and hurtful opinion out of either him or his children about it.... This hasn't happened in a while but the effects are still here.... We feel stiffled and constrained.... Out of control in our own home..... And just when I think I cannot take anymore.... I start hearing this song....
Because He lives.... I can face tomorrow....
Because He lives.... All fear is gone....
Because I know.... He holds the future....
And life is worth the living....
Just because He lives....
:cry::rolleyes::lol::pp