Hi,

I just joined and I don't want to go into things but I understand it if I don't belong here.
Can I ask for a kind, non-judgmental person to pray for me please. :(
I need your help. I'm not a good person I'm far from it I've been damaged from Child, Pysically, Domestic and sexual abuse in the past which has lead to Chronic Depression, four abortions and Anger isssues. :mad: Please don't judge me or feel sorry for me just pray for me and my kids please.
I go to church sometimes but I cannot open up to anyone there, I feel very ashamed, distressed and humiliated. If I was honest about my past I'm sure they'd kick me out and to be honest I wouldn't blame them.
I hate myself and feel very ashamed of myself right now, What have I done? Where did it all go wrong? Does God hate me? Why did all this happen? Is it my fault? Did I make these things happen to myself?
Is there someone here that will not judge me but talk to me and pray for me? I really need your help. I want to be dead right now :giveup:
Help me please x

Bringing yours and your children's needs before the Lord this evening.

xDaddysGirl..I am so so sorry about the abuse you endured as a child and it leading to a very difficult life. God does love you...He really does. Its the broken hearted He seeks to love and comfort most of all...

Many of us on here have been through similar situations as you have...none of us are perfect and neither are those in church. I think you might be surprised how many carry guilt and shame and 'what if they knew the real me' that fill those churches..

I am about to leave for church and will pray for you while I am there. When I get back hopefully we can talk a little more...

Meanwhile I am praying for you. Please check out the links in my signature...especially the 'Father's love letter and the MY REDEEMER LIVES.

The bible tells us Jesus died for us while we were still sinners...He didn't do this for perfect people (not that there is any!).

God bless

Hey I am back...I see on your profile you aren't a Christian...why don't you start a post on the Christian Answers forum...so we can talk more freely. The prayer forum is suppose to be just for prayers not conversation so much.

God bless

Hello and welcome! Count me among those who are praying for you. God loves you sooooooo much! The truth of the matter is that we all have done terrible things in our lives. That's why we needed Jesus to die for our sins and pay a debt that we could never pay ourselves! If you don't feel like you can open up to people, open yourself up to God. Pray to Him, and ask Him to forgive you of the things that you've done and be assured that He will! When we become Christians we consider ourselves dead to the way we used to live and instead live to glorify God through the example that Jesus set for us. When God forgives us of our sins, he does not count them against us anymore, so that we can walk in freedom from our former sins and not repeat them! Read your Bible, pray and talk to God. Don't feel silly when you talk to Him, He knows what you need even before you ask.
We don't need to know the details of your life if you don't want to talk about them. They don't matter. What is of importance is that you allow God to walk you through your problems. Trust in Him. He will take care of us, that is His promise!

Hi,

I just joined and I don't want to go into things but I understand it if I don't belong here.
Can I ask for a kind, non-judgmental person to pray for me please. :(
I need your help. I'm not a good person I'm far from it I've been damaged from Child, Pysically, Domestic and sexual abuse in the past which has lead to Chronic Depression, four abortions and Anger isssues. :mad: Please don't judge me or feel sorry for me just pray for me and my kids please.
I go to church sometimes but I cannot open up to anyone there, I feel very ashamed, distressed and humiliated. If I was honest about my past I'm sure they'd kick me out and to be honest I wouldn't blame them.
I hate myself and feel very ashamed of myself right now, What have I done? Where did it all go wrong? Does God hate me? Why did all this happen? Is it my fault? Did I make these things happen to myself?
Is there someone here that will not judge me but talk to me and pray for me? I really need your help. I want to be dead right now :giveup:
Help me please x

This is exactly where you belong! God does not hate you. He loves you so much that He left Heaven, came to earth and died in your place so that You could turn to Him, find forgiveness and live with Him forever. Jesus told us; All you who are weary and heavy laden, come to Me and I will give you rest.

It doesn't matter what you have done or what has been done to you... He loves you and wants to make you clean and forgiven (just like He has done for us... for me.) There is no pit so deep that Jesus' love is not deeper still. (Corrie Ten Boom) You are precious to Him!

Heavenly Father, thank You for leading x here. Thank you for drawing her heart toward yourself, to seek You and understand these things that she's asking. Father, I ask that You would continue leading her and that she would find rest in You. Reveal Your great love to her so that she can learn to trust You. Sometimes we feel so broken that it seems hopeless, but You are the Great Physician, able to mend our hearts and minds... able to give us new life. Show her the way. In Jesus I come... amen.

Along with moonglows signature links... please watch mine, too. (The song/skit Everything.)

I hope you come back and talk with us some more. In the meantime, I'm praying for you and your children.

Can I tell you a story that was read out to us in church today? This is a true story, about Jesus, and I hope it will reassure you.

Jesus was invited one time to a pharisees house for dinner. In those days everyone lay down on their left side to eat at a low table, eating the food with their right hands, and their feet were stretched out behind them. They still eat like that in parts of the Middle East. I tell you this to help you picture the story.

Jesus was a travelling rabbi, and as a guest of some fame visiting an important man's house the debate was a matter of public interest. The host would have used this as an opportunity to debate Scripture with the visitor, and there would have been an audience lined up in the house while the "important" people ate.

Jesus came into this man (Simon's) house, and over dinner they debated Scripture. One of the townsfolk who attended this meal to watch the debate was a woman described in the Bible as a "sinner." She came in, and started weeping, her tears wetting Jesus' feet (stretched out behind Him remember) and she wiped her tears off with her hair, and kissed his feet. Then she annointed them with oil.

Simon, the pharisee, was thinking to himself, "if this man was a prophet he would know what kind of woman that was kissing his feet."

Jesus asked the question, "two men owed money to a rich man, one fifty pounds, and the other five hundred, and neither man could pay. The person they owed money to forgave them their debt. Who do you suppose loved the rich man more?"
"Well," replied Simon, "I suppose the one who was forgiven the larger debt."
"That's exactly right," said Jesus, "because whoever is forgiven much loves much, but he who is forgiven little loves little. I came into your house, and you gave me no water for my feet, or oil for my head [this would have been considered good manners in a host in those days, Simon was being formal and cold with Jesus by not offering Him these amenities] and you did not kiss me. But this woman, who you think a sinner, since I came in, has bathed my feet in her tears, kissed them, and poured oil on them. She who is forgiven much loves much."

Then He turned to the woman and said, "Your sins are forgiven you. Go in Peace."

The reason this story speaks to me is that, like you, I've done things in the past that I'm ashamed of, very ashamed of, and I've had things done to me that make me feel unworthy and unlovable.

But rejoice... HE LOVES YOU. And in front of everyone who knew her, who thought they knew "what kind of woman she was", He vindicated her love, and presented her righteous and holy. Jesus will present you to His Father, pure and spotless on that great day when He comes again, and you will be vindicated against anyone who thinks they "know what kind of woman" you are. God knows, He loves you. And any true Christian will also love you, because you are His and He loves you. Anyone who condemns you for your past is being like Simon, looking with human eyes, instead of the eyes of God.

Of course I'll pray for you, sister. That you who are full of tears may be full of joy, and that you are full of grief my be full of peace.

Jesus also said, "blessed are those who mourn, they shall be comforted." I'm praying for you right now, that you may be comforted.

From one who has been forgiven much, like yourself. I love you.

Also, xDaddy's girl... you're in the UK somewhere, so am I. If you ever want to talk, you can talk to me. Start a thread in chat to moderators, and I give them permission to share my contact details with you, if that's what you want.

Hi,
I really appreciate all your positive messages, I wasn't really expecting anyone to be positive.
I'm really trying to mend right now but its difficult really difficult.
I'm not too happy night times are the hardest but Thank you for praying for me. I don't know what else to say.
Ps: Because I am new The forum doesn't allow me to see sigs.

Hi,
I really appreciate all your positive messages, I wasn't really expecting anyone to be positive.
I'm really trying to mend right now but its difficult really difficult.
I'm not too happy night times are the hardest but Thank you for praying for me. I don't know what else to say.
Ps: Because I am new The forum doesn't allow me to see sigs.

I am wondering if you don't understand what we are talking about..I am pretty sure new members can see signatures...look at the bottom part of our posts to you for links or highlighted titled...move your mouse over them and see if they show an underline like a link does.

Anyway I am glad you are back. Like I said you can post on the Christian Answers forum or 'kicking back' for a more casual discussion with us if you want too.

God bless

Hi,
I really appreciate all your positive messages, I wasn't really expecting anyone to be positive.
I'm really trying to mend right now but its difficult really difficult.
I'm not too happy night times are the hardest but Thank you for praying for me. I don't know what else to say.
Ps: Because I am new The forum doesn't allow me to see sigs.
Hi xDaddy'sGirl.

I'm up too right now, though the computer is going off in a minute. I'll pray for you tonight, as I have done today, and I hope you know that people are praying for you both in the UK and all over the world now.

Here's a psalm for you to read tonight, hopefully it will bring you some comfort. (I cut it straight off a website, that's what the asterixes are, they don't mean anything.)



In you, O LORD, have I taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame; *
deliver me in your righteousness.
Incline your ear to me; *
make haste to deliver me.
Be my strong rock, a castle to keep me safe,
for you are my crag and my stronghold; *
for the sake of your Name, lead me and guide me.
Take me out of the net that they have secretly set for me, *
for you are my tower of strength.
Into your hands I commend my spirit, *
for you have redeemed me,
O LORD, O God of truth.
I hate those who cling to worthless idols, *
and I put my trust in the LORD.
I will rejoice and be glad because of your mercy; *
for you have seen my affliction;
you know my distress.
You have not shut me up in the power of the enemy; *
you have set my feet in an open place.
Have mercy on me, O LORD, for I am in trouble; *
my eye is consumed with sorrow,
and also my throat and my belly.
For my life is wasted with grief,
and my years with sighing; *
my strength fails me because of affliction,
and my bones are consumed.
I have become a reproach to all my enemies and
even to my neighbors,
a dismay to those of my acquaintance; *
when they see me in the street they avoid me.
I am forgotten like a dead man, out of mind; *
I am as useless as a broken pot.
For I have heard the whispering of the crowd;
fear is all around; *
they put their heads together against me;
they plot to take my life.
But as for me, I have trusted in you, O LORD. *
I have said, "You are my God.
My times are in your hand; *
rescue me from the hand of my enemies,
and from those who persecute me.
Make your face to shine upon your servant, *
and in your loving-kindness save me."
LORD, let me not be ashamed for having called upon you; *
rather, let the wicked be put to shame;
let them be silent in the grave.
Let the lying lips be silenced which speak against
the righteous, *
haughtily, disdainfully, and with contempt.
How great is your goodness, O LORD!
which you have laid up for those who fear you; *
which you have done in the sight of all
for those who put their trust in you.
You hide them in the covert of your presence from those
who slander them; *
you keep them in your shelter from the strife of tongues.
Blessed be the LORD! *
for he has shown me the wonders of his love in a
besieged city.
Yet I said in my alarm,
"I have been cut off from the sight of your eyes." *
Nevertheless, you heard the sound of my entreaty
when I cried out to you.
Love the LORD, all you who worship him; *
the LORD protects the faithful,
but repays to the full those who act haughtily.
Be strong and let your heart take courage, *
all you who wait for the LORD.

xDaddysGirl,

I am also adding my voice to these prayers for you..as others have said, none of us are perfect and many of us have things in our lives that we are ashamed of. But Jesus loves you and so do we...we will be praying for you and as others have said, ChristiansAnswer (http://bibleforums.org/forumdisplay.php/39-Christians-Answer) is a great place for us to all talk more freely with you..just click on the link in here if you're not sure where it is..

I pray God blesses you with healing, comfort, and strength..

xDaddysGirl, I'll certainly pray for you. We all have pasts and we're all sinners. And if you're going to a church that would through you out then you
need to kind another church that preaches the Gospel. Maybe Daughter can help you find one.

Praying that you will experience the Love of the Lord Jesus, and His Care, through His people.

(do remember that all churches are full of imperfect people - like me - but some demonstrate more compssion than others)

X,
I am so glad you came here. Please stay with us. You will find wonderful caring people on this board that will always be there for you to talk to. I will also be praying for you. No one on here is judgemental and you can tell us anything and we will really try to help you. Everyone needs someone to talk to and we are here. God will NEVER turn his back on you when you are seeking Him.
Remember, we will always be here if you want to talk.
Beverly

I have been praying and asking God about your situation...And these are the words of a song that God gave me (I believe for you when praying).

I am the God that healeth thee
I am the God your redeemer
I am the God that heals all disease
I am the God your healer.


Seek God and find his peace.

You think your sins are such a big deal, huh? ;) Have you heard of the apostle Paul who, before he was converted, went around persecting the early believers of Yeshua, aka Jesus, having them thrown in prison & voting for their deaths. And then there was David who had all a man could want, incluidng great relationship with YHWH, aka God. But...he saw this beautiful woman and had her husband killed so that she could be his. Do you think YHWH could forgive such people? Well, He did. You're a piece of cake. I hope you will read Scriptures & learn that you have no way outsinned the grace (UNmerited favor) of YHWH. Yeshua didn't die that terrible death, taking the punishment for our sins, for parking violations & bad manners, stuff like that. You really aren't any worse than the rest of us. Again, I hope you will read Scriptures & find out why. They will feed your soul.
Praying for you to be healed from your past wounds, to know and accept YHWH as your Father, Yeshua as your Elder Brother, & that you will have good fellowship with others wherever Yeshua may lead. Praying for blessings & protection for you and your family in general. Don't hate yourself. It's not nice to hate someone YHWH created and loves.

People always say are always saying ''Be strong'' ''Things will get better''.....I hate being to this!!!!
This week has been really awful and I am so glad it's almost over. I can't live like this anymore my surroundings just seem so Negative, I feel so alone :(
I really appreciate how friendly you all are and I want to Thank you all for praying for me too thats so good of you all.
Thank you everyone.

PS: I STILL CANNOT SEE ANY SIGS!

Still praying for you, xDaddy'sgirl. Would it help if you told us a little about your current circumstances? Is there anything in particular that's making you really miserable or stressed that we can pray about... neighbours, kids school... anything that's causing you worry?

I know myself that some days you just can't be strong. God is with you then as well.

Thank you Daughter.
Well I think I've opened up as much as I can it's very hard to talk about these personal things. I'm trying to cope with Depression, I recently lost my best friend, my daughter has caused me alot of serious problems in the last 3 years it's so bad she is away for a few days I needed some time away from her. I also have Housing Issues everything really It's all one massive Mess :(
Somedays I want to die! this is Hell!

Thank you Daughter.
Well I think I've opened up as much as I can it's very hard to talk about these personal things. I'm trying to cope with Depression, I recently lost my best friend, my daughter has caused me alot of serious problems in the last 3 years it's so bad she is away for a few days I needed some time away from her. I also have Housing Issues everything really It's all one massive Mess :(
Somedays I want to die! this is Hell!

Is your daughter a teenager by chance? I have one of those (only a son)..I will keep her in my prayers too!

I don't understand why you can't see the links but here is one from my signature:

(click on this->)Father's Love Letter (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIspSTEHM2U&feature=PlayList&p=A3F05B0AFECC5335&index=6)

Still praying for you!

Sometimes we don't have to be strong..we just need to cry ...and it can't hurt to talk to our Father in Heaven either in our most desperate of times. He does care...He really does...

God bless

Thank you Daughter.
Well I think I've opened up as much as I can it's very hard to talk about these personal things. I'm trying to cope with Depression, I recently lost my best friend, my daughter has caused me alot of serious problems in the last 3 years it's so bad she is away for a few days I needed some time away from her. I also have Housing Issues everything really It's all one massive Mess :(
Somedays I want to die! this is Hell!
I'm sorry you have so much on your plate. I've suffered from depression in the past, after my husband died, really seriously so, and though my son has behaved very well his bullying issues at school got so extreme I had to take him to the hospital with a broken cheekbone last year. And I lost my job, nearly lost the house I'm in because it's so hard to pay the rent.
Just recently I feel like the weight is coming off me and I'm getting better. Depression is serious, it's a black cloud. But all clouds pass. Don't listen to anything the depression tells you. This is not hell, Hell is far worse than anything we can imagine. While you draw breath, while your heart beats, God is the one upholding you. Lean on Him, when there's nobody else to lean on. He really will hold you.
I'll pray for your housing situation to be clarified, and I'll pray specially for your daughter. I second Moonglow, I bet she's a teenager. They can be very worrying.
Think of this, just as you love your daughter, God loves her even more. He can be with her always, when you can't be. He can protect her when you can't. Talk to Him about your concerns, He will hear you.
Stay well. And I'll pray especially for your housing situation.

No shockingly she's nearly 10 with MASSIVE MASSIVE issues,I'm sick of everyone blaming me! I know I'm to blame all this.

How are you doing friend? We've all been praying for you. Have you found any good Bible verses lately?