Hello,
I Have visited this forum for a small while now, and it has helped me some. I do not know if this is the place or time for this post, but I will give it a go. I do not say or take this lightly, but I have come to the point where I am completely lost about my faith. I grew up in a Chritstian environment and accepted Jesus at about 12 or thirteen years old; and many times since then. Some would say that the next 20 years have been typical, and others would say not so much. I have left the Lord many times, and this last time has proved the most difficult. I am trying to find answers and they do not seem to come. I am sad and frustrated. I beg to Him for friendship and feel nothing. There have been maybe 3 or 4 times that I can remember where I completely felt moved by His Spirit. I beg Him for that again, and I feel nothing. I pray and pray and pray, but I just don't feel it. I wonder if it is my prayers? If they are the same empty prayers that I have prayed on so many occasions. So I pray to Him that he gives me the words to communicate with Him. Where is He? Is it to that point where I have completely lost sight of You? . I can quote so many scriptures, but not give the books or versus. I can talk about the Lord to anyone who want's, but still doubt Him constatntly. Still DENY him. What is wrong here? Where did I go Wrong? I want to start again. How???? I am trying to read the Bible, christian books, listen to christian radio, pray to him constantly. How???? I know it is all JESUS, but He is the very person I have doubted and left. I have truly prayed for forgiveness. I have prayed for a relationship with Him. I looked up bible forum's, and this is the first one I clicked on. I hope there is something from the Lord here that will guide me. Sorry for whining. Maybe this was just another prayer. Thank you for your time.

You know, friend, I pray that as you read here and take part in conversations that you will grow closer and closer to the Lord!

I don't believe you are here by accident! Are you into reading your Bible? Do you have a church where you can fellowship with other Christians? Also, when in fellowship with others, you WILL find that you will learn of other people's needs and prayer requests and things like that where you can begin to reach out to others. And the more you put your focus on others, you will find blessings that you can't imagine.

Now friend, just look over the different forums and jump into any conversation that seems interesting, and rest assured, Christ Jesus never has and never will leave you. As you said, you left him. But its not that he is not listening. He's waiting for you to find your way back to him! May God bless you abundantly here, ob_one!

Good to meet you, ob_one, and welcome to the board!

Hopefully, by spending time here you will be encouraged and edified.

I notice that the one thing you did not mention is active membership in a local church or fellowship and you will find very few believers around here who would not urge you to get involved in the body of Christ.

Forums such as this are wonderful supplements to the life of faith and can play an essential role in your walk, but cannot be a substitute for flesh and blood fellowship.

Oftentimes that turns out to be the missing piece in our walks - we attempt to live a successful spiritual life by reading, praying etc, but are in fact going it alone.

Looking forward to seeing you around and Lord Bless:)

Thank you both for your comments. I do go to church, although not regularly. I do find comfort in it, but something is missing. I just can't explain it.

I didn't read your article/testimony because it's late and I'm tired and wanna get to bed, but I do wanna say welcome to the board :)

Since you have confessed your sins and repented of them, seems now you need to trust Him to forgive you. We all have these moments of "where are You!". When He is standing right there. Sometimes because we are so looking for a certain "feeling" we get side tracked because since that "feeling" doesn't come we equate that to His not being there. Trust in His promises, stay in your Bible, trust and know that He is God, His word it truth.

We are glad you decided to join us here and look forward to getting to know you better and enjoying much conversation.

**Mod Note: This has been moved to a more appropriate forum.

Hello,
I Have visited this forum for a small while now, and it has helped me some. I do not know if this is the place or time for this post, but I will give it a go. I do not say or take this lightly, but I have come to the point where I am completely lost about my faith. I grew up in a Chritstian environment and accepted Jesus at about 12 or thirteen years old; and many times since then. Some would say that the next 20 years have been typical, and others would say not so much. I have left the Lord many times, and this last time has proved the most difficult. I am trying to find answers and they do not seem to come. I am sad and frustrated. I beg to Him for friendship and feel nothing. There have been maybe 3 or 4 times that I can remember where I completely felt moved by His Spirit. I beg Him for that again, and I feel nothing. I pray and pray and pray, but I just don't feel it. I wonder if it is my prayers? If they are the same empty prayers that I have prayed on so many occasions. So I pray to Him that he gives me the words to communicate with Him. Where is He? Is it to that point where I have completely lost sight of You? . I can quote so many scriptures, but not give the books or versus. I can talk about the Lord to anyone who want's, but still doubt Him constatntly. Still DENY him. What is wrong here? Where did I go Wrong? I want to start again. How???? I am trying to read the Bible, christian books, listen to christian radio, pray to him constantly. How???? I know it is all JESUS, but He is the very person I have doubted and left. I have truly prayed for forgiveness. I have prayed for a relationship with Him. I looked up bible forum's, and this is the first one I clicked on. I hope there is something from the Lord here that will guide me. Sorry for whining. Maybe this was just another prayer. Thank you for your time.

God is looking for surrender of our ways to His. We want God in our lives. But He wants us in His life.

We cry out to Him in our need and distress. He visits us. Then we feel better and don't need Him so much. So His presence leaves us. Then we see our need again and cry out again. Then He visits us again.... and so on.


This is a typical beginning of a Christian's walk. It begins in what we need and want. I know, because I did this for years. He became like an oasis for me in the desert. But there were these desert stretches!!!! I wondered why?

God is winning us to Himself...to look ONLY to Him. It is the same process for all. Will we run away? That depends on us. Will we get tired of waiting on Him? I hope not!!!;)

Welcome to the forum!

I don't know if you read my post or not but I'm going through the same situation. Well in a way. You have to trust that he is there whether we fell, sense, or hear him.

I've been searching for some guidance in many areas of my life asking him this and that. But I was forgetting to worship.

We are created to praise his name, glorify him. Sometimes he waits on worship. he desires true worship and praise, true thanksgiving and a thankful spirit within us. I feel led to encourage you to go through each thing you are thankful for, then go back and look harder.

God provides and give us MANY MANY things that we miss or don't acknowledge. Give the Lord your
praises and your fellowship . I am certain you will feel his presence again and he will guide as well.

that has been my focus the last few days and today as I
went on my walk I felt his presence again he revealed much to me and I am excited at the new direction my life will take.

you must trust in God, as Slug1 told me. God has
equipped you with his spirit, knowledge of the word and he has shown you what you need in this stage in life. Now he's waiting on you to live it and make decisions on your own. Trust that if you take the wrong path he will redirect you....

he said it much better than I did, if you go to the 6 million people on earth yet I feel alone post you can read his
words

God Bless and welcome! Praying you find everything you need!

welcome to this forum:) and feel that i am missing something in your words, like i don't know the full story. but i would like to add to all the helpful stuff above, that the approach should be one of endless love for God as if he were a brother, a friend, a chld or mother or father. what i mean is that who here would not have near infinite persistence to communicate with someone they love in times of distress or hurt. . dont give up. search your heart and for sure talk to God constantly, day in day out. it is the only sure way. constant conversation with the Lord. the Comforter speaks for you.