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Ayala
Oct 29th 2011, 05:43 AM
I've been going through my own personal struggles with alcohol as of late. My flesh craves it...I crave it in the evenings of my days. I've been diagnosed with MDD (Major Depressive Disorder) since I was young and have had many battles, physically and spiritually. I struggle with insomnia a lot. When I sit back to rest after the events of a day, I want nothing more than to lose myself in a state of relaxation and non-stress. To lay down at the end of my day and find that little bit of peace. But it eludes me so very often. And that's how booze crept in. I'll say it myself just so that no one else need bother. I know that that booze doesn't equate good, healthful sleep. But when you're in the heat of that moment, it's a deviously convenient means to an end. The relaxation, the euphoria...all the more dangerous when i have alcoholics on both sides of my family. This isn't what I want for myself. I know that if I cannot break myself of this dependance, my struggles will only worsen as time goes on. So ask you, I beg any and all of you to go before the Lord and pray with me that He will deliver me from the persistence of this trial in my life. Our Lord can overcome all.

Digital_Angel_316
Oct 29th 2011, 03:01 PM
Alcohol is an addictive substance. Further, the associations with alcohol are also addictive - watching the TV, smoking a cigarette, hanging with friends who do the same and etc. etc.

Replacement therapy is a way to help overcome some of the associations -- turn off the TV, get new friends (tell them of your circumstances, if they are not addicted in the way that you are, they will still understand), get the alcohol out of the house, stay out of the bars, -- THEN

Do something different -- take a walk, ride a bike - exercise can create its own euphoria and a tendency towards a mindset of health - but don't become addicted to that either. Drink a sports beverage or tea or mountain dew as a replacement for the physical aspect and association of drinking.

Read the Bible, study and discuss the Word of God. This provides a mindfulness that helps displace the cravings (to an extent, because the addiction is now physical as well as spirit/mindset related).

You have taken the first steps by admission and confession and asking for help -- praise Jesus!

Consider a rehab plan, get a mentor and confidant to keep you on the path and have an outlet to discuss your frustrations and progress. I won't recommend a particular plan as you are probably savvy enough to know the options and alternatives.

My prayer is that you keep your current mindset of awareness and repentance, the ability to recognize, admit and discuss the condition and to ask for assistance -- all of these are good signs.

Know that you are not alone in any of this, people are addicted not only to alcohol but to all manners of substances including food.

Best wishes for progress in your walk, keep us posted on your concerns and progress - may Jesus bless you and may you be a guide for others - as a warning to avoid such things, and as a hope for overcoming.

Kahtar
Oct 29th 2011, 03:04 PM
A place to start:
Quit claiming it as yours.....
'My alcohol vice'
'My struggles'
Quit agreeing with your enemy, and realize that he is lying to you in order to destroy you.
I'll let others take it from there.

Neanias
Oct 29th 2011, 04:24 PM
1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

May God heal you and make you to be as he is! May he strengthen you in your inner man!

Ayala
Oct 30th 2011, 12:20 AM
Within the next couple days, I'm gonna be checking into rehab. In the meantime, I've had my family take away my keys and license, in case I find myself tempted to get more.

Ayala
Oct 30th 2011, 07:52 PM
Leaving for rehab in 3 hours. Be gone for awhile. Love you guys.

HisLeast
Oct 31st 2011, 12:24 AM
Leaving for rehab in 3 hours. Be gone for awhile. Love you guys.

I'm really happy to hear you took action beyond just prayer requests. I'll be praying for you, and I hope you find some real help.

Dani H
Nov 2nd 2011, 03:50 PM
I realize you won't read this for a while but I'm praying for you and can't wait to hear from you when you come back!

John 8:32
Nov 3rd 2011, 02:22 PM
This deserves a concerted effort on our part. One more reason to callous up the knees. I am sure that I speak for many saying that we are beseeching our Heavenly Father on your behalf.

baxpack7
Nov 14th 2011, 04:38 PM
This deserves a concerted effort on our part. One more reason to callous up the knees. I am sure that I speak for many saying that we are beseeching our Heavenly Father on your behalf.

I fully agree. I have been to the point where all my money was directed towards my habit(s) and it seemed like I was just burdening my family with my indiscretions. It was due to the unending prayer of my dear grandma and the exponential grace of our creator that caused me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am still in need of prayer, but now it's mostly for the strength and courage to be bold in my words to those in need.

So, when you finally do read this, know that you have God on your side, and all of us here as well! Just keep yourself busy with the matters of the kingdom and the temptations won't have a chance to take hold of you. God bless you my friend!

Ayala
Dec 4th 2011, 10:48 PM
Out of rehab today. It's nice to be home lol. I appreciate all of your prayers. As of today, I have 37 days sober.

Reynolds357
Dec 4th 2011, 11:46 PM
Out of rehab today. It's nice to be home lol. I appreciate all of your prayers. As of today, I have 37 days sober.
Glad to have you back.

baxpack7
Dec 7th 2011, 12:44 AM
Out of rehab today. It's nice to be home lol. I appreciate all of your prayers. As of today, I have 37 days sober.

Dude, that's awesome news! Great to have you back on board. Stay prayed up!:pray:

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