Sep 1st 2006, 11:16 PM
I have been so busy. I am working really hard to get my house in order. I have been cleaning and hauling things to Goodwill and packing things up for Robert. Alex and I have settled into a pretty good routine but his special ed teacher told me yesterday he just disolved into tears. When she finally got him to say what was wrong he told her he was afraid he would never see his daddy again
I have been praying for Robert a lot, more so than
Aug 28th 2006, 10:11 PM
I am ashamed to say I feel a little lost. Kind of sad and lonely. This is weird but I don't feel whole. Not like I can't take care of myself and Alex and I know I am never truly alone. It just feels like something is missing. It is so hard to keep myself from picking up the phone and checking on him.
We hadn't heard from him since Thursday when he said he was going to be in the Lexington/Louisville market for Nextel. When I heard about
Aug 24th 2006, 02:34 PM
Thanks for thinking of me
Judy your testimony really helped me. Thank you. Ladies, as my sisters in Christ your support and prayers buoyed my spirit. But, it is hard. I am taking this day by day.
I no longer have crying jags and the tearing pain deep inside. I am more at an empty discomfort right now. However, I find joy in each day. I laugh and smile with my little boy who is the light of my life. I have actually grown fonder
Aug 21st 2006, 11:42 AM
Thank you Judy
Once again the Lord has placed me where I need to be when I need to be there and provided for me.
I do love my husband. I love my child, my family, my friends and my Lord. My capacity to love and forgive comes from Jesus Christ, my Savior. I need to tend to my 'house' now in faith that I am not walking alone. In fact at the moment I believe I am being carried ever so gently in His arms.
Updated Jul 28th 2008 at 09:56 AM by Lynbob
Aug 20th 2006, 10:08 PM
Thank you everyone Judy, I hear you. I don't believe Robert is thinking clearly and definitely not in Alex and my best interests. I have never seen this selfishness in him. Even his mother is stunned. God has helped me see what I need to do. I know that with God's help I will be able to take care of and keep this house for Alex without Robert or a helpmate. Its just not how I had envisioned my life.
I think perhaps God has a different vision