Forgot the link too I see..ugh.
Continuing...anyway on that dream the only thing I can think of as to why I had it was possibly get a tiny idea of what Christ went through. I certainly know I am not sinless that I could take on the sins of anyone. It kind of reminded me of how in the OT they would lay their hands on a goat placing the sins of the people on it then send the goat out into the wilderness. Then the other goat or sheep, would be killed for the sins. Though neither of those happened to me in the dream it was just the idea...the idea of placing the sins on something or someone to have someone pay for them...which reminds me of another dream I had long before this one.
I dreamed I was in a large house that was very scary and was being chased by some crazy people. Running down dark halls and trying to hide in dark rooms...that kind of thing. Then I discovered a lamb tied up laying on their dinning room table that they were planning on killing and eating. I had this strong urge to save the lamb and got it and ran off with it. I managed to get outside and was hiding in an alley with the Lamb. It seemed like the lamb had a wound on its neck and I tied a bow around it and was holding it tight and trying to comfort it.
At the time I didn't make the connection and thought I just had a really strange nightmare.
As the years went by though my dreams became more focused. I hadn't actually dreamed about Jesus since my dad died when I was 11. I'll write about that later ...that one gets me a little emotionally and Nate will be home soon.
I yearned for the rest of my life to dream again about Jesus though it wasn't until these last few years that I started too. In one I had actually just gone to lay down in the afternoon as I had a really bad headache but didn't really want to take a nap so I had left my door open...one of my cats kept jumping up on the bed waking me up as I did doze off and on.
I dreamed I had gone to Heaven...apparently died and gone to Heaven and was in a room with a large long table. The Supper table we always talk about you know? People were lined up along the table ready to eat...they had their plates, and silverware and cups in front of them and were all dressed in white robes.
Jesus had greeted me and put a robe on over my shoulders...a white robe and a beautiful necklace too. The necklace was striking as it was so different then anything I had seen before. The front of it seemed to be made of a light wire done in a certain design...very artist and the design looped in several place and held a stone..a gem, each one different. I have had many dreams about necklaces in correction with Christ...which is odd since I rarely even wear any jewelry at all.
The designs and each stone means something but to this day I haven't a clue as to what. I have researched the stones mentioned in the bible though...but since I can't remember the colors of them...I just don't don't.
Anyway so here I was ready to sit down at the table with everyone else but something was wrong with my place sitting. I had the same plate and silverware as everyone else but I had a wooden cup instead. It really stood out from the rest. When I looked from that up to the people sitting around they had a look of disappointment on their faces..almost of disgust actually. I felt ashamed and I didn't even know why.
I got the feeling that I had left something undone in my life that I was meant to do and now it was too late. I wasn't going to get my full reward. (at least that is what I concluded on this..I could be way off base..don't know).
Then a cat woke me up...ugh...which I shooed off and dozed back off again and this time I dreamed Jesus had taken me to a little treasure room and opened a treasure box full of gold coins. The coins all started floating up and out of the box...just slowly floating upwards. Yet nothing else did. I felt the message of that was all my treasures in Heaven where drifting away...slowly out of my grasp.
Again I realize these are symbolic and who is going to have any use for gold coins in Heaven? I would not be happy to see any kind of stores in Heaven! Couldn't even image such a thing.
Of course I have prayed so many times asking God what am I not doing..what works has He given me that I have left undone...
I think I know the answers but I had to admit I am gripped with fear at times in doing this. Just getting back to my novel and finishes it and my art...nothing you would think would be scary or dangerous in any sense of the word but everything I start...especially the writing...something terrible happens. Usually to my son which directly affects me... Its happened far too many times to just be some accident either... So I am in a constant battle with myself on this! Its such a struggle..and then to try to rest in the Lord and not be afraid and the verse that comes to my mind over and over it...oh ye of little faith...
Well I need to stop...Nate should be walking in from school any second...
I hope someone is blessed by these blogs.
Thanks Diggindeeper...I was wondering if anyone was reading...lol. I didn't go back and proofread what I wrote either...didn't have time so I hope things make sense. On Saturday night it was strange because I dreamed about those visions. lol. A dream of a vision...I guess that is different..lol. I couldn't remember any details though...just knew I did and it seemed I dreamed about them all night long too! I tend to wake up alot at night and everytime I woke up I knew I had been dreaming about them.
I don't have anything to add today...too tired. I didn't sleep well last night and am doing alot of yearly paperwork right now so that is taking all my time. Hope to get that done soon.
Julie, I know it takes a lot of time to put these things down, and I just want to say I thank you for your time and for sharing with us.
And I am blessed by your sharing.
Love you, Julie.
I have seen varying visions of these types of attacks since then...though none as bad as the first one. (thank goodness!)
Now this one, what I saw wasn't the brides but spirits...evil spirits attacking Jesus and this time He was on the cross. And I was thinking about what all He went through again. Not just the physical suffering, and taking on the sins of the world and even taking on the wrath of God..but what else was going on.
52 Then Jesus said to the chief priests, captains of the temple, and the elders who had come to Him, “Have you come out, as against a robber, with swords and clubs? 53 When I was with you daily in the temple, you did not try to seize Me. But this is your hour, and the power of darkness.”
I don't know there is scriptures on this other then this one. These spirits tormenting Him on the cross. But then I was show what to paint. To show Him on the cross then lifted up from the cross and then lifted higher to glory...in three stages all on one canvas. That is the drawing I am working on now.
He always rises up and up and up and becomes a shining star!
“I, Jesus, have sent My angel to testify to you these things in the churches. I am the Root and the Offspring of David, the Bright and Morning Star.”
And there He shines and reflects like light reflecting off a diamond. Brilliant..just brilliant. And He rises up even higher then the thundering clouds on the mountain. There are just no words to describe this. The light flashes and moves and is Him.
I think there was more I saw too but sadly I don't always remember everything but I think my spirit does. (or things are so far above my understanding with my human mind, I can't explain them...but I believe my spirit understands). I am in a state that is similar I think to sleeping but I still hear outside noises...or at least I think I do. Now this time I just laid there for a long time after the vision was done and dozed a little. Like I said these can wear me out and there has been many times afterwards I just go to sleep but then I don't remember things as well when I do that. When I finally got up I think only 40 minutes had passed but it took me over an hour to feel woke up..fully awake. I felt pretty groggy for awhile like I had been in a deep sleep.
I have to be careful too because at times, when they are so strong like this...all I have to do is start thinking about what I saw and I feel myself drifting off into it again. Today I started doing that in the car which is not a good thing and is why I turned the radio on. Its like...I am in this physical world but that spiritual world is also right there too and I can't be in two places at once....though I kind of wish I could be...but while driving...not a good thing..
Anyway I hope people are blessed by this.
Or maybe I am getting in the right order now...don't know..
I am going to copy and paste some of what I put on my thread over here so it doesn't get lost with time (you know how posts get pushed down then can be hard to find again).
When I first saw Jesus this time I wanted to complain about feeling so bad lately..I wanted to ask for healing...about my back hurting and my neck and my dumb allergies and my teeth hurting but you know what..it all just slipped away...far far away. All these fleshly things went further and further away like I just dreamed them and then I forgot about them altogether ...when you are in Heaven is easy to forget everything else. (at least it seems like Heaven..lol)..
It made me think of this passage:
18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.
There is another one which I just can't think of right now about our trials and suffering to be nothing compared to what is to come...that these things will melt away and be forgotten.
The feeling was so wonderful though. It made me think too of when a person goes swimming...how we are so light and nearly weightless in the water. Then when you get out with each step back into gravity, our full weight slowly comes back down on us. I can't tell you how many times I have gotten out of the pool and felt like I gain a thousand pounds! And here I walk around feeling like that all the time...but I didn't know it! Until I experienced feeling so light in the water. That is kind of like how this was. All my pains and problems just melted way ...makes it hard to come back to the real world and shoulder all this again.
And of course it helped just seeing His eyes look the way they did. So striking! And He was just so joyful! And wanted to share with everyone and I wanted to share with everyone this great joy too!
Its such a huge contrast in these visions from here a world filled with dread and worry and fear. Later today I had to go run a bunch of errands and I turned on the Christian radio station and they are talking about terrorism. I just couldn't listen to this anymore! I had my mind on this vision and trying to remember everything and what I wanted to write next...its SO beautiful! Going outside everything seems so dull now. I never noticed that before..even with spring coming and things starting to bloom. There is this dullness to things. And like I said they were talking about scary, negative stuff again on the radio and so I turned it off. I am just so tired of hearing this day after day after day. On the news on here...everywhere...
So I was caught up in the joy with Jesus...though I still don't know exactly what is going on..lol.
I am trying to remember what happened after He was out on the seas teaching those in the boats. As I said, I went from being in the boat to seeing Him from far away then from above...as it I had floated away.
There is a part in the music I listen too that seems to bring on a repeat vision over and over again. And lately I haven't liked that part very much. I wish I could put a picture on here that shows everyone what I see so you have some idea..I guess I need to draw it out and not worry about the details or it looking quite right. Because its hard to describe. (Nate is currently not helping me concentrate...he is making alot of noise!
I used to see ten brides or brides maids come out and present themselves to Jesus...dressed in the most lovely wedding gowns. They represent churches I think. Each would wear gown that fit their culture and would have their faces partly hidden by a thin white covering so just their eyes showed. It used to be beautiful. They loved Jesus dearly and worshiped Him and honored Him. He would sit in what I call a throne room on a throne with marbled pillars around though only the back had a wall of sorts the rest open. Angels with mighty wings ..huge angels stood around two sides like they were guards. (I just realized earlier I said I never saw the angels in any detail or up close..I forgot about these!)
I am usually only an observer and stand by one of the angels and depending on what happens, sometimes behind them. (cowering and hiding...like the time He was so angry over what happened in New Orleans with the hurricane. People dying in front of our eyes live on the news..it was truly horrible) That is the time His eyes were like flames of fire. The brides were around then, only angels or some kind of beings that put on His full crown and His robe of white and that time I saw Him in all His glory and might. His skin was translucent so His glowed. I don't know how else to put it. But it caused me alot of fear and trembling! The sheer power there and that power very, very angry at the neglect and needless loss of human life. It was scary.
Anyway..sorry I get of track as I remember things and ramble. Anyway for a long time the brides loved Jesus...then slowly things started to change. I started seeing evil in more and more of them. A false purity in them. More and more were corrupted until only one was left pure and white...then she too was corrupted. And they began attacking Him.
Yes this one time..not that long ago actually...a few months ago I think. They were all on the crystal lake between the two mountains. (sometimes I see the river and something this instead) and it was dark and quite and the sides of the mountains were filled with people or angels or beings..watching. I was up on a balcony..a walk way that opened up to like a balcony and someone was standing besides me..I am not sure who it was. I felt this horrible terrible dread and I didn't want to watch..I wanted to leave, I wanted to hide my face but this man told me I had to watch. So I did. But I was gripped with such dread. I knew something horrible was going to happen and I didn't want to see it.
This man I think actually held me up through this. I don't even know if I can type this without crying.
Jesus was standing on the crystal sea...its was like a frozen lake but with lights under it..it shimmered. And the brides came out and surrounded Him and at first seemed to ok...then they started touching Him and caressing His face and His shoulders and His back. Though I was high up and far away I could see them clearly..as if I was much closer and I saw the darkness in their eyes and their look of intent...intent to do harm. Then one who had her hair pulled back in a hair style that criss crossed up the back of her hair...the hair changed and the criss crosses became teeth and the teeth opened its mouth and it became a dragon's head and each bride merged with the other to form a body..the body of the dragon..the serpent we read about in Revelation.
And it circled and engulfed Jesus and attacked Him and it was so so horrible and I think that is when I felt myself collapsing and this man held me up. They seemed to be ripping Him apart and it was bloody and awful and terrible and I couldn't bear it.
Then! then He started rising up out of this violent terror and changing from what seemed to be a broken bloody man to a clean healed and glorious Jesus! And as He rose this power and glory came off of Him that just blew the dragon away! Just completely destroyed it..there was nothing left. And the man next to me then said I could go to Him now and so I ran down the path and down to the crystal sea as fast as I could and barely grabbed Jesus before He rose too high up and I just clung to Him. And then I was so happy. He overcame. Well of course He over came...lol.
That was a hard, hard vision to go through. Many times I am exhausted afterwards. Later in trying to understand what I saw...and of course I always pray for understanding. I realized it was symbolic of what so many churches are doing to Christ's Name now. They are using and abusing His Name! And its tearing Him apart.
Going to post this now since its so long then finish what I saw yesterday..I needed to put this previous vision in so people can understand what I saw yesterday.
Thanks Diggindeeper..I am still trying to figure out how this blog works...I didn't see any options to reply to your post. So I hope you see this.
I thought those were excellent comments you made. I hadn't thought of those scriptures at all. I was trying to think about who were these fisher men (or women...I didn't see these people up close). I thought well maybe they were pastors...out 'fishing for people'..lol. Or any believer out spreading the gospel. I know in a previous vision I did express the desire to 'catch some fish'...meaning I wasn't seeing my work show any results as far as leading people to Christ and was frustrated with that. So Jesus had taken me out to go fishing...(I realize these are all symbolic) And I would bring in a huge net of fish!
So I think those fishing were actively doing God's work and Jesus was ministering to them. Those passages you gave fit very well...thanks!
So far, Moonglow, I am reminded of Matthew chapter 4. What you saw may or may not be connected, but there is definitely a similarity in this chapter and your vision. It happened as Jesus began his earthly ministry and was immediately tempted by the devil.
1 Then was Jesus led up of the spirit into the wilderness to be tempted of the devil.
Verse #10 and 11 tells how the devil finally left him, and he was ministered to by angels.
10 Then saith Jesus unto him, Get thee hence, Satan: for it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve.
11 Then the devil leaveth him, and, behold, angels came and ministered unto him.
12 Now when Jesus had heard that John was cast into prison, he departed into Galilee;
13 And leaving Nazareth, he came and dwelt in Capernaum, which is upon the sea coast, in the borders of Zabulon and Nephthalim:
14 That it might be fulfilled which was spoken by Esaias the prophet, saying,
15 The land of Zabulon, and the land of Nephthalim, by the way of the sea, beyond Jordan, Galilee of the Gentiles;
16 The people which sat in darkness saw great light; and to them which sat in the region and shadow of death light is sprung up.
17 From that time Jesus began to preach, and to say, Repent: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.
18 And Jesus, walking by the sea of Galilee, saw two brethren, Simon called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea: for they were fishers.
19 And he saith unto them, Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.
20 And they straightway left their nets, and followed him.
21 And going on from thence, he saw other two brethren, James the son of Zebedee, and John his brother, in a ship with Zebedee their father, mending their nets; and he called them.
22 And they immediately left the ship and their father, and followed him.
23 And Jesus went about all Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, and preaching the gospel of the kingdom, and healing all manner of sickness and all manner of disease among the people.
24 And his fame went throughout all Syria: and they brought unto him all sick people that were taken with divers diseases and torments, and those which were possessed with devils, and those which were lunatick, and those that had the palsy; and he healed them.
25 And there followed him great multitudes of people from Galilee, and from Decapolis, and from Jerusalem, and from Judaea, and from beyond Jordan.
This is also told in Mark 1:13-22
13 And he was there in the wilderness forty days, tempted of Satan; and was with the wild beasts; and the angels ministered unto him.
14 Now after that John was put in prison, Jesus came into Galilee, preaching the gospel of the kingdom of God,
15 And saying, The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand: repent ye, and believe the gospel.
16 Now as he walked by the sea of Galilee, he saw Simon and Andrew his brother casting a net into the sea: for they were fishers.
17 And Jesus said unto them, Come ye after me, and I will make you to become fishers of men.
18 And straightway they forsook their nets, and followed him.
19 And when he had gone a little farther thence, he saw James the son of Zebedee, and John his brother, who also were in the ship mending their nets.
20 And straightway he called them: and they left their father Zebedee in the ship with the hired servants, and went after him.
21 And they went into Capernaum; and straightway on the sabbath day he entered into the synagogue, and taught.
22 And they were astonished at his doctrine: for he taught them as one that had authority, and not as the scribes.
Moonglow, they were astonished at his doctrine. But what he was preaching was, "The kingdom of God is at hand."