My grandmother agreed to have a blood transfusion in the morning. I'm afraid she's going to back out of it.
She SHOULD have ALREADY had it.
She keeps getting low blood pressure every several days. The incidents of low blood pressure are getting closer and closer together.
Well, I can't think of more to say, because my mind isn't working too well right now. This has been a really bad last several days.
This is something I've been thinking about for a long time.
On one level I want to continue posting on this site, but there are a lot of things going on on this site I don't want anything to do with.
I have tried and tried and tried not to see a lot of things, and have felt increasingly guilty about it.
Right now, I just don't know what I'm going to end up doing.
We took my grandmother out to the emergency room at the local hospital earlier. They didn't admit her.
They say she has congestive heart failure.
I have a gut feeling that something is about to happen here. The gut feelings I get are right 99% of the time.
Things are rather tense here right now.
My grandmother is rapidly going down hill mentally, and it's becoming more and more obvious.
I've never been in this situation before, so I have absolutely no idea what to do.
I write this fully understanding that there are many people in the world who are in a FAR worse situation than I am.
There are people going through garbage cans and trash bins looking for leftover food. There are people sleeping in alleys. There are people who are unsaved. I could go on and on...
I feel like right now my life isn't anywhere near what it could potentially be. It has become indescribably frustrating.
There are things I need to accomplish,