I am fighting with in myself on so many issues. I am trying to decide which are from the devil and which are from God. How do we know sometimes...why do we do wrong..why is our heart so evil. I really don't know.....do we really want something that we can't grasp. And if Jesus is everything....then why do we want? Why would I want to do what is bad. I have heard it all and seen it all in regards ...
As I do every morning, I was seeking the Lord before going to work this morning. Sometimes those times are exciting, but more often than not I do not have any particularly exhilirating experience. I just talk to God about what is on my heart and that's that. While pacing the floor a few hours ago, I suddenly started wondering and asked the Lord, "Lord, would I notice if you didn't show up this morning?" The thought startled me. What if this pacing the floor and praying thing ...
As satan brings his weight to bear Upon the people of The Light The one's who don't will be okay The one's who do will have to fight Against temptations dangled forth A lure to drag them into sin However tough you think you are The devil's going to suck you in. So nows the time to hurry back ...
Lately I find myself drawing away from many secular things I previously enjoyed, and I know it is the Lord working in my life. I am trying to direct my life to be serving Him. I want to know how I realize this is what He's guiding me to do. How do I free myself from depression and self-hatred? How do I become an example of Christianity to others who are lost or struggling? I want to know I've done my work here on Earth in spreading His world of love and hope. To spread His word that there is freedom ...
My mind seems to be full of thoughts and yet none at all. We got our hair cut today- I really like it. it is finally growing. I started having some thoughts, that I know should be going on. I really hate that. I have been so blessed, why do I want to do things to cause problems. It is like sometimes I wish I could just do something..but I know I can't becuase Scott would not approve. Then I feel resentful, yet I know this is the enemy working against ...