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propheticdreams — Thu, 07 Aug 2008 02:12:05 GMT

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So I just got done watching So You Think U Can Dance... I really want Katee or Joshua to win it...

I am thinking about goin on the show after I take a few classes...

Here is me dancing. I want to go on...

I'm going to school and getting my diploma in Early Childhood. Then after that I'm moving out of my aunts house...

I'm ready to bring on life... I dont need to be focusing on relationships! I need to focus on NOW!

I'm ready!

I'm tired of doing things my way! I wanna do things God's way!

Youth Camp!

propheticdreams — Tue, 05 Aug 2008 20:38:49 GMT

I went to Youth Camp from July 14-18. I was told a lie from the devil saying I couldn't go. Well I asked my youth pastor about going and he said I could go as a counselor. So I filled out the paper work and gave him the $50 dollars to register.

Well i get the paper work telling how much I still owed, my counselor booklet on CD and what I needed to pack. So I still needed $90 plus spending money. So I got out of my savings account $185. That left my savings $1000.

So I pack the night before and also get into an arugment with my aunt. I was very angry form the fight and punched the wall. I'm pretty sure I had fractured my knuckle. I also, almost ran away from home.

I ended up feeling very alone that night and dreading camp. It was my escape.

I went to camp dealing with lonliness, anger, past cutting, eating disorder, and lust.

We leave the next morning and 15-30 minutes outside of camp Satan tried to hinder us. The van broke down with a broken belt. I immediatly prayed for help. 30 minutes had passed us by and the youth pastor incharge called for help. The help arrived and so did someone from the camp. We were hungry and we were blessed enough to have them take us to McDonalds.

We get to camp and I register the 2 girls and myself. (We went as seperate churches.)

So I go to the counselor's orientation and my 2 girls went to the camper orientation. I found out during the time that the camper's have orientation the counselor's get their only break and have chocolate, and Starbuck's coffee. So I was happy about that.

At the meeting I find out that not only am I counseling my girls, another church and 2 more rooms of girls. I felt overwelmed and I prayed for stregnth and God told me "everything will be alright".

So then we have dinner and the evening service.

Worship was amazing! I've never felt the Holy Spirit that strong EVER!

During the week we had competitions: gatorballs, dodgeball, street hockey (one of my girls was hit in the mouth by a teamate and her braces got caught in mouth and injured her mouth pretty bad, so I went and prayed with her), volleyball, an obstacle course, some inflatable things (safari jungle, jousting, and one that u run and it pulls you back), and a rock wall.

During the week I saw baptisms of the Holy Spirit, teens being saved, kids giving their problems to God, and the Holy Spirit working.

Kids came to me with their problems and I prayed for them.

I was so blessed to be able to go to youth camp!

I was healed from my cutting, eating disorder, the lonliness was taken away, and my anger was controlled...

Until I came home...

I started swearing again, and just fell into old habits.

I ended up taking a break from my boyfriend and him and I got into a fight and I punched a wall again.. My hand is still not healed and that was about a week ago. Him and I ended up breaking up.

Since that happened, I had thoughts of suicide and my eating disorder started to take over again.

Sunday I just gave up. I gave God my problems, asked him to heal me, and he has.

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Youth Camp!