Inner thoughts, ramblings and other stuff

My second husband is in failing health. He has been in poor health for a number of years and he's getting much worse. I guess it's only a matter of time (I spoke with his oldest brother)

Danny is very bitter and claims not to care. Lisa has been in tears. I feel for them both.

This is a man who beat me and abused me for 10 years. He almost killed me more than once.

I cried when I found out how sick he is.

Why do I even care that he is dying and will go to hell? Because he is a human being and the father of two of my children. Because he could only do to me what I allowed him to do by staying. Because I have forgiven him. Because I am a child of God and I represent our Lord.

I would like to reach out to Dan in attempt to assist in bringing him to the Lord before he dies. I don't think he will listen to me so I will ask a Pastor to go with me or to go with another Church member.

I had asked my former Pastor to call Lisa as she is so torn up over this. He said he would but never did. Perhaps someone from the new Church will though as the Pastor who said the sinners prayer with her I think it would have mattered more from Pastor Scott. I will pray on this.

This man has much to repent of. I pray he does it while there is still time