angel_fire

Someone asked me do we have freewill, I quickly replied no, at least not in my lifetime.
If we do have freewill, its about 10% of your life, thats about it. Well what do you mean??
I mean most of our lives are programed to do things we really don't want to do. Like sleep, or eat, or breathe, I have no choice in those, I must sleep, I must eat and I must breathe.
I also dream, and some of those dreams are not pleasant or make much sense, I have no power on what I will dream.
Some choices I can choose, some are already done for me. Thats not freewill.

I also as a human created in God's image, have no power not to sin. I have to sin, its in my genes, its written on my DNA. I must sin, if I don't sin, I am clearly dead, dead to the world. Physically dead, in the ground, a corpse.
Well, wait, what do you mean, I have no power not to sin. You don't, the only person that can enable this is your maker. If your maker wishes not to save you from your sin, then there is nothing you can do to stop it.

We are not to be slaves to sin, well, well about incurable cancer?? Cancer is a sin, and sometimes God doesn't take it away, you die from it.
Same thing as doing drugs, or drinking or anything else that is the equivalent to sin.
Most people would say I am saved, but some people would say I am not. By the things I do, I am considered a sinner.
However, If I go get saved, and my Savior doesn't save me from my sin, then who is to blame??
Will God say to me on the day, I was only kidding about saving you???
Will God say, I only saved half of you???
I did my part God, I turned from my sin, I repented, I got baptized, but I am back in the mud so to speak. Of course my mind has changed, I see things differently, but I am still doing the same things, but I have slowed down. I have mastered my sin rather than sin mastering me. I have told sin when I will visit and when I will leave.
My sin draws me near to the Lord, without it, I would not bother seeking God to help me.
Does this make sense? If it doesn't, then you haven't walked in my shoes. And that is OK, but you must understand, the things in my past made me who I am today. I am hardwired, and haven't been released from the scars of the past.
The peace I receive from my sin is much better than stopping. To stop would not be a good thing, since I have tried to honor God. So, I have simply accepted my condition as a cancer that will eventually kill me. Like all sin, it gives birth and will soon lead me to my grave.
If God releases me from my bondage, I will be happy and maybe lost. But if God doesn't, then I am OK with that also. He understands, and I refuse to put God in a box.
I don't have freewill, it was taken a long time ago.

When I look at Christs life, his childhood,his parents, I see someone who is not like me. I did not have the parents he had, I did not have a childhood filled with learning and caring parents. My brother was not a brother.
I am filled with anger and love, at the same time. Pushed and pulled.
We all take things differently, we all handle things in ways that are not the same as the next person.
Call it excuses, I have heard them all. The tools in my toolbox are not same as yours.