By Avalanche and Bullhorn

Broken and Remolded

“I don’t know how to surrender.”

“I have surrendered myself to the Lord but still…”

“I tried to surrender but it didn’t work.”

“If I surrender…”

Just a small taste of what can go through the thoughts of a person who wants a stronger relationship with the Lord but has not been able to experience the relationship that they want.

“That they want!?”

Here is the key that causes failure in having the relationship that many are seeking with the Lord. Who are “we” to want a relationship, our way… with the Lord? I know that if I set the rules for a relationship that I wanted with the Lord, there would be one key element missing in such a relationship. Missing, would be the Lord.

Oh, He’d be in my life, I know that. Yet, I’d be worshiping Him the way I want, when I want, how I want, if I want and wondering why I don’t feel Him in my life the way I expect. My mind would think of all the ways I could worship, the words I want to pray concerning what I want or need. I’d imagine all the ways I could serve the Lord and may even begin to develop ministry(s) to meet my desire(s) to serve.

“How come after all this, I feel so distant from the Lord?”

“Lord. Why can’t I feel you, know that you are there, I have surrendered to you, look at all the work I did and am doing for you. All the people at church say I’m doing so much for you, I’m asked to help them and I help. I take away from me to give to you but nothing seems to be going right…”

Surrender… is placing oneself in the control of another and doing what they want you to do.

To surrender oneself to the Lord means that the Lord is in control and He is able to step into your life and make His will known to you. To do this, He will need to be close to you, He should be so close that when His will is to be known, you have submitted yourself in a way that He is always near you and He can whisper His will in your ear, or place it directly in your heart.

Surrender, so when you are in trouble and you cry out to the Lord for help and when He reaches out to you, you are near enough to Him that you can reach up and grab onto His hand. He will then lift you back up. A person can’t do that if they have drifted away from the Lord, maybe even walked away and now need help when the enemy has knocked them down.

This distance between you and God can be due to doing it “your” way. Having a relationship with the Lord “your” way, is not the way that relationship should be. This distance never separates you from the Lord but it does cause difficulty when the Lord is called upon for help.

“How do I surrender and do it the Lords way?”

This question, if it could be answered one way… would be great, wouldn’t it? Probably the only way I could answer is to testify how I surrendered cause I bet the answer is different for each and every person who serves the Lord.

Serves the Lord…!!

The result of surrender? I’d have to say, yep… the way I understand it. Long testimony short, I have to go one step more cause my attempt(s) to surrender were always under a condition. A condition that would allow me to remain in my comfortable world serving the Lord the way I wanted. Thus, the reason I didn’t seem to be satisfied or fulfilled.

So without a long testimony, I can sum it up as this… I humbled myself, got down on my knees and asked the Lord to show me, to break me… and He answered this prayer.

He revealed Himself in all His glory and showed me what He can do in the life of a person who surrenders to Him, “His” way and allows Him to be in control. He showed me in such a way that I was turned around 180 degrees from the way I “thought” a relationship with the Lord needed to be. I realized I was my own wall; I was my own stumbling block. I was the reason cause “I needed,” when the whole time all I needed was to stop “needing!” I should just let God be in control. Allow God to guide me and stop telling God what and how I was gonna do it all for Him.

Broken…

Broken and placed back in the heat to be remolded the way He wants me to be.

Serving, as a servant.