Lynbob

Apr 14th 2007, 03:39 PM

Once again real life has gotten frantic, some days I feel like I wake up and grab a tiger by the tail

I am almost too ashamed to tell you what has been going on. My life is starting to resemble a poorly directed Lifetime channel "Don't let this happen to you" type movie Still trudging along with work, feeling somewhat better but still having issues with my health and occasional new issues. I have started going to the gym and have found that swimming laps is very easy on my joints however I got excited and did too much. So I have scaled back and am physically 'looser' not as stiff, not as intense but still pretty constant pain.

I am still in the process of divorce and quite frankly I want it to stop. It is so very wrenching and painful. I finally told Robert lets just sit tight for awhile, its not like either of us is wanting to marry anyone else. As long as we can agree to make Alex our priority and make sure he is taken care of then why rush. Our next court date is June 5th. Unless we come to an agreement on our own or I withdraw my petition or reschedule that is when it is supposed to be final. Again I am giving this up to God, in His time and His will.

My house is still up in the air but I am no longer worried. I know my Father will provide for me and the kids. I am so in awe at how much lighter I feel allowing Him to carry me through all this

My attorney has been arrested reference drug issues. Now as bad as this sounds shortly after we met he was diagnosed with a neurological problem similar to Alex. He had managed to put himself through college and practise (successful although a bit cluttered) law for the last three years. He has been self medicating before being diagnosed. Now that he knows what the issue is the court has him in a rehab program and he is doing well. As far as his legal problems there is a good chance charges will be dropped to misdemeanor or dismissed and he will be able to continue practising. He is not suspended at this time.

Of course I was devasted when this first became known but after I prayed about it I called him and told him to take care of himself first and that I cared about him and would be praying for him. And that once he was ready I would be glad to have him represent me. He was so touched. He credits his faith in being able to get through all the recent turmoil he has been through. He told me that as much as I needed his counsel this past August that he needs my friendship and prayers more. I think it is amazing how God brings people into your life when and where you need them.

The kids and I are still plugging along, getting to know each other and really settle down into a family unit. It feels right, a good fit. I have been spending as much time with my nephew Cody (Danna's big brother) as possible. I worry about him spending too much time with my birth mom's family where there are not many (if any) limits, boundaries, rules, curfew whatever. Where he is allowed to smoke cigarettes (and have them bought for him!) at 15! But also run with a much older crowed where drug use and s*x is common place. Cody needs many prayers for guidance and I am praying the Lord keep a firm grasp on him. Cody is very impressionable and so very sweet. He is very vulnerable to the wrong influences. I have been in contact with his former foster family (whom I love!) who would love to have him back and are a wonderful Christian family with a strong Christian father. Just what he needs.

I believe this family would love to have him back. Currently he is in a group home where is doing very well, it is very structured and his grades in school are good. It just the weekends and holidays that scare me.

I feel like this foster family is my own. We have really hit it off and blend our extended families seamlessly. It could work. I am prayer that whatever He see's as best is done.
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