CoffeeCat
Sep 2nd 2008, 05:00 PM
Hi, everyone.
In the last while, God's really convicted me to come to my brothers and sisters in Christ, and ask for prayer and help in an area of my life. I've spoken to people at church, but I wanted to come here, too, since I spend a good bit of my 'online' time here. I've really been battling the sin of pride lately. In a way, I know pride's just the flip side of insecurity -- if we feel insecure, we try to mask it by acting like we're more than we are. I've been guilty of that, and I feel horrible because of it. Would you please pray with me that I allow God to humble me, break me down, chasten me the way I know I should be? I need to fully realize that I don't have all the answers, or even most of the answers. I need to let God really help me develop a servant's heart for Him. The way I am now, wrapped up in 'me' and my world, being a servant is very difficult, if not nearly impossible. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself... maybe I'm spot on. I'm not sure. But I know I need to learn humility and learn how to trust Christ fully with my life, not myself. Especially with the career I'm moving into.... teaching highschool kids... I'm going to need to be reminded DAILY that it's NOT about me, that Christ is the one governing my life -- the one I need to point my students towards, daily. And I'm the one standing in the way of that... so I know I need work. "Head knowledge" has gotten in the way of being broken to the point of relying on Christ fully, and this pride has to be busted wide open, with God's help.
If you'd pray for and with me, I'd really appreciate it.
Thank you.
Laura aka CoffeeCat
In the last while, God's really convicted me to come to my brothers and sisters in Christ, and ask for prayer and help in an area of my life. I've spoken to people at church, but I wanted to come here, too, since I spend a good bit of my 'online' time here. I've really been battling the sin of pride lately. In a way, I know pride's just the flip side of insecurity -- if we feel insecure, we try to mask it by acting like we're more than we are. I've been guilty of that, and I feel horrible because of it. Would you please pray with me that I allow God to humble me, break me down, chasten me the way I know I should be? I need to fully realize that I don't have all the answers, or even most of the answers. I need to let God really help me develop a servant's heart for Him. The way I am now, wrapped up in 'me' and my world, being a servant is very difficult, if not nearly impossible. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself... maybe I'm spot on. I'm not sure. But I know I need to learn humility and learn how to trust Christ fully with my life, not myself. Especially with the career I'm moving into.... teaching highschool kids... I'm going to need to be reminded DAILY that it's NOT about me, that Christ is the one governing my life -- the one I need to point my students towards, daily. And I'm the one standing in the way of that... so I know I need work. "Head knowledge" has gotten in the way of being broken to the point of relying on Christ fully, and this pride has to be busted wide open, with God's help.
If you'd pray for and with me, I'd really appreciate it.
Thank you.
Laura aka CoffeeCat