Sorry if this is a dumb question

[Kat63]

What does it feel like when God loves you? Is it something you can really feel?
Please don't take this the wrong way, but "love" became a very tainted word for me since before I could even say it. People say it all the time, I even say it sometimes. When people say it to me I feel embarrassed and ashamed. And when I say it to anyone, I feel embarrassed and ashamed and guilty.

[markinro]

What does it feel like when God loves you? Is it something you can really feel?
Please don't take this the wrong way, but "love" became a very tainted word for me since before I could even say it. People say it all the time, I even say it sometimes. When people say it to me I feel embarrassed and ashamed. And when I say it to anyone, I feel embarrassed and ashamed and guilty.

Great question Kat. I pray your search leads you to the other side of the rainbow.

I know what you mean about how the word has become almost cliche. That's why God's Love is so different. There is a great passage in Corinthians - 1 COR 13

The christian group, Petra put it this way...
Love is patient, love is kind
No eyes of envy, true love is blind
Love is humble, it knows no pride
No selfish motive hiden inside
Love is gentle, makes no demands
Despite all wrong, true love still stands
Love is holy, love is pure

1 John 4:8 states "God is love"

God not only loves you, me - even atheists/agnostics (and that's sad) - but His very NATURE is to love us. Another passage Rom 8:35

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

There is NO ONE in this world who can make this statement toward me - not even my own parents.

Do you know of anyone who would go to bat for you like this ?

Here's another scripture. Maybe you have heard this one before...

Heb 13:5 I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU

Think back to the crucifixion. Jesus said "Father, why have you forsaken me?"

God forsook His OWN SON so that we would not have to forsake you or me.

Where in the world can you find love like God's Love ?

[Frances]

Genuine love for someone is wanting the best for the beloved. God wants what is best for you, and sometimes you may feel His Love, but more often you will feel nothing . . .

Unfortunately, the term has been devalued because folk talk about 'love' when they mean 'lust'; and also say they 'love' a meal when they mean they really like it.

A parent who genuinely loves their child will discipline them when necessary - wanting the child to enjoy the best life can offer. . .

[Sold Out]

What does it feel like when God loves you? Is it something you can really feel?
Please don't take this the wrong way, but "love" became a very tainted word for me since before I could even say it. People say it all the time, I even say it sometimes. When people say it to me I feel embarrassed and ashamed. And when I say it to anyone, I feel embarrassed and ashamed and guilty.

For me, it means total acceptance...unconditional love. I do genuinely feel God's love for me. No matter what I do, He still loves me.

I understand what you are saying about saying 'love'. In my childhood, my mom would say she loved me, but then turn around and get drunk. I was not cared for properly as a child, so the word 'love' for me was tainted, like you say. I think that if you love someone, you should prove it by how you act.

That's why I know that God loves me....He proved it.

"But God commendeth (proved) his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8

[Tanya~]

Biblical love is not a feeling. Here is how Scripture defines love:

1 Cor 13:4-8
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never fails.
NKJV

You can see from the above that love isn't a feeling or mushy words, but rather it demonstrates consideration for the object of love -- consideration that has the other's best interests in mind. Here is how God demonstrated His love for us:

Rom 5:8
8 But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
NKJV

If you have experienced things that have confused your idea of what love really is, I do hope that you can explore and come to understand what God's love is all about.

John 15:12-13
This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends.
NKJV

[ServantofTruth]

What does it feel like when God loves you? Is it something you can really feel?
Please don't take this the wrong way, but "love" became a very tainted word for me since before I could even say it. People say it all the time, I even say it sometimes. When people say it to me I feel embarrassed and ashamed. And when I say it to anyone, I feel embarrassed and ashamed and guilty.

Take a look a Matthew's gospel chapters 5,6 & 7 - the Sermon on the Mount. The first 12 verses of chapter 5, tell us a lot about God's blessings/ love for us.

Most people find it easier to see God's love in the New Testament, but a deeper richer understanding is gained when we begin to study the Old Testament as well.

God is Righteous, without flaw/ error. Therefore unlike even our closest friends and family, he can't/ won't let us down. It is wonderful that we are made in God's image, and while we can't begin to understand fully what that means - we must know how to Love correctly, somewhere deep inside us. SofTy. :saint:

[ilovemetal]

well, for me it's kinda like, how do i explain without sounding lame.

if you meet someone, and you get that 'feeling'. that new love feeling. it's like that, but better, and perminent. the reassurance God gives is endless and thus it's not like anything i've had.

here's a quote i like:

"Nothing is more practical than finding God, that is, than falling in love in a quite absolute final way. What you are in love with, what seizes your inmagination, will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning, what you will do with your evenings, how you will spend your weekends, what you read, who you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and grattitude. Fall in love, stay in love and it will decide everything." -Attributed to Father Pedro Arrupe

it is kinda crazy. but crazy in an awsome way. when i wake up i think about God. when i work i chat (eventhough i get no real audible response), i pray because i want to, not because i have to at certain time facing certain directions for certain lengths of time. God's love is vast, endless, and with that brings a joy i've never had. nothing on earth comes close, maybe for a second, because i can physically attain it, but that fades.everything else fades in time, except the love of God.

i highly reccomend it;) (and it's free)

so, that's all i got. word up.

[MrAnteater]

What does it feel like when God loves you? Is it something you can really feel?
Please don't take this the wrong way, but "love" became a very tainted word for me since before I could even say it. People say it all the time, I even say it sometimes. When people say it to me I feel embarrassed and ashamed. And when I say it to anyone, I feel embarrassed and ashamed and guilty.

I know what you mean! Human love can (and will) fail at times and hurt will be the result. It's hard to express love when we have been stepped on in the past.

But God is different. He is incapable of operating outside of His nature (always tells the truth, is holy, will always forgive our sins when we ask Him). It's because His nature cannot change, His love for us can never change or be broken. He will love us forever when we put our faith in Jesus. Jesus came to earth because of God's love and His desire to have an everlasting relationship with Him.

When you put your faith in Jesus and ask for His forgiveness, the holy spirit dwells within us and guides us. I think you can feel that connection with the holy spirit. It's a feeling of peace and fulfillment is the best way I can describe it. It also has to do with the guarantee that through faith in Jesus we will have eternal life that gives this peace and fulfillment. Accepting Jesus doesn't make us perfect but does change our nature and priorities in life. You will feel less like fulfilling your own selfish needs and more like serving others and God.

I hope you accept Jesus in your life! You don't have to learn everything all at once or become a bible expert overnight. It's a life long process of growing, that's why it's called a walk with God. God will never fail you. He will always be there when you need him.

[dljc]

Hi Kat63,


1 John 4:
16 And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.

17 Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world.

18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

19 We love him, because he first loved us.


Kat, God loves us so much His Son paid the ultimate price so we could be free from sin and death. (The Crucifixion and Resurrection).

When sin entered the world, love has gotten perverted over the years you might say. Not His love, but the way we understand love. Generally speaking we will use this word to get what we want, regardless of what that might be. That's why I say over the years it has become perverted.

As you walk closer with Him, and understand all that He's done for you (setting you free from the bondage of sin), you begin to understand love on His terms. The way He meant it to be in the first place.

John 15:13 Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

Would you lay down your life for your friend? Would you lay down your life for someone you didn't know? (Even though you don't know me, would you lay down your life for me? I would for you). That's the kind of love He has for us, unconditional love.

Romans 5:8 But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

Look into what "scourging" by Roman soldiers really was, and what a crucifixion really was. Jesus was beaten "half dead" and died on the cross in only a few hours on it. Three days later He rose (was resurrected). All of this was so we could be reconciled with God. That's how much He loves you!

[Esperanza32]

[quote=Kat63;1806537]What does it feel like when God loves you? Is it something you can really feel?
[quote]

God loves ALL of us, Christian or not, so you can answer this question yourself. Much of the time, I don't feel God's love for me at all. A lot of the time I really FEEL like disgusting unlovable crud. But my feelings don't change the fact of God's huge indescribable love for me. God loves me (and you) so much that he created us, and he sent Jesus to die for us and be resurrected for us, and he sent the Holy Spirit to live in us and comfort us. As a Christian, I have the Holy Spirit and the peace that passes understanding, but that doesn't mean for a minute that I'm going to feel God's love all the time. (Some people seem to feel God's love a lot more than me...but the moments when I've really felt loved are few and far between.)

I think I wrote that for me, more than for you, Kat. I needed the reminder. Thank you for asking. I pray that you'll accept God's huge love for you through Jesus, even if it's not always easy to feel. It's real, even when we don't feel it.

[Kat63]

Sometimes I would go to church, but stay in the hallway outside the sanctuary because I didn't really want to see anybody, and I didn't really want them to see me. There is something I would feel when I was that close. Something good and safe. I liked it and it made me want to keep going back. I've said that I couldn't feel that goodness or safeness anymore, but that's not true. I was angry and didn't want to feel it anymore so I stopped going. I drove by the church building Wednesday evening, and saw a couple of cars, so I went in. There were only a very few people there, but that feeling was there. It made me cry, I didn't know I missed it that much.
Is that feeling God's love?

[Tanya~]

:) I would say yes. Also I would say that the feeling you had was the Holy Spirit speaking to your heart, to tell you that you really do belong there, that He wants you there, and that He will meet with you there.

[markinro]

Sometimes I would go to church, but stay in the hallway outside the sanctuary because I didn't really want to see anybody, and I didn't really want them to see me. There is something I would feel when I was that close. Something good and safe. I liked it and it made me want to keep going back. I've said that I couldn't feel that goodness or safeness anymore, but that's not true. I was angry and didn't want to feel it anymore so I stopped going. I drove by the church building Wednesday evening, and saw a couple of cars, so I went in. There were only a very few people there, but that feeling was there. It made me cry, I didn't know I missed it that much.
Is that feeling God's love?

Hi Kat,

Nothing wrong with any of this. He is calling everyone to repentance - you were one of a few who listened, who heard Him knocking. Do you know anyone at this church ? If you can, stop by during the day and talk with the pastor/leader. It might not be overwhelming with a one-to-one meeting.

[tango]

What does it feel like when God loves you? Is it something you can really feel?
Please don't take this the wrong way, but "love" became a very tainted word for me since before I could even say it. People say it all the time, I even say it sometimes. When people say it to me I feel embarrassed and ashamed. And when I say it to anyone, I feel embarrassed and ashamed and guilty.

I'm going to interpret the question slightly differently to how you've worded it.

The thing is, God loves you all the time. He loves you so much he sent his son to die in your place so you could be forgiven, and so you could spend eternity in heaven.

In terms of what it feels like to actually feel God's love, it's hard to describe in many ways. If you imagine the love you feel when another person holds you close (I'm talking holding you close with no ulterior motives here!), then magnify it and know without any doubt at all that there are no ulterior motives and that love will never fade.

For me when I really came to understand God's love was after spending a long time running and hiding from it, and actively fighting it. For me it was like I'd spent the previous several days desperately fleeing it, throwing up anything I could find to block out God's light, and then finally decided to quit running and embrace it. I'm going to borrow a few words from a song titled "Accept the Lamb" by a Christian rock/metal band named Bloodgood, because they sum it up pretty well:

Against the wall, as the hands of light reach out to hold you
Heed the call, on bended knees resist the fall
Falling asleep, in His arms
Screams from the street...all are gone

The thing about love is that English only has one word for it. Greek has three that I know of (I think there's a fourth but can't be sure). Greek has eros, which is the kind of physical sexual love between a man and wife. There is phileo which is the kind of love you have for family and friends. Then there is agape which is the kind of love that just keeps loving and giving with no conditions.

When we as humans say "I love you" we're usually using eros or phileo depending on the context. When God says "I love you" to us, he's talking about agape.

[Kat63]

I don't know if this is the right place for this. It's a poem I wrote about where I find myself most of the time.

My mind is cloudy, filled with doubt
But my trembling hand is reaching out
I need to know you're reaching too
I'm scared and alone. I can't see you.
Through roaring winds of guilt and shame
I can barely hear you whisper my name.
I want to be wherever you are
But how could you want me, I've drifted so far.
Waves of sorrow weigh my heavy heart down
I'm sinking, but I just don't care if I drown.
Your mercy and grace rain down like a gift
But my hand withdraws to a tightly clenched fist.
You tell me you're with me, that I can be free
But I still feel the chains of my past choking me.
I want to believe you, to get past this doubt
So once again, I'm reaching my trembling hand out.

[Tanya~]

That is a very moving post, Kat. :hug:

Do you want to receive the Lord? Are you ready to do that?

[Kat63]

I don't know.
Sometimes I think so.
Sometimes I just want God to hear me.

[Tanya~]

I completely understand that. What do you think of this passage:

Isa 59:1-2
Behold, the LORD's hand is not shortened,
That it cannot save;
Nor His ear heavy,
That it cannot hear.
2 But your iniquities have separated you from your God;
And your sins have hidden His face from you,
So that He will not hear.
NKJV

In your poem, you express the knowledge that you have sinned, and that you feel this separates you from Him. You are exactly right about that. This is everyone's dilemma. But we can get forgiveness of sin and reconciliation with God.1 John 1:5-10
This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all. 6 If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. 7 But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.

8 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His word is not in us.
NKJV
Pray to God and confess your sins to Him. Ask Him to forgive you through Christ who died for your sins. If you do that, come back here and tell me what happened. :) :hug:

[tango]

Kat, I have to say your poem was beautiful. I understand your desire to just be heard by God, to know that God is there.

When I first appeared in this forum asking questions I felt much the same thing. I'd been involved in the church before and walked away, and really didn't know if God would have me back at all. By the time I was posting here I'd come to the conclusion that God did exist in the form described by Christians and that if he would have me back I wanted to know more.

The good news is that God is always there for you. Sometimes feeling God's presence is dramatic, sometimes it's very personal. What's most important of all is that you allow God to love you in his way, which might not be your way. It's easy to put God in a box and miss out on something because it isn't what we expected.

For now, why not just take some time out and ask God to reveal his love for you?

[Kat63]

TanyaP: That passage in Isaiah makes me think that maybe God hears me but chooses not to answer me because I'm no good. I'm not saying I'm right or wrong, but that's what it makes me think.
I pray apologies almost all the time but I get no answer. I have a friend who is a preacher (I probably make him crazy with all my questions, it's probably a good thing I joined here - to give him a little break :)). He says that God wants more then apologies, He wants everything, all of me, cobwebs and all. I'm not sure I'm willing to go that far.

tango: Thank you. I'm not really much of a poet, but every once in a while I kind of feel a need to write out my feelings.
I think about the good feeling I get being around the people at the church as a spill-over effect. It's not aimed at me, it's like an overflow of what's already there with them. Meant for them and not for me. I guess I'm kind of like a puppy under the kid's table knowing something good is coming, waiting for it to spill over, and enjoying it while I'm there. But unlike the puppy I wouldn't take the first opportunity to hop up on the table and feast.
I don't know if that is a very good analogy, but I saw my friend's puppy doing that. He gave up on the adult table because the adults kept pushing him away with their feet, but he realized the kids didn't care that he was there picking up their crumbs and spills.

[tango]

Kat, your analogy of the puppy and the tables is a good one. Sometimes we can go to a church and just feel like we aren't welcome there, that they keep pushing us away, or that they simply tolerate us taking whatever is surplus to their requirements. That's the fault of the people, not of God, and you can find the same thing any time an established group of people meet regularly.

When you arrive among a group of people who love God, you said yourself you noticed that it spills out onto anyone else nearby. The idea isn't that it's just some surplus they didn't need, like you're picking up the crumbs nobody else wanted. What you're experiencing is the love of God flowing out through Christians to anyone else, welcoming them and inviting them to share in that love for themselves. Rather than sitting under the table gathering crumbs and hoping not to get kicked, you get to sit at the table and enjoy the feast.

The invitation is there, the only question is whether you want to sit at the table or not.

[Tanya~]

TanyaP: That passage in Isaiah makes me think that maybe God hears me but chooses not to answer me because I'm no good. I'm not saying I'm right or wrong, but that's what it makes me think.

I understand completely. But it is true... we are no good. It's a hard thing to take. It's our sin though that makes us no good. Beyond the sin, there is something that God wants to redeem -- He wants us but the sin stands in the way. You are of value to God so much so, that He sent His Son to die for your sins.

I pray apologies almost all the time but I get no answer. I have a friend who is a preacher (I probably make him crazy with all my questions, it's probably a good thing I joined here - to give him a little break :)). He says that God wants more then apologies, He wants everything, all of me, cobwebs and all. I'm not sure I'm willing to go that far.

That's nice that you have this friend and it is also nice that you have us! :hug: He's right of course. The apologies only go so far. Making confession to God is a good thing but it falls short if you don't believe the gospel and receive Christ. The confession/repentance part is what prepares the way for the Lord. It's like the housecleaning you do before the arrival of an important guest. The housecleaning is good, but the whole point of it is to prepare for that special guest.

To approach the throne of God, we need to have a means of access, and that means is Christ. He is the Mediator between us and God.

[DaniHansen]

What does it feel like when God loves you? Is it something you can really feel?

Yes. Like a really warm, really soft blanket fresh out of the dryer.

Mmmmm.

Do I feel it all of the time? No. There are times when God is taking me through certain places in my life where those feelings seem far away, even though He ultimately never leaves me comfortless. During those times, He teaches me lessons I could otherwise not learn. Kind of like hugging on your kids in the morning and then sending them off to school to learn. Which is a challenge for them, but they know they are going to come home to more hugs. :)

Have I felt it often, and do I know it's real? Definitely.

[Kat63]

I believe in God, and I feel the "good" that radiates out when some Christians gather, but I just have a hard time believing an invisible God loves me. It would have been much easier to believe if he would have showin me his love when I was a child begging for rescue.
Sometimes I do want that "good" to fill me, and radiate out from me, but I guess the child inside me still hurts and makes my heart turn cold.

[tango]

Kat, why not spend a little time talking to God. It will feel really strange at first, but talk to God about how you feel. It sounds like you're saying you want that relationship with God but need to be satisfied that he's interested in you.

The good news is that the offer of salvation is open to all (the emphasis is mine here):

Joh 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

It certainly sounds like you're hurting because of your past, but you can give all of that to God as well. Jesus himself said this:

Mat 11:28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Mat 11:29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Mat 11:30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

[ConservChrist]

You know, God loves us, as a whole, the entire human race. God also, saw and and foresaw and sees how we are now. Terrible people we are. God also made a place for sin and the sinner to go and that is hell. Of course, seeing His creation, whom He did and does love, being cast into hell was even more terrible. Heart breaking.

You see, back in the old days, there was a way with God to be forgiven of sins.

Thing about sin is, it's very serious with God. I mean, sin is the very opposite of God and seeing that God is love and all powerful, well, He wins. :-D

But the way to be forgiven back in the old days was for a group of people to bring the best, and I mean the best, of their livestock before the alter of God. Now this may seem cruel to many but what took place was much more important. You see, the only thing that could suffer the consequence of the sins was blood..be it theirs or something else's. In those days, they used the blood of the most perfect of the stock, be it a sheep, bull, goat, whatever they were raising at the time. Now, it had to be the perfect for a few reasons. One, in order to wipe the sins, it had to be unblemished blood. And two, in order to get unblemished blood, what other could be better than the most perfect of the bunch? So that's how it was done. They sacrificed the most perfect of the 'sheep to wash their sins away and be forgiven.

Anyway, the sin in the world, at that time become so over whelming and saddening to God, because He saw His love, His creation, us, going to hell, a place not originally meant for us. And, also sadly, nothing in the world could wash the sins away from everyone. There just wasn't anything perfect enough....except...God.

So, therefore, God sent, well, Himself, to us in the form a of a small baby boy, becoming fully human, and still remaining fully God.
The beauty of it, there was, what became, a man. Perfect, spotless, unblemished, and most importantly, sinless. Now even though this boy was God, He was still a boy. He grew up with a mother and non biological father along with siblings. As I'm sure you know, they call Him Jesus. He grew up just like anyone else. Learning, living, and loving. He learned how to live, and he lived to love and He loved you.
Well anyway, God saw Jesus was good, perfect, and called Him Son. It was this Son, Jesus, that God would sacrifice to wash away the sins of humankind for all who were and were to come. So, at the age of 30, (when Jewish people were able to become Rabbis) Jesus began His journey. It lasted three years impacting the world tremendously.
Well, loll and behold, Jesus was and is our sacrifice for our sins.
Because He sacrificed Jesus Christ on the cross, spilling His blood for us all, we, if we choose to believe, are saved from damnation to hell. However, for those who choose not to believe, are already condemned.
You see, Jesus wasn't sent to this world to condemn us, but to save us.
God the Father sent His only Son, so that we, you and me, would be able to join Him in heaven.

What better display of love is there? Self sacrificing love. Unconditional love.

Here is the thing about true love Kat, it isn't a feeling.
It is an action.

[ConservChrist]

I believe in God, and I feel the "good" that radiates out when some Christians gather, but I just have a hard time believing an invisible God loves me. It would have been much easier to believe if he would have showin me his love when I was a child begging for rescue.
Sometimes I do want that "good" to fill me, and radiate out from me, but I guess the child inside me still hurts and makes my heart turn cold.


I just want to say though, that a lot of us were hurt. But God isn't to blame. He gave us all freewill. And, sadly, it is the free will we all abuse that hurt us and each other. I will say this though, the experiences I have gone through in my life, some non too pretty, have helped me become strong as a Christian to be able to help others who have been through similar situations.
When I was eight years old, I was molested. Sad it was, sad it is...but now, for those one: who were molested, and two: who are molesters, I can now help and pray for. Yes even the molesters.
We must pray for our enemies. Anyone can curse their enemy, but, honestly, what is the reward in that? But to love and pray for them, now that screams love.

[DaniHansen]

I believe in God, and I feel the "good" that radiates out when some Christians gather, but I just have a hard time believing an invisible God loves me. It would have been much easier to believe if he would have showin me his love when I was a child begging for rescue.
Sometimes I do want that "good" to fill me, and radiate out from me, but I guess the child inside me still hurts and makes my heart turn cold.

I was much abused as a child, so I can relate to how you feel. But, that wounded child you are carrying around inside is never going to be healed or allowed to grow up without God taking care of it. He has preserved your life and brought you this far (while you thought He was doing nothing ... which I can certainly also relate to), and He has brought people into your life who love you very much and who should help you understand that your abusers were fallen people who did not allow God to control their lives, or they would not have abused you. They were sinners and without God.

Why do you let your past determine who you are going to be? What I ses is that those who wounded you, are still controlling you, because you are letting that child on the inside of you control you, even now. Not that I blame you, because I do understand, as I used to do the same thing. It can be hard to let go and trust when the pain speaks so loudly to us.

But ...

Are you still a child? Where are those who abused you? Do you not see that the past is gone? I would encourage you to take control, make your own choice, step out of the shackles of the past, and move forward with God. Why continue to deny yourself His love? There is currently nobody denying yourself anything, but you. Do you not see that? Are you not worth God's love? Yes, yes you are. He sent His Son to die for you. That is what you are worth. The life of God's Son. And He is near you, even now. As close as your next breath. :hug:

[Sold Out]

I believe in God, and I feel the "good" that radiates out when some Christians gather, but I just have a hard time believing an invisible God loves me. It would have been much easier to believe if he would have showin me his love when I was a child begging for rescue.
Sometimes I do want that "good" to fill me, and radiate out from me, but I guess the child inside me still hurts and makes my heart turn cold.

You don't have to be anything or do anything to have God's love. He has loved you from the moment of your conception. What separated you from a relationship with Him is your sin. He gave you a solution to that. The love has always been there, but your sin caused you not to feel it. In order to get it back, you have to put your trust in what Jesus did. This will clear up the problem. Just pray and ask Jesus to forgive you of your sins and to save you. He is sitting at the right hand of the Father waiting for you, with open arms.