My ex...

[Metamorphasis]

I shouldn't have gone through some of her posts. I feel like I'm going to blow up, I get angry all the time. I feel tossed aside, and replaced with something "better" you know how that makes one feel?! She talks about what I consider to be (at one point) the most beautiful thing in my life, I mean she was like the sunshine to me, her face illuminated every aspect of my life when is saw her, like it was a trap. I had anger problems, I had past s*xual problems that were never dealt with, and I guess I should have tried harder, but why do I get made out in all of this to be the ugliness that just needed to be cast aside. I'm still not over her and she washed her hands of me very quickly, which I knew she was ready to do. I just hate all of this, it angers me to no end. I want to be the mature and grown up one, but I want so badly for this "perfect little relationship" she has with this guy she eagerly replaced me with to blow up in her face. I find her naive, like she isn't ever going to find a problem with this new guy, and how she thinks its just me, she had a hand in it too! I'm sorry but I want so badly to see her learn a harsh lesson, I begged for her to take me back, and I guess I don't deserve her since I, for a time which I regret and I was being completely stupid, cast her aside and thought something else would make me happy. There is no justice, I swear...sorry about the rant and incoherence, I am just so upset, as I always get over this...she even told me she never even loved me the whole time, she just "didn't know what love was at the time." It makes me sick how much the most beautiful thing in this world can be so wretched and ugly!!

[unkerns]

Pray for her, just pray for her.

You cannot seek to be filled in someone who is imperfect they will fail you everytime. As alot of people say your trying to fill a Yahweh sized hole with a woman.

"Unforgiveness is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die"

[Metamorphasis]

Your quote at the end has a lot of truth to it. I feel better then I did last night. I just think I need to see a counselor to get over this, or I will never be able to move on.

[unkerns]

Im glad I was able to help, I would also suggest having a close church body(bible studies, etc.) and letting them help you and sharpen you.

[winwun]

Meta, hurts like what you are experiencing can drive you to your knees, which just might be a good position to be in when you sincerely say, "God, I can't handle this, so I'm turning it over to you".

If you say this (and mean it) I will guarantee you that you will fell like the sun has risen in your heart.

I guess, now that I think about it, that is exactly what will happen, only it will be SON, rather than sun . . .

I wish I could ease your grief -- it makes me feel bad to know that a fellow Christian is hurting, but this is a load for you to give to God . . .

If the hurt doesn't go away, everytime it comes back, just stop what you are doing, and say, "God, I need you", and He will be there . . .