Diary

[therebythegraceofg]

Hi everyone, before i begin I just want to give a bit of a background on myself. I'm 25 years old and I have struggled for the last few years with pornography. I try to live without it but i always end up sinning. My main flaw is i always think "It's ok God will forgive me" and then after always feel guilty and so so upset. I'm lying to myself, lying to my religion and taking advantage of God, who made the ultimate sacrifice for me, I've had enough. "Resist the devil and he will flee from you" tonight is the final straw i want to be saved and released from this cancer of my mind and soul. I’ve posted here in the past when im in pain (those of you who struggle with this will know the torment) and i always feel better when sharing issues but this is temporary comfort and I always slip back into the devils way.

What i intend to do is to try and resist porn and set myself the target to not look at porn for the rest of 2008. I intend to keep a diary on here which I will welcome comments which will hopefully keep me on the safe road and possibly help others out there reading. One thing I am is honest, and every sinful thought or stumble will be posted on here, Im hoping this will keep me occupied from the sin and bring me closer to God and living the life desired.

October 27th 2008
Its 11:22pm here in Britain and at roughly 11pm I looked at porn, and the video was one I’ve seen before. One thing I always say to myself (proving the devil is tormenting me) is that if i can open the page and when the video is playing look away then the excitement without actually looking at porn will be my daily fix. This is wrong! When praying and spending time with God (every night before i go to bed) i said to myself i must stop this NO MEANS NO! (quote me on this in the future!!) tonight's failure was because of this. I know to beat this, no searches on google, no visiting pages and trying to get the fix this way. NO MEANS NO I feel guilty about what’s happened, the torment must stop. 65 days to go, Tonight im praying to God for strength xxxxxx

[ƒσяєяυииєя]

Hello fellow,

I`ll pray for you, you know I passed through that kind of thing, till i realized i could not from myself do anything. You know with my strength. I lived sinning and repenting, from the same sin, no deliverance was experienced.

Till the gospel came throught the providence of God, to get me out of the great waters, a promise which says God will do it.

For he spake, and it was done; he commanded, and it stood fast. Psalm 33:9

For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater:

So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. Isaiah 55:10,11.


Send thine hand from above; rid me, and deliver me out of great waters. Psalm 144:7

For sin shall not have dominion over you: for ye are not under the law, but under grace. Romans 6:14.

..yield your members servants to righteousness unto holiness. Romans 6:19

Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord. Acts 3:19.

For God hath not called us unto uncleanness, but unto holiness. 1 Thessalonians 4:7

Behold the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world. John 1:29.

There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. 1 Corinthians 10:13.


Go and get that victory my friend.

For verily I say unto you, Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled. Matthew 5:18

God bless

[cheech]

Porn is a huge stronghold to overcome but definitely not impossible.

1 Cor 10:13
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Sometimes it takes removing that which causes you temptation...that may be your computer. Not many like to think about that but as with any addiction, you must remove the source. you must also try to find the root of the problem as porn is a symptom but not the root. Worth thinking about.

[therebythegraceofg]

October 28th 2008
Hi guys this is the second post. So far so good! I almost fell however, meaning id have to post here with my tail between my legs. At the top of my explorer window is the AVG toolbar and the porn search was there, I would be lying to say I wasn't tempted, I got that excitement and again thought maybe if I look at the page and look away..., I quickly however "rushed" over and are posting this message now, anyone who views this is my accountability partner, but it worked. Thank you for the messages so far, I’m pretty chuffed with tonight’s events (as insignificant as they might seem). I know there is still a huge way to go but the first hurdle has been cleared. God's strength has helped me tonight :pp

1 down 64 to go xxxxxx

P.S The AVG toolbar has been cleared and i’m now off the net now for a shower and bed.

[therebythegraceofg]

October 29th 2008
Third post and things are still ok. Today I haven’t even been tempted by this sin which I think is down to tiredness from doing overtime in the office 9am to 8pm. I do agree with people that one way to help combat this sin is to keep yourself occupied. I haven’t thought about porn at all as I have been occupied by working late, cooking my tea, watching TV and now posting on here. One thing that I recommend to others in here is keep occupied with something else!!
2 down 63 to go (steady progress is good progress) xxxxxx

[cheech]

Keep up the good work!

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Phil 4:13

"You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world." 1 John 4:4

[therebythegraceofg]

October 30th 2008
Day three and I’m still managing to hold out. I’ve kept myself occupied by going to the gym after work and this has proved successful, as you quote cheech ‘I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me’ I feel stronger then before with help from prayer and the genuine belief that God wants what’s best for me are having a strong impact. Today I have had no urges to search for porn and feel almost embarrassed by the idea and that I have previously done it. I know the devil will provide me with stronger urges in the future and it will be a case of holding out but I feel more prepared.. I just hope I don’t let anybody down.
3 down 62 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

October 30th 2008
Day three and I’m still managing to hold out. I’ve kept myself occupied by going to the gym after work and this has proved successful, as you quote cheech ‘I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me’ I feel stronger then before with help from prayer and the genuine belief that God wants what’s best for me are having a strong impact. Today I have had no urges to search for porn and feel almost embarrassed by the idea and that I have previously done it. I know the devil will provide me with stronger urges in the future and it will be a case of holding out but I feel more prepared.. I just hope I don’t let anybody down.
3 down 62 to go xxxxxx

Good, so far so good!!! Here is another scripture for your continued encouragement and for you to ponder.

Isaiah 41:9-10 'You are my servant'; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

owl :)

[therebythegraceofg]

October 31st 2008

Again so far so good, I have spent a good deal of time on the internet today and I haven’t had any urges. From what I learnt so far since I’ve started is how vital it is to keep occupied. I think many people, including myself in the past, have just thought ‘well I’m on the net surely a quick look wont hurt’ or testing yourself to see if you can defeat it. As I stated above, no means no and these are the golden rules I must follow.
Thanks for the message wiseoldowl very much appreciated! :)
4 down 61 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

October 30th 2008

Again so far so good, I have spent a good deal of time on the internet today and I haven’t had any urges. From what I learnt so far since I’ve started is how vital it is to keep occupied. I think many people, including myself in the past, have just thought ‘well I’m on the net surely a quick look wont hurt’ or testing yourself to see if you can defeat it. As I stated above, no means no and these are the golden rules I must follow.
Thanks for the message wiseoldowl very much appreciated! :)
4 down 61 to go xxxxxx

Hey, you are even doing better than you thought. Today is October 31 2008 (not October 30th 2008) as you wrote above. ;) So you've gained a day! :cool:

Yep, best to not go there to those websites at all. And keeping occupied in some worthwhile way makes great sense.

God bless.

[therebythegraceofg]

November 1st 2008

I’m off to see some friends and will be asleep when I’m back so an early post! Today has seen no pornography and I have kept myself occupied today by shopping and the gym. Thanks again wiseoldowl for your advice and my date mishap (it has now been corrected) I’m feeling pretty good about things so far. I know the devil is going to tempt me and its I’m sure the strength given to me by prayer and God will help me more than before.

5 down 60 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

November 1st 2008

I’m off to see some friends and will be asleep when I’m back so an early post! Today has seen no pornography and I have kept myself occupied today by shopping and the gym. Thanks again wiseoldowl for your advice and my date mishap (it has now been corrected) I’m feeling pretty good about things so far. I know the devil is going to tempt me and its I’m sure the strength given to me by prayer and God will help me more than before.

5 down 60 to go xxxxxx

Doing good! :pray:ing for you!

Adding this to encourage you:

Hebrews 4:14-16 (NIV)Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

[thewgill]

Keep it up, thereby. It is a struggle, but God can overcome with your willingness.

When you're on the web, do so with a purpose.

God bless.

[therebythegraceofg]

November 2nd 2008

Hi everyone, I’ve managed to get through the weekend without looking at porn, though I must admit there have been urges when I’ve just been looking at the web without a purpose but God has provided me with strength and I’ve managed to come through this. I agree with you thewgill, I must have a purpose or I know I stand a greater chance of falling. I want to thank everyone for the messages so far :hug:, every message has provided me with determination, willingness and a greater sense to achieve this. It’s back to the work routine as it’s the end of the weekend and this means that time won’t be as available as in the weekend which should help.

I think posting everything on here also has given me more determination to succeed as everything is being shared in the open which does help believe it or not!

6 down 59 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

November 2nd 2008


I think posting everything on here also has given me more determination to succeed as everything is being shared in the open which does help believe it or not!

6 down 59 to go xxxxxx


I believe it! :pp

I am going through the bible in a year plan currently in Job :help:and the Gospel according to Mark. This morning before logging in here I read this and wrote it down to remember. Am sharing it with you. Jesus said it to his disciples in the garden of Gethsemane.

Mark 14:38 "Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing but the body is weak."

:pray:

[therebythegraceofg]

November 3rd 2008

It’s been a week today since I first came on here feeling ashamed of myself and in a bit of a state. Looking back on things in a way I’m glad the incident happened because it has finally given me a wake up call to the vicious circle I was constantly playing out and has led me to seeing the light and believing I can get out of things. It’s been stated that porn is like being addicted to a drug and I can see where they are coming from but I’m glad to get this milestone crossed off though to be fair it seems much longer but this justifies your comment wiseoldowl ‘the spirit is willing but the body is week’. Never has a truer passage been appropriate for this task.

Today has seen me kept occupied by work and then television to keep away from the net when I don't have anything to search for. I have had urges today for that excitement when looking at porn but I have had the strength to fight them off.

7 down (one week!!) 58 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

November 3rd 2008

It’s been a week today since I first came on here feeling ashamed of myself and in a bit of a state. Looking back on things in a way I’m glad the incident happened because it has finally given me a wake up call to the vicious circle I was constantly playing out and has led me to seeing the light and believing I can get out of things. It’s been stated that porn is like being addicted to a drug and I can see where they are coming from but I’m glad to get this milestone crossed off though to be fair it seems much longer but this justifies your comment wiseoldowl ‘the spirit is willing but the body is week’. Never has a truer passage been appropriate for this task.

Today has seen me kept occupied by work and then television to keep away from the net when I don't have anything to search for. I have had urges today for that excitement when looking at porn but I have had the strength to fight them off.

7 down (one week!!) 58 to go xxxxxx

Yes, by God's grace you can be an overcomer in this. Many of us who share here have been freed from various types of addictions and other sinful things which have kept us from having the close relationship with God and the Christian walk He is calling us to.

Accountability is a key in our freedom and progress. I hope you have someone to whom you can be accountable on a regular basis face to face or someone to talk to..some kind of support person or group. I know some churches have groups of those who are recovering from this type of addiction and wondered if yours does. Meanwhile, continue here with us as we pray for you and believe with you for freedom in this. Many who don't post will be reading and praying as well as gaining encouragement from what you are posting here. The stumbling block you have been through is something you may be able to help others overcome once you feel sufficiently passed it and grounded in the Word.

I like this scripture...

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10, 12

Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:

If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!
Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

Notice..three strands..two people and God. :)

[therebythegraceofg]

November 04th 2008

Eight days down and things are still going well. Ive managed to keep myself occupied by television and cooking my dinner (may sound a tame day but it's done the trick) I haven't had any temptation to actively go and look at porn so today is a good day :) Thanks for your advice wiseoldowl, again very much appreciated, all advice and passages are proving to be a huge help :thumbsup: .

8 down 57 to go xxxxxx (it will be double figures before you know it :D)

[Yankee Candle]

You need to go through deliverance. Then you need to throw your computer out the window.

May the Lord set you free from this problem.

Sincerely,

Yankee Candle:)

[therebythegraceofg]

November 5th 2008

Today has seen me pass the 9 day barrier but today has been a struggle, unfortunately it was the old cycle of going on the net for the sake of it. I almost slipped but unlike before I managed to put things into perspective. Do I really want to fall back again? Do I really want my efforts to crumble away and leave me at square one again? I managed to resist and instead found myself watching a video of Barack Obama's victory speech. I'm glad I managed to resist and unlike before I'm stating to question the whole pornography stance, its basically seeing women as objects, women who can offer so much more, my life has been greatly influenced by women like my Mum, Grandparents, female friends, girlfriends, female teachers etc and all porn is doing is using them like toys which is extremely disappointing more then anything. I'm in a reflective mood and in a way this is beneficial as its helping me put everything into place in relation to my life, religion and women.

Thank you for the comments and hope given yankee candle. It's all very much appreciated.

9 down 56 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

November 5th 2008

Today has seen me pass the 9 day barrier but today has been a struggle, unfortunately it was the old cycle of going on the net for the sake of it. I almost slipped but unlike before I managed to put things into perspective. Do I really want to fall back again? Do I really want my efforts to crumble away and leave me at square one again? I managed to resist and instead found myself watching a video of Barack Obama's victory speech. I'm glad I managed to resist and unlike before I'm stating to question the whole pornography stance, its basically seeing women as objects, women who can offer so much more, my life has been greatly influenced by women like my Mum, Grandparents, female friends, girlfriends, female teachers etc and all porn is doing is using them like toys which is extremely disappointing more then anything. I'm in a reflective mood and in a way this is beneficial as its helping me put everything into place in relation to my life, religion and women.

Thank you for the comments and hope given yankee candle. It's all very much appreciated.

9 down 56 to go xxxxxx


:pray:................

Matthew 6:13 "And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one."

[therebythegraceofg]

November 6th 2008

10 days!! Another Landmark crossed off. After yesterdays near slip-up I've decided not to use the net as much as last night and took work home with me to work on. God has worked with me so far and when the real test was there yesterday God helped me through it. I'm feeling stronger and are glad things are still going on.

10 down 55 to go xxxxxx

[therebythegraceofg]

November 7th 2008

It's a bit of an early post today as i'm tired and will be off to bed soon, Again has seen me porn free however temptations have been there to look at porn. I have resisted this again thanks to the strength of God. I have plans in place to keep me occupied this weekend and hopefully keep me away from aimlessly searching the net. 11 days feels like some achievement so far and I now have the two week barrier in my sight.

11 down 54 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

Hi 'there' again, Thanks for sharing. It's hard to write out your user name..so just calling you "there". :)

Anyway, want you to know you are in my daily prayers. Many have faced this same struggle and have started threads and received help here. You may find it helpful to read through some of them if you haven't already.

I also want to encourage you again to be in good fellowship with other Christians and, if you can, try to find a group to help support you in this..a place where you can be accountable and talk about it face to face with others who are also in recovery. The more it comes to the light in the right atmosphere..the less the enemy can sneak back in.


Sharing another scripture:


The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. (Matthew 7:25)

Praying that your house has it's foundation on the rock of Christ.

Have a good weekend,

owl :wave:

[therebythegraceofg]

November 08 2008

Sorry for the late post, I haven't been to well. The record is still going which now stands as 12 days. Wiseoldowl thanks again for your comments, If church doesn't have anything posted about a group who do i ask? I don't want to bother anyone.

12 down 53 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

November 08 2008

Sorry for the late post, I haven't been to well. The record is still going which now stands as 12 days. Wiseoldowl thanks again for your comments, If church doesn't have anything posted about a group who do i ask? I don't want to bother anyone.

12 down 53 to go xxxxxx

Sorry to hear you aren't feeling too well. As to your question: If the church hasn't posted a meeting time it is likely they don't have a support group for this unless it is only posted monthly or something like that. It could be called, "Celebrate Recovery." You could check with a pastoral staff person or simply call the church and ask them about support groups. Another possibility is to find a trusted, mature, and understanding friend to talk with..

Meanwhile, I think it will edify and benefit you to read this testimony right here on Breaking the Chains from a staff administrator. :)

http://bibleforums.org/forum/showpost.php?p=1737682&postcount=14

For Slug1's longer testimony you can click on the link at the bottom of the page of the above where it says "My Testimony".

owl :pray:

[thekels9]

Great job!! I would encourage you, if you like to read, to find a book that would encourage you for these hard moments of temptation. Watching TV is one thing to keep you preoccupied, but there is a lot of filth on TV as well. If you're filling your mind with Godly things in those moments of temptation, I think true healing will come more readily!

[therebythegraceofg]

November 09th 2008

Today has seen me relax a bit and take it easy in preparation for work tomorrow. I have spent todays net visits on wikipedia and catching up on television programmes, anything to keep me occupied. Again I would like to thank you all for the comments. I will read slug1's testimony as I'm hoping this will inspire me and make me stronger. Thank you for your comment as well thekels9 every comment helps alot! At the end of today I have avoided pornography again, another day crossed off.

13 down 52 to go xxxxxx

[therebythegraceofg]

November 10th 2008

Two weeks have now passed! :pp It seems much longer then that but im not complaining. I've kept myself busy by going to the gym and phoning up and talking to my Mum on the phone. I pray I can keep this up, I'm feeling much stronger about this then before.

14 down 51 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

November 10th 2008

Two weeks have now passed! :pp It seems much longer then that but im not complaining. I've kept myself busy by going to the gym and phoning up and talking to my Mum on the phone. I pray I can keep this up, I'm feeling much stronger about this then before.

14 down 51 to go xxxxxx

God is soooo good to answer prayers..Keep it up! Doing good there, "therebythegraceofg" ..

In Christ,

:spin:owl

[therebythegraceofg]

November 11th 2008

Today has seen me in a reflective mood due to it being the 11th of november but ive kept myself busy and have now managed 15 days clean. Ive been to the cinema with some friends and this has managed to pass the time, with no temptations at all. Thanks again for your message owl

15 down 50 to go xxxxxx

[therebythegraceofg]

November 12th 2008

Hi all,

Today has seen me keep myself occupied by the gym and work..oh and a broken tv (only certain channels work). I have gone 16 days without pornography and im slightly amazed. A great power by God indeed. The more i progress the more I worry how much its going to hurt if i slip up which is the only down side but I always seem to worry about everything alot. The spirit is willing but the body is weak indeed. However thanks to God i think my body is slowly getting stronger and stronger.

16 down 49 to go xxxxxx

[therebythegraceofg]

November 13th 2008

The record is still going and today has been a good day with no urges what so ever. I think that if you deal without an addiction for a certain length of time you start to less depend on it and I think this is the case. I'm not getting ahead of myself I know that my target till the new year is still a long long way to go but at least I'm starting to believe i'm breaking free.

17 down 48 to go xxxxxx

[SeekingGodNGa]

Wow! What an amazing thread! It is no accident that I happend to "Stumble" upon this thread tonight as I had JUST posted one about my own porn addiction. Your story and posts have been a HUGE insperation to me, and make me strive for the same thing! In fact, as of NOW, I am done with porn!!! Internet or other! If you can do it, by Gosh, so can I!!!!:hug::pp

I will also continue to read these updates, and use some of the tools you have used, and see what I can do!!! How awesome is our God!??!!

God Bless!

[therebythegraceofg]

Before I start I want to say thanks for the kind words SeekingGodNGa. One of the main reasons of this thread is to document what I'm doing so that people can see where i'm going right and wrong and adapt this to help their own lives out. The main desire I have is to want to stop looking at porn and having the genuine belief that God will save me. Each day the belief that God is helping me resist is getting stronger and stronger, but you really have to have that "enough is enough" moment to break that cycle.

my main advice so far is it is vital to keep yourself occupied. Never go on the net just to pass the time or just to do casual searching because the devils temptation will creep up on you. Two inspirational transcripts so far from the bible are from Mark 14:38 "Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing but the body is weak." This was provided to me from wiseoldowl and never has a more appropriate passage been quoted to this task. Another passage from James 4:7 "Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you." Whenever you have the urge to look at porn just say "Resist the devil, and he will flee from you" Think about how bad you will feel after if you go ahead and look at porn. I know what your going through, keep the belief with God and if your ever stuck post it, there are a lot of good good people about here.

November 14th 2008

As for me today, another good day, I've kept occupied by shopping and watching TV. No urges at all to look at porn. In fact when posting on another message board (music band) someone posted a pic which I thought was porn (i found out later it couldnt be as all threads are monitored and the thread had been there for weeks) and this resulted in me turning my head around sharpish and changing the topic thread... what a change from a couple of weeks ago!!

18 down 47 to go xxxxxx

[therebythegraceofg]

November 15th 2008

Sorry for the late update for this, I spent yesterday meeting up with a friend and staying round their house. As this was the case, there was no internet to offer, so of course the record is still standing. It's all about keeping yourself occupied and showing you don't need porn in your life.

19 down 46 to go xxxxxx

[therebythegraceofg]

November 16th 2008

Today has seen me come a whisker to losing my resistance to pornography. It all started just browsing the net for nothing and coming across some written text on a which was quite simply put was sexually graphic and was surprising to see it on the site. Before we start this wasn't a porn site but this gave me a very strong desire to search for porn... A very strong desire! To tell you the truth it was a 50/50 and I don't know how i resisted and didn't type a porn address into the search bar. I'm glad to say no pornography sites have appeared on my computer and this thread still continues, However this proves I am no way out of the woods, this was a 50/50 chance and I have come so so close to almost falling, very close

20 down 45 to go xxxxxx (and it was almost all lost) :(

[turtledove]

Hi, I have been on a short rest, break from here lately; but want you to know you have remained in my prayers. So glad you didn't slip although it was a near miss. Keep praying and spend less time exploring the web and more time in God's Word and that should lessen the temptation to fall back.

"Your Word I have treasured in my heart, that I may not sin against you." (Psalm 119:11)

God bless,

wiseoldowl

[therebythegraceofg]

November 17th 2008

Hi all, today has been better and porn and desire free. Yesterday was a very close call and has given me a stark warning that no matter how good you think things are going, something can pull you right down again. Gods strength saw me through yesterday and I'm sure I will be tested again in the future. But at the moment everything still stands. Wiseoldowl thanks again for your help and support :)

21 Down 44 to go xxxxxx

[therebythegraceofg]

November 18th 2008

I have spent today keeping myself occupied with work commitments and this has meant no urges and another day chalked off. I'm still cautious about things after a couple of days ago but in general I'm feeling pretty good and more relaxed about things.

22 down 43 t go xxxxxx

[therebythegraceofg]

November 19th 2008

Overtime at work has been my help today, since ive been back I haven't really had the time or energy to go on the internet. This has helped me a great deal, as well as constantly thinking "God is giving me strength" this is helping me and has seen me get through slight urges. Tomorrow is another day and another challenge but one that will be undertaken with my record still standing,

23 down 42 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

Hi brother in Christ, Sounds like you are doing just fine and moving along. I hope others with this problem will read some of your posts to see how progress can be done on a day to day basis. Keep this up..I am proud of you! :)


owl :pray:

"My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." (Psalm 73:26) NIV

[therebythegraceofg]

November 20th 2008

First of all thank you very much for the kind words wiseoldowl. They really do help! Today has seen me keep myself occupied by starting my Christmas shopping. This has kept myself from having any urges or searching the internet randomly. Looking back so far it seems my so called close encounters to slipping up have occurred when I have a lot of free time on the net so I must keep myself occupied to keep up with my target.

24 down 41 to go xxxxxx

[mongoose303]

Hi "there", hope you dont mind me reading your diary .:D

Appears you are doing quite well in your quest to overcome internet porn addiction, I think you are doing a service to others as well as yourself by posting your progress here, so I too am holding you up in prayer. I dont have any addictions ( The Lord delivered me from smoking, praise God, thank you Jesus!) but i'd like to offer you some incouragment, even if only in a small way.

Keep up the excellent progress and always keep in mind that you are doing this because you want to be closer to the Lord Jesus. "In His presence there is fullness of joy and at His right hand there are pleasures forever more" I just love that verse and Ive experienced that firsthand. He is so wonderful, I keep falling in love with Jesus over and over, He is so good to me, thank you precious Jesus !:pp

Im sure the blessings of the presence of the Lord is going to follow you "there" because of this effort you are making. Hang in "there" bro';)

I love you in the Lord :hug:

:pray:

[turtledove]

November 20th 2008

First of all thank you very much for the kind words wiseoldowl. They really do help! Today has seen me keep myself occupied by starting my Christmas shopping. This has kept myself from having any urges or searching the internet randomly. Looking back so far it seems my so called close encounters to slipping up have occurred when I have a lot of free time on the net so I must keep myself occupied to keep up with my target.

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:pray:for you this morning...:)


Sharing this: Psalm 139: 1-18; 23-24.

You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts. 24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

[therebythegraceofg]

November 21st 2008

Hi guys sorry for the no-update yesterday, its been a pretty hectic day or so but the record is still going. Yesterday (the 21st) however almost saw me fall again, I came back from work and after sorting a few things out i searched the net on my laptop sitting in my bed watching TV after doing some online Christmas shopping. It must of been a case of old habits because I had a strong desire to search for porn very strong, I managed to resist but this was again a close call. I think we all have times when we feel more 'excited' for danger and of course the devil working hard inside our heads can lead us to fall but I resisted and though feeling guilty that I was almost feeling excited about searching for porn I managed to resist and the record stands.

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November 22nd 2008

Today has seen me cope much better. I woke up late (my weekend treat if you like) and after a bit of food i proceeded to the gym for a couple of hours. When I came back ive kept myself occupied with shopping and sorting out a few things in the house. Its vital to keep yourself occupied and none more important when you have a gateway such as the internet available at your fingertips with easy access to porn. However tonight has seen me continue with this record, no naked images or videos for 26 days. It is almost coming up to a month and I'm proud. Thanks for the encouragement mongoose 303, it is very much appreciated, this is the purpose of the thread to help others by sharing my own experiences, and again thanks wiseoldowl, your forum name is certainly a justified one, God bless you both :)

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[therebythegraceofg]

November 23rd 2008
Sorry this is a day late, yesterday was a busy day with Christmas building up, I spent yesterday morning at the gym to keep myself occupied and again this worked as time was in short supply, as soon as i came back I showered and headed out to search for gifts. When I returned it was a case of eating my tea, prayer time and then bed. No urges at all an early night (which explains the lack of reporting) and bed, no urges, no porn

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[therebythegraceofg]

November 24th 2008

Today has seen time in short supply but this is no bad thing. As my previous posts show if you have free time your mind will wonder and this has happened in slight stages when I've thought 'what would happen if i take a quick look' but due to lack of time you cannot act on the impulses. I have spent the day at work, come home, eaten and then spoken to my Mum on the phone as my parents have just returned home after a holiday away and I haven't heard from them for a couple of weeks, and its always great to hear from them. The temperature in the UK is dropping, the nights are getting darker so i know I'm going to be spending some time in doors in the evenings. I have to keep the urges at bay, but with prayer, Gods strength and my own willingness i feel equipped to deal with this.

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[therebythegraceofg]

November 25th 2008

Today has seen me keep busy with the gym and work but I actually tried to put things into context a bit and after a while i unfortunately started to get urges by thinking who am I hurting if i actually do look, like a quick look. This was dangerous and I instantly stopped and again the record is still on. I think this must be some personal record, I'm very chuffed with myself.

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[turtledove]

Yes, it really is primarily a battle in thoughts. Here is wishing you a Happy Thanksgiving..

Forgive if I shared this one already. It is one of my very favorites and I refer to it often plus from time to time I need to let it sink into my own thought patterns especially during the holiday season.



Philippians 4:8 KJV (http://www.tnivbible.com/bible/passagesearch.php?passage_request=Philippians 4:8&kjv=yes)
"Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things."

Paul's exhortation here rings so true. By choosing other things, that is, things which are honest, just, pure, lovely, of good report, virture, and praise to think about..sure does help me focus. Like a parable, a scene from the bible, a few passages, our own good memories of moments when we felt close to God, etc..

God bless. :pray:

[therebythegraceofg]

November 26th 2008

Thanks again for the quote wiseoldowl :) Today has see me annoyed, I typed in a song title of a song i liked into google and the images revealed a naked picture. This annoyed me more then anything because the song title was called 'enjoy the silence' nothing pornographic and I was greeted by this. I'm not counting this as breaking any rules because this was not me finding a picture out of lust. I could of slipped and gone 'oh well its there so i may as well click on it' but i resisted and had no urges at all, pretty strange that other times just having a slight urge can make your desires go crazy and other times you feel nothing, The beauty of it all i guess.

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[mongoose303]

Here's another verse i'd like to post here: "For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds" (KJV) II corinthians 10:4

Keep up the good fight "there" well done my bro', Jesus is with you, he will never leave you nor forsake you.

God bless you.

:pray:

[therebythegraceofg]

November 27th 2008

Thanks for the verse mongoose 303, I can certainly relate to it. I really thought I would have fallen and visited porn websites but constant prayer, God's strength and a real determination to succeed have kept me standing. I have been to the gym today and done some cleaning in the house and this has helped. As always its all about making good use of your time and this is the most effective advice I can give to anybody. if your busy and don't have much time for the net then you find you wont have time for porn, don't give up on the net but don't just go on to kill time because sooner or later you will find yourself looking face on at the old habits.

Today is also a landmark. One month without a porn site visited.:pp:pp:pp:pp

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[Friend of Jesus]

It's awesome that you're doing this. It's a fight for your strength against the devil and thankfully God's on your side!

I'll be praying for you

[therebythegraceofg]

November 28th 2008

Today has seen a good day, work and then meeting up with friends. No urges, nothing.

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[therebythegraceofg]

November 29th 2008

I have come within a whisker of losing everything today. Old habits have started to sink back in. I was within a split second of viewing a porn video. I don't know why I even started to search, I had such strong urges and in the end I just thought 'I don't want to lose this' and then clicked off but I was so willing to look at the video before common sense clicked back in, however this was the closest yet to losing everything, I feel ashamed a bit for getting the old excitement back and as I said it was really close but I somehow resisted from clicking on the video, a victory in that sense but one which shouldn't even of needed to happen.

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[Friend of Jesus]

Don't worry mate, you're doing great. That's Satan's trick that he's trying to pull off. He gives you little or no temptation for a while and then he piles it all on in one short moment. It caught you off guard so keep your defenses (Christ) ready all the time, don't let Satan get a foothold.

Remember, temptation is not the same as giving into temptation. You're going to be tempted years after you've been freed from pornography but you're still free from it as long as you don't give in to the temptation. In this case you were tempted but rejected the temptation- That's awesome, don't get down about it, keep your spirits high and focus on Christ.

Days which begin with you reading the Bible and praying always are easier than days which you don't- Keep that in mind and run to Christ.

God Bless

[therebythegraceofg]

November 31st 2008

Thanks for the word of advice Friend Of Jesus. I always pray last thing at night and start by thinking of God and I agree it does help with Christ in mind. Today has been a surprisingly good day compared to yesterday. I think the main reason for this is the fear and still embarrassment of what happened yesterday. I haven't used the net as much as I would normally and I've spent some time today meeting with friends and a visit to the gym. For tomorrow I will have to keep myself occupied because again I don't want to be tempted, but I've made it through today

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[therebythegraceofg]

December 1st 2008

Today has been another good day, no urges and I have used my net time wisely, completely avoiding any 'spare time' and getting Christmas presents sorted. I'm waiting for my next test by the devil but i feel I have experienced everything in pretty much all shape and form, its just a case of keeping winning the battles.

35 down 30 to go xxxxxx

[therebythegraceofg]

2nd December 2008

Another day, another day to tick off! Another good day with no urges, I'm waiting for my next big test but again so far so good, Ive managed to keep myself occupied with the gym and now I'm really tired, prayer time and bed I think zzzzzzzzzz :)

36 down 29 to go xxxxxx

[turtledove]

2nd December 2008

Another day, another day to tick off! Another good day with no urges, I'm waiting for my next big test but again so far so good, Ive managed to keep myself occupied with the gym and now I'm really tired, prayer time and bed I think zzzzzzzzzz :)

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Exercise for the body is good..but exercising the mind, heart, and spirit is needed in order to focus on the things of God. May I suggest for a daily practice to read a chapter a day out of the letters of Paul or perhaps find a good Christian devotional to help guide you in your reading daily so that you will become stronger in body, soul, and spirit.

Thanking God for your continued recovery, :pray: In the Name of Jesus..:amen:

owl.

[therebythegraceofg]

December 3rd 2008

Thanks for the good advice owl, I will definitely take up the advice given. I'm still fighting this battle but again I have had a good day, Overtime at work has helped as well. I have to keep praying and I know God's strength will help me. No urges again today and I feel my net time has been used to good effect rather then what it was a few weeks ago.

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[groovemongrel]

December 3rd 2008

Thanks for the good advice owl, I will definitely take up the advice given. I'm still fighting this battle but again I have had a good day, Overtime at work has helped as well. I have to keep praying and I know God's strength will help me. No urges again today and I feel my net time has been used to good effect rather then what it was a few weeks ago.

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I'm glad you're hanging in there! Staying in the word and prayer are your shields.

[therebythegraceofg]

December 4th, 5th and 6th 2008

Hi everyone, sorry for the lack of posts on here, its been a busy few days and lots of travelling. The record still standsng, I have been travelling a fair bit and obviously this has helped the days pass by. I have had a bit of reflectition time which I have spent with God and this has helped to keep my mind more on the pure path then struggle with the sinful path. I will try and keep this one more updated now im back.

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[turtledove]

December 4th, 5th and 6th 2008

Hi everyone, sorry for the lack of posts on here, its been a busy few days and lots of travelling. The record still standsng, I have been travelling a fair bit and obviously this has helped the days pass by. I have had a bit of reflectition time which I have spent with God and this has helped to keep my mind more on the pure path then struggle with the sinful path. I will try and keep this one more updated now im back.

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......:thumbsup::thumbsup:......:) :pray:

[therebythegraceofg]

December 7th 2008

Today has seen time in short supply! I have been having a bit of a spring clean of my accommodation and internet time has been in short supply. I feel the need at this moment in time to spend much of my time in prayer, I'm in a reflective mood with a lot of things, not just porn and my current resistance and I need God to help me with things emotionally, as for this at this moment in time lust and the crave for it are at best unnecessary. It's time for a bit of organisation in my mind.

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[mongoose303]

Hi again "there" :)

Looking good bro' , a noble undertaking and valiant effort, keep up the good fight.

I pray the Lord would touch you and bless you with His presence and all of your emotionalizm would just melt away in His loving arms.:hug:

Jesus is just so wonderful ,so many times He has lifted me up when ive bin feelin' a bit down that ive lost count ! The Lord has bin extra good to me for some reason i dont understand ! He is my love, my joy, my hope,my life... well practically my all in all :pp Thank you jesus!

You are a child of the KING !:pp

God bless you.

:pray:

[Friend of Jesus]

Keep in mind you are not fighting your porn addiction- yep that's right you're not. Jesus has already fought it and he came through the winner. Your porn addiction is now lying dead on the floor and you are free from it.

All that is left for you to do is LIVE in your freedom! But guess what? You need Christ to do that with you too. So don't think you can stay free by yourself for very long. Stay living in your freedom with Christ living in you.

Don't ever let Satan make you think you are fighting a losing battle. He's quite obviously lying because the truth is that he's already lost the battle!

Be Happy!

[turtledove]

Hey there, You might want to check this out. These are bible verses to help in any kind of recovery from addictions posted by one of our administrators, Cheech, in our stickies above. Just clink here and you can see them. Friend of Christ, may you be blessed today in all you think, do, and say.

http://bibleforums.org/forum/showthread.php?t=67228

peace and blessings of the season,

owl. :)

[therebythegraceofg]

December 8th 2008

Hi guys, first things first, a massive thanks to wiseoldowl, Friend of Jesus, mongoose303 and a belated thanks to groovemongrel as well. Though you guys may not believe it every message provides both comfort and inspiration. Today has seen a victory in some sorts with me briefly having a certain desire to go on a website and almost instantly thinking no and then just moving on. I'm still in this reflective mood at the moment and porn has no purpose at all for me, thanks again for all those who post, Its off for my prayer time and then bed.

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[therebythegraceofg]

December 09th 2008

Another day down, no urges no thing, God's strength seems to be guiding me through where im now having no cravings or no desires at all. Past records have a pattern why I type a message like this then come dangerously close to losing this so ive got to be on my guard, Its prayer time then bed for me,

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[therebythegraceofg]

December 10th 2008

Yesterday I stated that I normally would be doing fine then get tested, well today the devil tried his work again, i almost fell and like a few times clicked away at the right moment, It's encouraging that I can look away but not so encouraging that I still crave the excitement even now, like before it was the old habbits working against me. I feel ashamed again that I'm still craving this even at this time but I'm still just holding out,

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[Friend of Jesus]

There's a key word in that last post of yours: 'almost'

The thing is you did not fall, Satan tried his best but you chose Christ over sin and Christ delivered you from temptation because of that. You were prepared wisely, and because of your faith Jesus delivered you.

Don't be down, ask for forgiveness for any lust you still have in your heart and then ask God to obliterate it. You're free, Satan might try to convince you that you aren't, but he's the biggest liar in existance.

Keep living in Christ

[turtledove]

December 10th 2008

Yesterday I stated that I normally would be doing fine then get tested, well today the devil tried his work again, i almost fell and like a few times clicked away at the right moment, It's encouraging that I can look away but not so encouraging that I still crave the excitement even now, like before it was the old habbits working against me. I feel ashamed again that I'm still craving this even at this time but I'm still just holding out,

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When we are fighting temptation the enemy of our soul wants to instill fear and trepidation in us. But we can turn that very fear and trepidation to God and come before Him humbly acknowledging our past failures and trusting Him to deliver us from going back to wayward ways.

This is a weak comparison but..having once been a smoker I can say that for many years after my deliverance I would get the craving..and sometimes even now, 38 years later, I may see someone in an old movie where it looks so cool to smoke as it was considered in the movies then..and think how it would be to light up. :hmm: But, I don't smoke and thank God I am free. :pp

Your craving for pornography should lessen more and more as worthwhile things fill and become the focus of your life. I hope you are in good fellowship (as I may have mentioned before) and do spend some time in the Word (maybe join a bible study or Christian support group where you can give accountability to others as well as receive support..and keep praying..also it is good to get involved in ministering to others.

[How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!]( 1 John 3:1a, NIV)


God love you,

wiseoldowl :)

[therebythegraceofg]

December 11th and December the 12th 2008

Hi guys sorry for the lack of posting I'm ill with the flu so have been in bed a fair bit. The record is still going as i've been in bed so no need for the net. Thanks for the support and advice wiseoldowl and Friend of Jesus

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[turtledove]

God, please help and heal our brother here so he recovers from the flu quickly...:amen:

[therebythegraceofg]

December 13th 2008

Still feel ill (thanks for the prayer wiseoldowl!) Record is still on. I will start writing the more detailed accounts when im back to full fitness.

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[therebythegraceofg]

December 14th 2008

Hi all a weekend rest seems to have done me some good and I feel better. I have had a successful day with no porn and no temptation. I'm taking nothing for granted though as previous posts have stated. As long as I keep praying, have God in my thoughts then I can achieve this. As Christmas is nearing and the Holidays kick in I know I will have free time so God's will and my own personal strength will need to be tested to the max.

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[mongoose303]

Hi "there" :)

Still have you in my prayers and asking the Lord to bless you with His joyful presence and that He would embrace you in His loving arms. Jesus is just so awsome, so wonderful, absolutley amazing in every way !! I love you Jesus !!!!!! thank you Lord!!!!!!:pp:bounce:

In His presence there is fullness of joy and at His right hand there are pleasures for ever more.

Thank you glorious Heavenly Father for your loving kindness, I ask right now ,in Jesus name, that you would be with my brother in Christ and give him the desires of his heart, as those desires are in your will .

God bless you bro', hope you're feeling better .:)

Love you in the Lord.

[therebythegraceofg]

December 15th 2008

Thanks for the kind message mongoose303 it really means a lot, God bless you! Today has seen me busy with work but it is still actively keeping the Devils hands away and keeping me close with God. These are the days that make things easy, but when I say this I'm normally tested. I have to defeat this! I'm off for a shower, prayer time then bed.

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[Lee-Roy]

Interesting thread. Keep posting and I'll keep reading

[therebythegraceofg]

December 16th, 17th and 18th

Sorry for the poor updating of this recently. Thanks for the comment Lee-Roy!! The record is still going and this has been helped by some extremely annoying internet connection that keeps cutting out when it likes but at least it stops me from going through some random searches which have nearly led me down the dark path in the past. At the moment I am worried that I seem to be having this urge to test my excitement (seeing how far I can go before looking at porn) and this is dangerous, before I stated no means no and never has a more appropriate time been suggested then now because I'm worried about slipping. The best option is to fill my head up with thoughts of and keep praying to get these bad thoughts out of my mind.

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[baxpack7]

My friend,
These are the times when satan will begin an all out assault to try and get you to slip up and then make you feel like dirt. The scripture that I'd recommend is the 23rd Psalm, and to read it every time you feel that urge creeping up on you.
Also remember that you aren't fully recovered yet, so don' try to test yourself , it;s still too soon for that.

Have a God-blessed day!

[therebythegraceofg]

December 19th 20th 21st and 22nd

Hi again poor updating, I'm just about holding out at the moment but I must admit I have come dangerously close to losing everything, this would be heart-breaking considering how long I have gone on for but I am getting the need to test myself which as you have so rightly said baxpack 7 I am not fully recovered yet and in these four days I have been tested,


1 O LORD my God, in thee do I put my trust: save me from all them that persecute me, and deliver me:

2 Lest he tear my soul like a lion, rending it in pieces, while there is none to deliver.

3 O LORD my God, if I have done this; if there be iniquity in my hands;

4 If I have rewarded evil unto him that was at peace with me; (yea, I have delivered him that without cause is mine enemy: )

5 Let the enemy persecute my soul, and take it; yea, let him tread down my life upon the earth, and lay mine honour in the dust. Selah.

6 Arise, O LORD, in thine anger, lift up thyself because of the rage of mine enemies: and awake for me to the judgment that thou hast commanded.

7 So shall the congregation of the people compass thee about: for their sakes therefore return thou on high.

8 The LORD shall judge the people: judge me, O LORD, according to my righteousness, and according to mine integrity that is in me.

9 Oh let the wickedness of the wicked come to an end; but establish the just: for the righteous God trieth the hearts and reins.

10 My defence is of God, which saveth the upright in heart.

11 God judgeth the righteous, and God is angry with the wicked every day.

12 If he turn not, he will whet his sword; he hath bent his bow, and made it ready.

13 He hath also prepared for him the instruments of death; he ordaineth his arrows against the persecutors.

14 Behold, he travaileth with iniquity, and hath conceived mischief, and brought forth falsehood.

15 He made a pit, and digged it, and is fallen into the ditch which he made.

16 His mischief shall return upon his own head, and his violent dealing shall come down upon his own pate.

17 I will praise the LORD according to his righteousness: and will sing praise to the name of the LORD most high.

The above quote is from Psalm 7:1-17 [KJV} (added by wiseoldowl, forum facilitator) :)

I am holding out, just though....

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[turtledove]

Hi, therbythegraceofg, Facilitator reminder: Bible quotes on our forum are required to have notation for the benefit of all here. I searched and found yours and edited it into your post..but next time please include the book, verses, and version. It takes some searching when they aren't included. Thanks. :)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


And sharing again the last verse of your quote..:pp

[17I will praise the LORD according to his righteousness: and will sing praise to the name of the LORD most high. ](Psalm 7:17) (KJV)

As you praise Him I pray that your heart will turn to Jesus whose birth we celebrate soon and to the good things of God.

Merry Christmas!

owl :pray:

[therebythegraceofg]

December 23rd 24th 25th

Hi everyone, a belated merry Christmas to you all. I have been tempted the last few days, I dont know if this is because its nearing the end of my target but I really have been struggling badly but I think the busy time of year has helped me to some extent where limited time has been available with Christmas (hence the lack of posting). I'm also a bit worried about how I will react if the target is met, for example will I think its done then go on a porn binge, I originally felt when i started this that two months without any porn would mean the desire would completely go but obviously not, the desire at the moment is if anything stronger.

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[turtledove]

December 23rd 24th 25th

I'm also a bit worried about how I will react if the target is met, for example will I think its done then go on a porn binge, I originally felt when i started this that two months without any porn would mean the desire would completely go but obviously not, the desire at the moment is if anything stronger.

58 down 6 to go xxxxxx

Suffering temptation is not sin. Remember that even Jesus was tempted by the devil in the desert. (see Matthew 4:1-11).

The enemy of your soul wants to bring discouragement and worry ; God does not. The Prince of Peace wants to bring encouragement and peace to you..it is though the power of Jesus that you are set free. He died for your sins and mine. But you must continue to pray, stay in fellowship and the Word of God, as you walk in the way of the Holy Spirit and not rely on your own human strength.

Your target date should be extended, obviously, and I would suggest you make it for a lifetime.

Stress can lower resistance (easily happens during the holidays) and this might make temptations feel stronger and I understand how difficult that can be. Something which has consumed you like your addiction has done..does not go easily for everyone. But, still any temptation to return to addiction will lessen in time especially as you continue to develop good habits to fill your life, activities, and goals and especially your mind; as you walk in the grace of being right with God: thus as I repeat..prayer, fellowship, in the Word...Be sure to read the other testimonies here as to victory in this. In time I hope you'll join them in giving testimony and be able to help others get freed from the chain of pornography addiction. I know with God this is possible; and I think by God's grace you can do it..



2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV (http://www.tnivbible.com/bible/passagesearch.php?passage_request=2 Corinthians 12:9&niv=yes)
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you..."

Philippians 1:20 NIV (http://www.tnivbible.com/bible/passagesearch.php?passage_request=Philippians 1:20&niv=yes)
I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, ..."

Note the keyword in bold..'sufficient'...

praying, :pray:

[he>me<]

December 23rd 24th 25th

Hi everyone, a belated merry Christmas to you all. I have been tempted the last few days, I dont know if this is because its nearing the end of my target but I really have been struggling badly but I think the busy time of year has helped me to some extent where limited time has been available with Christmas (hence the lack of posting). I'm also a bit worried about how I will react if the target is met, for example will I think its done then go on a porn binge, I originally felt when i started this that two months without any porn would mean the desire would completely go but obviously not, the desire at the moment is if anything stronger.

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Hi therebythegraceofg

Happy New Year

My thoughts on this.

Since we live in the now. I'd take it one day at a time :) or if that's too long just aim for right now. That can be easier to trust Jesus for but still has the same eternal result.

Plus suppose we were to slip up we have an immeadiate acheivable target of running straight back to Jesus "now" and remembering its faith in his free gift of Rightousness not our own righteousness that will see us through and enables us to please him.

blessings

HeMustBecomeGreater.ImustBecomeLess :cool:

[turtledove]

Hi, diary keeper, you haven't posted in a while; but just wanted to say I hope I didn't come on too strong in my last reply here. I think he>me makes a good point in that those of us recovering from addictions (or anyone really) live in the "now" one day at a time. The ideal goal may be to be sober or free from other addictions for a lifetime; but the reality is that we live in the "now" and we lean upon the Lord each and every day.


As we commit each day to the Lord and endeavor to follow Him we do the best we can taking each day as it is and as it comes.

Also , if you wish anytime, you want us to close this diary let us know and we can do that. It is up to you. Meanwhile you will continue to get replies for a while anyway even if you don't post. That is how it usually goes. Maybe you'll want to start a new and fresh thread here or anywhere on the forum next..

Prayers continue for you as I post this today. God bless you, brother in Christ. ..:pray: owl

[therebythegraceofg]

Hello everyone,

first of all sorry the record was completed, I achieved the target, a massive thank you to everyone that posted with the encouragement, particularly wiseoldowl, mongoose303 and every single person who posted and prayed for me. I have learnt from this experience that an addiction is a hard process, you can try your best to fight it but the urges will always creep up on you. I'm no way near out of the woods yet but a strong belief and a link with God can help you through the dark times, I still intend to post on here and i will keep updates when i can

xxxxxx

[Friend of Jesus]

As I have said before- You're free, thank God for that. All you've got to do is continue to trust God and stay free. Take it from my personal experience, going back and having to be delivered a second time from bondage is not amusing.

BUT PRAISE GOD!!!!

[turtledove]

Hello everyone,

first of all sorry the record was completed, I achieved the target, a massive thank you to everyone that posted with the encouragement, particularly wiseoldowl, mongoose303 and every single person who posted and prayed for me. I have learnt from this experience that an addiction is a hard process, you can try your best to fight it but the urges will always creep up on you. I'm no way near out of the woods yet but a strong belief and a link with God can help you through the dark times, I still intend to post on here and i will keep updates when i can

xxxxxx

Sounds good! You are welcome! :)

peace and blessings,

wiseoldowl

[mongoose303]

Hi "there", great to hear from you again , I was getting abit concerned. :)

I'd like to leave another few scripture readings for you to look up when you get some free time; Ephesians 13 to17. Our youth pastor spoke on this last sunday morning.

Your/our commitment to righteous living is like putting on armour to do battle in some ways ,but never forget that our righteousness is in Christ Jesus.

Congrats on achieving your goal.:hug: