SweetEnigma
Feb 20th 2009, 09:14 PM
Jesus is teaching me day by day how to love. The more I learn from Him the less I'm capable of hate.
This past year, I learned that one of my good friends is a child molester. He confessed to molesting his own 3 year old daughter, a child I felt close to at one point, a baby I watched grow in the community. I hated him so bad for his actions, I practically started my own witch hunt against him.. I wanted him to lose all of his friends and all of his respect in the community. I despised him with every ounce of my being.
While he's serving life in prison for his actions, his mark is still left on the community. I was talking to a friend this week, and she brought up her own hatered for him. I realized that I no longer hate this old friend of mine; in fact, I don't feel hate for anyone, not even those who've abused me personally: It's as if Jesus took the hate right out of my heart.
I learned in Scripture this week that sin is sin. I cannot judge another's sin when I am a wretched sinner myself. I cannot rank sins as the justice system does... there is only one Judge in my life now, and that is God. All I can hope for is that in following and learning from Christ's teachings that He will have mercy on me for my sins when the day comes.
It's so freeing not feeling that bad emotion anymore-- I'm not saying there's not people I "don't like", but I can honestly say, I don't feel that gnawing grip of hatered on my heart anymore. In John 8, when Jesus stood up for that prostitute... that just set me back, and I saw my own sins clearly for the first time.
I just wanted to share this story with all the other newbs out there. Thank you Jesus for setting me straight once again. I love you.
This past year, I learned that one of my good friends is a child molester. He confessed to molesting his own 3 year old daughter, a child I felt close to at one point, a baby I watched grow in the community. I hated him so bad for his actions, I practically started my own witch hunt against him.. I wanted him to lose all of his friends and all of his respect in the community. I despised him with every ounce of my being.
While he's serving life in prison for his actions, his mark is still left on the community. I was talking to a friend this week, and she brought up her own hatered for him. I realized that I no longer hate this old friend of mine; in fact, I don't feel hate for anyone, not even those who've abused me personally: It's as if Jesus took the hate right out of my heart.
I learned in Scripture this week that sin is sin. I cannot judge another's sin when I am a wretched sinner myself. I cannot rank sins as the justice system does... there is only one Judge in my life now, and that is God. All I can hope for is that in following and learning from Christ's teachings that He will have mercy on me for my sins when the day comes.
It's so freeing not feeling that bad emotion anymore-- I'm not saying there's not people I "don't like", but I can honestly say, I don't feel that gnawing grip of hatered on my heart anymore. In John 8, when Jesus stood up for that prostitute... that just set me back, and I saw my own sins clearly for the first time.
I just wanted to share this story with all the other newbs out there. Thank you Jesus for setting me straight once again. I love you.
