Very disappointed today.....(ended relationship).

[Magnetic]

Yesterday, I was very reflective about what happened, and what kind of person she was.

Today, . . . I find myself really disappointed. Disappointed in myself for allowing my emotions to become involved too soon. Disappointed for doing things WAY too soon. Disappointed that I ended up with someone who didn't actually care as much about me as I did for her (and she stated that). Honestly discouraged about what the future will hold, though I will try again.

Yet, in all of this, . . . today she was to go to have that nuclear vein thing done to see what was happening inside her body, in order to discover where the pain was coming from. I don't know if I'll find out what was going on there, . . . . but I still care for her a lot, and hope it isn't something serious. Maybe someday, I'll find out.

Just disappointed that all of this happened and I am sitting here today, . . . . rather than being supportive at the clinic of a girl friend who is having tests done. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif I hope she will be okay. I pray that she will be okay. :pray:

[DaniHansen]

Ahh yes the regret stage.

This, too, shall pass.

Love you, brother. :hug:

[*Hope*]

No matter how much you cared for her, you have to remember that God loves her infinitely more than you ever could. Since you're no longer in a relationship with her, you'll have to trust God that He'll be there for her and take care of her needs. I'm sorry you're sad though...

[Magnetic]

Yes, I am very sad about it and still require the prayers of many people. And yes, God can take care of her better than me, . . . but I still DO care about her, her internal pains, and what was found out. It is yet another reason why it saddens me, because I no longer can "be there for her".

I hope I learn every lesson from this experience so I don't have to go through it again. :(

[karenoka27]

:hug:
Some girls/people have a hard time allowing people to really care for them. I know I was one of those people.
Praying for her that she will be well. Praying for you to be able to move one and that the Lord would soon send someone special who will allow you to care for them. Your own princess.;)

[Magnetic]

Thank you, karenoka. I agree with your prayer. :cry::hug:

[Magnetic]

I hope that, at some point, I will be able to (on SOME level) reconcile with her, because though she DID hurt me, . . . if she truly felt that we weren't a match, I shouldn't punish her for that if she still liked me as a person. And that is a tough place to be, but even through the pain, I do not wish to be the catalyst for another person's pain.

We have yet to fully talk things through and I'm sure that will happen at some point. We've not had actual closure, so that talk will happen. I plan on apologizing to her for my failure (allowing things to progress beyond where they should have), and I hope that will help the healing for both of us.