Help me.. I am struggling.. I want to give up.

[dasaraxis]

My wife left me last year. After 6 years of marriage and 1 year together. She had a son from her first marriage. My stepson. I loved him dearly. I loved her dearly. We had to sell our house. she demanded so much and while my heart was broken I was beat down. To weak. I gave in to her demands. My grandmother lived with us. My grandmother is the last of my family. My ex was really mean to her. My grandmother hurts now because she worries about me. I tell her not to. To enjoy her life. I try to put up facads. Folks. My life has caught up with me.

I sit with proceeds from the house sale. Not sure where to move. Or where to go. To buy a house or rent. How to start over again. I really was on top of the world at one time and a long time in life. But now it has all fallen apart. My ex never gave me any reason why she was leaving other than "I need to find myself"...It hurt. It hurt so bad. Most people who once sought me out. Now look at me with pitty.

I have never been one for anyone to have pitty on me. But 1 year later. I sit in my friends rental house. Barley any furniture anymore. Weak. Just weak. My self esteem has been hit hard. I honestly do not know anymore how to dig myself out of this pit I am in. The devil has attacked me and has me doubting myself now. I have never been like that in my life! Questioning my own thoughts, decisions, etc. I am really down on life right now. I am 35 .. divorced for the first time. No kids because she could not have anymore. But good ole me sucked it up accepting that because I loved her.

She played such a role in church that am now confused. She calls herself such a christian and yet God says he hates divorce. I did not cheat. I did nothing other than tell her we need some space. Honestly that is how it is. What benefit does it for me to come here and lie. It seems I have nothing else to lose as it stands.

I know none of you know me. I am a stranger lost from Gods flock. I really need your prayer! Please! I am struggling.. If God can bring me back from the pits of hell than I mean he can do anything. Because I feel that is where I am headed. I have not been in church in a year. I am surrounded by people who do not believe in God.

All I do is work. Then am alone with my dog. Who himself is miserable now because he misses her and her dogs. My life has fallen apart.

Please just pray for me.

Thank you so much

[tango]

Lifting you before God right now... praying for peace and a knowledge of God's love and closeness.

[Welder4Christ]

Dear friend;

Your post really touched me, and my heart truly goes out to you. I am so sorry for what you are going through. You are in my prayers.

One thing is for sure, though, that more than ever, you need to be in fellowship. I know you may not feel like seeking out a church right now, but even so, you need to find a place where you can be around like-minded people, who can support, encourage, and pray for you. Don't worry about how you feel -- oftentimes, what is best for us, we don't feel like doing.

You cannot go through this alone -- and you won't. God says that He will never leave us nor forsake us. I know, it seems like the whole world has forsaken you right now, but God hasn't. You are going through a very difficult time right now, but you are not outside of God's plan. He loves you, and He has promised to work all things together for good -- but you must have patience.

I know -- easier said than done -- but it is true. I know what it's like to go through hard times, too, but the Lord has seen me through, and continues to do so. He will do the same for you, my friend. He loves you!!!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, though, find a church where you can grow closer to God and His people. You desperately need that right now!!!!!!

I will be praying for you.

In Christ
April

[daughter]

I just want to say, I really do feel for you. My husband died three years ago, and I know how possible it is for a man to love his stepchild like his own son... that is how my husband loved my son, and I can't imagine how it must hurt to have lost not just your wife, but the boy you love like your own as well.

All that we can offer you is prayer, and be sure that you have mine. I'm sorry that your wife has left you for no true reason, I'm sorry that she's putting her son through this bereavement, as well as you.

I'll pray. Remember, God does heal. Lean on Him, even when the rest of the world lets you down, He won't.

God bless you.

[dasaraxis]

Thank You so much everyone for lifting me to God in your prayers. It has been a journey. Your prayers have helped a lot! I am now trying to rebuild my life and rediscover what life has to offer again. I finally found a home! I really believe this is from God! It has to be. The whole situation is geared like the way God works.So I am going for it! pray the Lord will truly allow me to have this home to start over in. It is perfect! It really is! It alone has given me a lot of hope to mend and start fresh. I at least can make a decision again like in the old days.

Pray the Lord will get me grounded again. I never in my life want to know what I have known this past year AGAIN. Divorce is everything they say it is and some! I mean it really is the devils twisted version of "marriage". It does not matter who is at fault it really affects all involved. I pray for other Men like me. Children who have gone through this and Woman to.

It sickens me. I have always read the deeds of bad in the bible and never thought just truly how bad they are. However this situation as opened my eyes to things I never saw jump out in the bible.

I am a man stripped to the primer. I know the Lord will change it all. He must. If he wanted me gone I would not be here.

God bless each and all of You! I really mean this!

J

[Sojourner]

God's blessing's on you. I am so sorry this happened to you. May God give you the strength to carry on and give you directions to rebuild your life.

[turtledove]

I know none of you know me. I am a stranger lost from Gods flock. I really need your prayer! Please! I am struggling.. If God can bring me back from the pits of hell than I mean he can do anything. Because I feel that is where I am headed. I have not been in church in a year. I am surrounded by people who do not believe in God.

All I do is work. Then am alone with my dog. Who himself is miserable now because he misses her and her dogs. My life has fallen apart.

Please just pray for me.

Thank you so much

Welcome to the forum, dasaraxis. I am referring to what is quoted from your post to say that..first of all we can surely pray for you here and also we can empathize; but you need advice as well. Beyond what we can say here... you need the support of the fellowship of a church community. You say you have not been in church for a year and you are surrounded by people who do not believe in God. No wonder you feel discouraged and down! It is difficult enough to go though something as painful as a divorce when you are going to church; but harder without the support of other Christians. But, most of the time, we need to go out and seek that support on a regular basis.

Find a good church. Give other Christians another try. Get involved, into the Word, and talk to God daily. Start reading the bible..especially the Psalms which are good to comfort any of us who has been going through crisis. Take courage! Begin again. And as you let God help you pick of the pieces I am thinking you'll gradually regain strength and purpose. Things will get better as you set new goals one day at a time and spend time with people, who are believers like yourself.

I believe that your dog will be better as you get better. Animals have such a great way of relating to our feelings. Your pet is sad with you; but likely, in time, .. will be glad with you.

praying for you as requested, :pray:

In Christ.

turtledove.