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TruthFaith
May 17th 2009, 10:33 PM
Hello, everyone. I'm thankful for another day the lord has blessed me with.
I'm feeling anxious, maybe a little a dreadful and depressed as well. Graduation from high school is soon approaching and I don't know what to think of it.
I just look back at all the years before this period and think,"man, I wish I could've enjoyed those years because now I know how graduation is coming upon me so soon. Also, soon after graduation, I am going to become an 18 year old and that makes me seriously uneasy as well. I don't know. I just want to wake up and be more easy. Like, I don't even know the difference between children and adults.
And I see people older than me and how they have expectations and how I looked up to them-but now I'm actually becoming one! :o:cry:
And now how you have so many dreams when being a kid but it is soon limited once a person becomes older.
So I was just wondering if anyone had some helpful advice and what the lord says about these situations. I saw 1st Corinthians 13:11 and it makes it worse. Because I am kind off nostalgic for those days as a kid but when God says I have to put childish things away for an eternity it kinda freaks me out.
So all I can try to do is gain a piece of mind and understanding of what God wants and what turning 18 and graduation is about. Despite these overwhelming feelings of nervousness and gloom.
I don't know, I just wanna know how come other high school seniors don't feel so deep about this as I am and how should I identify myself thereafter.
Xel'Naga
May 17th 2009, 11:12 PM
So, what are your expectations?
Sunshineformyheart
May 17th 2009, 11:48 PM
I think everyone is different - I felt bittersweet about turning 10 (no longer in the single digits!); 13 (teenager!); 18, etc... :) Don't worry so much about the number, tho'. I personally didn't feel like I was an adult until I was 23.
Adulthood does bring responsibilities, but I feel that you can also keep some dear things from childhood (dreams, a sense of wonder, laughter, enjoyment of the simple things in life...).
Mark 10:15 talks about child-like faith.
TruthFaith
May 18th 2009, 01:34 AM
So, what are your expectations?
My expectations- I guess I feel that, after these monumental moments in my life-in everyone's, that I'll come out a person that just lives for the moment to go back to the times before I came to be an adult.
I know, it's weird. There's a certain aloness I feel, yet; I look at amazing people and then I'm flushed with a sense of inadequacy- that I'll be unable to be one of them- even all of you- loving, serving the lord, eternally looking to you all with advice. I have huge shoes to fill, I think.
DaniHansen
May 18th 2009, 03:49 AM
When God tells us to put away childish things, He isn't speaking of our childhood memories, or even of releasing that inner child within us. What that is speaking of is as we gain understanding of reality, to let go of childish ways of dealing with things. For example, releasing the dependency on our parents and becoming self-reliant and working for what we need and want, making adult decisions, carrying responsibilities, standing up for our own behavior, putting away excuses, quit having tantrums, stop blaming others, and so forth ... those things that children are prone to do, who are too immature to understand what life is really all about until they are trained properly and gain a correct understanding of things. There is a difference between childishness and child-likeness. We can still have that child-like faith in God and that sense of being secure in Him as our Father and trusting in that, even as adults. Nothing wrong with that. :)
And on a spiritual level it speaks of walking in mature love towards others, that true God kind of love that isn't bound by our ever-waffling feelings but is based on how God sees people and how He acts towards them, and to learn to be consistent in that and growing in it. Because 1 Cor 13 is all about God's love.
TruthFaith
May 20th 2009, 06:32 PM
yes, I guess that I feel that as graduation and my eighteenth birthday approaches; childhood ends and adult hood begins (am I correct?) and I feel that I could've of known these things when I was younger so I could've enjoyed them more. And I see all the older people amongst me and I see their prudence and I feel insecure knowing that I have to be like them soon.
And the thought of being an adult is overwhelming
Diggindeeper
May 20th 2009, 06:53 PM
TruthFaith, you don't want to be grownup? Ever? I find it unusual that you never saw yourself as "growing up" as the years went by....:dunno:
Well, the fact is, you will soon graduate. Hopefully, you have already made SOME decisions about what you will do on down the road.
Are you planning to go to college?:help:
Do you have a job?:help:
Do you drive?:help:
If none of the above apply, then I suggest, get busy and plan your next step! Or steps!
Believe it or not, you are almost 18 years old! You ain't a baby no more!;) Face it and go make everyone proud of what you become! Above all, make yourself and God proud!
TruthFaith
May 21st 2009, 02:25 AM
yes, I realize it. But I just have a hard time imagining the last couple of decisions have to make. Like what song I'm going to be playing in my head when they call my name up at graduation, how I'll address my teachers before I depart and everything else.
Afterall, Graduation comes once in a lifetime, so you can never go back to change what you did- like the actions at graduation so I don't want to regret not doing something at graduation 20 years later.
And to answer your questions (yea, I know no one is answering my questions on a heart to heart basis) I already got accepted to college and can drive.
I know I'm not a little boy but its just mind boggling to be an adult pretty soon.
EaglesWINGS911
May 21st 2009, 02:35 AM
I can understand what you are going through..I felt the same way when I graduated last year. It IS overwhelming, very overwhelming...like you are in a great divide...from childhood to adulthood and your not sure what will happen or how to act,etc. It can be scary and it can be exilherating (sp?). I felt the same way 5 months ago when I stepped into college for the first time..and it still hasn't sunk in yet that I'm here and I made it. I think you won't ever stop having feelings like that. What is important is not that you do something famous or fantastic even for the Lord. What is important is that you follow the dreams that he has planted into your heart and take steps to make those come true. If you dont know what they are yet, pray for guidance, and feel free to dream big. You are going to make mistakes, you're going to have tough times, but you are going to have fun your going to do great things and that's what life is about. You have to enjoy every moment and always keep seeking after the Lord no matter where you are in life.
Diggindeeper
May 21st 2009, 02:38 AM
Well Sweetie...yu have already been making grown up decisions. Its not like you have a birthday, reach age 18 and ZAP! You are a grown up. You made the decision to get your license to drive. You can't do that as a little kid.
You have always been told where to attend school, but now, as you know, you chose your college. You have been growing up and doing grown up things without realizing that you are there...at the milestone called "adulthood."
At graduation, be sure to take lots of pictures. And just tell the teachers who you want to say good-bye to that you thank them for helping you to prepare.
And, get plenty of phone numbers of friends. Your friends and you will navigate towards different things in life, and there will be some you may never see again.
Good luck in your future! You are gonna be fine! You are just in a sentimental moos. It happens to almost everybody at each milestone of our journey called LIFE.
Believe me, life is full of changes, especially from now on! Some good times, some bad, some happy, some sad. But from now on, changes will be normal.
DaniHansen
May 21st 2009, 02:50 AM
Well, I'm here to tell you, 20 years down the road your high school graduation will be the farthest thing from your mind. So, don't sweat it, and just enjoy it for the milestone that it is. Closing one chapter of your life, opening another, moving forward. Enjoy your final days of high school, enjoy the time with friends and teachers and in that environment, and don't stress yourself out over it because there will be far more important things down the road. So just have a good time and be proud of your accomplishment that you have earned, and that enables you to move forward with your life and build on this. :)
livingwaters
May 21st 2009, 03:25 AM
yes, I guess that I feel that as graduation and my eighteenth birthday approaches; childhood ends and adult hood begins (am I correct?) and I feel that I could've of known these things when I was younger so I could've enjoyed them more. And I see all the older people amongst me and I see their prudence and I feel insecure knowing that I have to be like them soon.
And the thought of being an adult is overwhelming
Hey, look up!!!! Be thankful that you have been blessed with life!!! Be thankful that you have a working mind and are able, through the strength of the Lord, to do whatever you want to do....pray about it....ask the Lord to use you.....tell HIM you are available...and be available. We can all serve the Lord 100% of the time....there is always some type of witnessing, serving others, helping at church, trying to help fellow students come to know the Lord, trying to get fellow employees to come to know the Lord......there is much work to be done, and the laborers are few, my friend. I'm sure you could be of great service in God's Kingdom!!!
I have three grown children and they have all said at one time or another, boy, I sure wish I was back in high school And I say, boy I'm sure glad ya'll are not!!!! LOL See, don't let the devil steal your peace and joy that the Lord has given you.....and if you are born-again, HE has given those things to you!!!!! Dig deep, chin up, and go out there and make an impact on the world for the Lord....be yourself....God created us all in a unique way....HE doesn't want you to be like John, Joe, James, HE wants you to be you!!!!! Praise the Lord. Get happy and get busy!!!!
God Bless:):):)
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