faithoverflow
May 22nd 2009, 03:12 AM
Hello everyone,
It's currently 3:23 am down here in England and I'm up again. This has happened to me more than 3 times this week, waking up past three with a hot sweat and an unsteady feeling. My tummy hurts right now, not exactly sure whats going on.
Not too long ago I posted on the thread about "Evil Thoughts" because I was experiencing these same disturbing thoughts about my Creator, which still shake me to my core. This has been going on for about 3 weeks now and I've been trying soo hard begone of this. Whenever I rebuke all evil out loud in the name of Jesus Christ the thoughts just stop and there's peace in my mind but about 15 minutes later they start to creep up again but I can fight them then in a little more time they're all spontaneous again. I'm honestly sick and tired of it.
Everything was going so great earlier this year, my relationship with God was growing and I was passionately talking about Him and His Word with my friend (who's a Jehovah Witness) and I just wanted to learn more and spread more. Now I feel as if im being tormented and I can't even fall asleep without songs of praises or the daily audio Bible playing.
I had a dream a while ago, I think it was late last month. I don't remember much of it but one thing remain prominent in my mind. There was a man that looked at me (smirking I think) and challenged me to fight this humanoid creature, which was pale-like grey. I rememer struggling with it on top of me and I was fighting to get it off me.
Now sometimes when I'm trying to fall asleep and im dosing off these disturbing images come in front of me and I awake suddenly. One night I remember it as a red scary face. Tonight it happened again and the image was the grey creature and it had white piercing eyes. I can only find rest in my head to fall asleep especially while I hear the Word. A strong prayer also helps me as well, but I feel as if I'm complaining to God.
Does someone know what's happening to me? I feel tormented. Its past 4 now, my eyes are stinging and I'm feeling confused... :cry:
Prayers are very much welcomed.
It's currently 3:23 am down here in England and I'm up again. This has happened to me more than 3 times this week, waking up past three with a hot sweat and an unsteady feeling. My tummy hurts right now, not exactly sure whats going on.
Not too long ago I posted on the thread about "Evil Thoughts" because I was experiencing these same disturbing thoughts about my Creator, which still shake me to my core. This has been going on for about 3 weeks now and I've been trying soo hard begone of this. Whenever I rebuke all evil out loud in the name of Jesus Christ the thoughts just stop and there's peace in my mind but about 15 minutes later they start to creep up again but I can fight them then in a little more time they're all spontaneous again. I'm honestly sick and tired of it.
Everything was going so great earlier this year, my relationship with God was growing and I was passionately talking about Him and His Word with my friend (who's a Jehovah Witness) and I just wanted to learn more and spread more. Now I feel as if im being tormented and I can't even fall asleep without songs of praises or the daily audio Bible playing.
I had a dream a while ago, I think it was late last month. I don't remember much of it but one thing remain prominent in my mind. There was a man that looked at me (smirking I think) and challenged me to fight this humanoid creature, which was pale-like grey. I rememer struggling with it on top of me and I was fighting to get it off me.
Now sometimes when I'm trying to fall asleep and im dosing off these disturbing images come in front of me and I awake suddenly. One night I remember it as a red scary face. Tonight it happened again and the image was the grey creature and it had white piercing eyes. I can only find rest in my head to fall asleep especially while I hear the Word. A strong prayer also helps me as well, but I feel as if I'm complaining to God.
Does someone know what's happening to me? I feel tormented. Its past 4 now, my eyes are stinging and I'm feeling confused... :cry:
Prayers are very much welcomed.