boricua
May 28th 2009, 12:29 PM
Hi
I'm still new at this format of technology. That is, I don't practice it much. I've been a Christian for a long time who has resisted and struggled with the symptoms of Bipolar/Manic Depression--leaning more on the depression.
Although I have loved the Lord and been of service in a variety of ways, i find myself withdrawing more from all worlds. i.e. Christian and worldly. After my last leap of faith and regardless of the last year's transformation within me, or understanding the acts of God's enemy in my life, I'm left confused, unemployed, alone (except for my 2 dogs) and struggling with risking failing to end my life once again (...although sometimes it feels like I could stand in front of a Mack truck and the Lord won't let me die!) I've reached out to the mental health sources, and have exhausted other efforts, to once again experience rejection, abandonment and apathy.
So, I'm seeking fellowship amongst other Christians who struggle with similar symptoms. And this is only as a result of being unable to sleep with intentions of being productive; but found myself resorting to looking for this source, since I've been an Al-Anon member for many years who has experimented with this form of connecting with other members. I thought I'd try finding this support system.
I'm still new at this format of technology. That is, I don't practice it much. I've been a Christian for a long time who has resisted and struggled with the symptoms of Bipolar/Manic Depression--leaning more on the depression.
Although I have loved the Lord and been of service in a variety of ways, i find myself withdrawing more from all worlds. i.e. Christian and worldly. After my last leap of faith and regardless of the last year's transformation within me, or understanding the acts of God's enemy in my life, I'm left confused, unemployed, alone (except for my 2 dogs) and struggling with risking failing to end my life once again (...although sometimes it feels like I could stand in front of a Mack truck and the Lord won't let me die!) I've reached out to the mental health sources, and have exhausted other efforts, to once again experience rejection, abandonment and apathy.
So, I'm seeking fellowship amongst other Christians who struggle with similar symptoms. And this is only as a result of being unable to sleep with intentions of being productive; but found myself resorting to looking for this source, since I've been an Al-Anon member for many years who has experimented with this form of connecting with other members. I thought I'd try finding this support system.