bulimic

[quasar]

I know you are already grossed out by me but I am bulimic. I need help so badly. My job stresses me out and I really dislike it so I use it as an excuse to eat and purge my food. I told my husband last night and got a reaction of shock, then wow, how gross, why are you doing this to yourself, you have to stop. The thing is, it's not that easy. I don't enjoy this lifestyle and I can't just quit on the spot.

Please, just pray for me. I know you have no idea who I am and I'm a new so what if I'm just a stupid troll (I'm not, but I'm sure you get your fair share). I don't know if anyone else has struggled with an eating disorder but it's not fun and not something you want.

Thanks in advance. I hope God can help me out of the bind I got myself into.

[Ayala]

Well I can't say I've had experiences in such things, but eating disorders are a very real and genuine problem. I lift you up to the Lord and ask that He give you His comfort, and that through Him, you would be released from this.

And I don't think anyone here views you as a troll or looks down on you. People come here with many struggles, addictions, and problems...you're in good company.

[livingwaters]

:pray::pray:God bless you, dear...you are a human and we have all had our "problems." Whatever the problem is to any one of us, it is still a problem..so, you ARE definately not alone. God brought you here to receive encouragement and to find a way to deal with this...ask HIM for total deliverance, first! HE can do ALL things....that is the ABSOLUTE Truth!

I have a church friend whom I really don't know if she is saved cause there is no fruit there, but she's anerexic (sp). I'm getting her this book that you may want to check out. It is called, Thin Enough, by Sheryle Cruse...it is from a Christian site and it's about eating disorders. The site is christianbook.com and I use it reguarly! Wonderful place to find Christian materials!

Hope this helps..God bless you and if you need more info, just pm me!:hug:

[CoffeeCat]

Quasar,

I'm certainly NOT grossed out by ya, and I doubt anyone here is! You're our sister in Christ, and you are very welcome to be here! My prayers and my heart go out to you. I know what you're going through, because I went through it myself for four years as a teenager. It's misery... and I know the struggle intimately. Please PM me to talk anytime, when you're able. :)

The GREAT news is that Jesus Christ is our hope, and our strength, and He CAN turn our lives right around. He's overcome the world.... and we can place our faith in that, and keep right on walking with Him, through the darkness until dawn breaks and we come out of the pit we've fallen into. Daily, we have those who walk with us, to encourage and guide us, love us and pray for us.

Walking with ya, sister! Christ LOVES you! :hug:

[Brother Mark]

Hi and welcome to the forums.

Have you gotten professional help? I really encourage you to do so. Also, you may want to read some books on the issue. Generally, people who struggle with eating disorders do so because they feel out of control and bulimia helps them with something they can control.

Anyway, our Lord Jesus can and desires to set you free! You have my prayers.

Grace and peace,

Mark

[quasar]

thank you for not judging me harshly. I was worried that people were going to say awful things about me. I actually spoke with my husband about it and he was very, very concerned. He encouraged me to seek professional help and in the meantime, he has been helping me by serving me healthy meals. Part of my problem is that I don't eat for extended periods of time and then binge and purge because I'm so hungry.

I'm happy to say that I haven't purged in 2 days. I feel less of an urge to do so and I pray that God will help me stay away from these dangerous behaviors. I need different tools to cope with the stress of my job and the stress of life.

Thanks for listening. I know you all can't cure me but I'm so happy that people are here for me.

[Ayala]

If anyone spoke harshly against you, they would not be acting as a child of the most High. Brothers and sisters in Christ are meant to uplift, encourage, and edify one another. We all have our struggles, myself definitely included.

We may not be able to cure as our God does...but prayer and support, we can and will give. :D

Blessings to you.

[DaniHansen]

I was bulimic for about 10 years before I was saved and haven't done it since, although the challenge then became to quit looking to food for emotional support and go to God instead. It's also been challenging to give food the proper place and quit using it as a control tool to punish myself. But God is faithful, and He handled it. As He will with you.

You're already several steps ahead of where I was by telling your husband. I never told anybody until after God delivered me. Sharing the burden is half the battle because you are now in the light with it, and so the darkness is going to continue releasing its grip. And it is a dark, isolating road, isn't it?

I would suggest fasting and seeing where that gets you. It really helped open my eyes to how deep my urge to control in that area really went. And I'm here to tell you that God's grace is enough to face our enemies (up to and including our own self-destructive ways) and overcome them, no matter what form they take. :)

[quasar]

It's very dark and isolating. It makes me feel completely alone and disgusting and that makes me want to binge/purge more.

However, I have prayed about this and have had a lot of help from my husband and am happy to report that I have not purged in 2 days! That may not seem like a lot but the urges are diminishing. I cut down after this post and after speaking with my husband. I prayed and prayed that i could overcome this before it got out of control (as I'm a new bulimic in that I've been doing this less than a year with a rapid increase in symptoms in the past few months).

So thank you for treating me like I'm human and not some huge mess. It makes a big difference and I think your prayers are helping me get through this. I'm stronger than I thought. Praise God!