I don't know what is wrong with me

[The Preacher]

I do have trouble grasping God's love for me. I really struggle with being able to fully grasp Jesus dying for me. I believe it, but it's like I can't grasp my mind around that.

I do feel empty and alone most of the time, so it's not just during church. I also struggle praising and worshiping the Lord when I'm alone as well.

I recommend the Jack Frost series on experincing the father's embrace.It is an awesome series on correcting the wrong image we have of God the Father. It really helped me. Jack Frost has passed on but some of the series he has left to the body of Christ is an awesome legacy. It really helps you break through to a knowledge that God really loves you and any doubts you have about that are based on strongholds of thinking that the enemy has put into you through abuse,sin and neglect. Of course there is nothing to be compared to God's own words on his love towards you as expressed in his word.

[*Living~By~Faith*]

I would like to be able to praise the Lord when I get up in the mornings, but my first thoughts upon waking up are usually along the lines of....just another boring day. Or I don't have a life or I don't like my life. I really would love to give my life fully to God and live completely for Him. But that is just a struggle for me. I know my life would be much better if I let God have complete control to do what He wants to do with my life and make my into the person that He wants me to be.

I'm just going through a deep valley once again. It's all just getting to be too much for me to handle. I've been crying on and off since getting home from church last night. I'm just so overwhelmed, stressed and worried with everything going on in my life right now -- wanting to move to town, my dad's mental and physical health and liking a guy that likes someone else. I thought I finally let go of the last one, but I'm having a hard time since he's made it known who he likes in the church. I know I need and must give this all to God, but I don't know how to do that without taking it back like I have done in the past.

I also wish I had a place that I could go to daily to spend time alone with the Lord without anyone or anything distracting me. I feel that would help me a lot.

[turtledove]

I would like to be able to praise the Lord when I get up in the mornings, but my first thoughts upon waking up are usually along the lines of....just another boring day. Or I don't have a life or I don't like my life. I really would love to give my life fully to God and live completely for Him. But that is just a struggle for me. I know my life would be much better if I let God have complete control to do what He wants to do with my life and make my into the person that He wants me to be.

I'm just going through a deep valley once again. It's all just getting to be too much for me to handle. I've been crying on and off since getting home from church last night. I'm just so overwhelmed, stressed and worried with everything going on in my life right now -- wanting to move to town, my dad's mental and physical health and liking a guy that likes someone else. I thought I finally let go of the last one, but I'm having a hard time since he's made it known who he likes in the church. I know I need and must give this all to God, but I don't know how to do that without taking it back like I have done in the past.

I also wish I had a place that I could go to daily to spend time alone with the Lord without anyone or anything distracting me. I feel that would help me a lot.

Dear Living by Faith, As you, yourself, have shared..and I agree that this does sound like an attack coming at you as your thoughts are spiraling down and as that negative thinking continues it is really easy to go more and more into depression. It may help to start a thread about the depression and these thoughts in Counseling Requests where others there can counsel you more than we can here. Here mainly we can give you comfort and encouragement and you have been given good and attentive replies here.

I could move this thread to Counseling requests for you but it starts out about something else (namely about your church)and now has gone into your feelings of depression so I think it best not to. I think it could help you to start a new thread over in Counseling Requests but it is up to you. It may also help to talk to someone in your church about how it is going for you and receive some counsel there..maybe a pastor or counselor on staff??

Meanwhile, this morning you are in my prayers. As for finding the time for the Lord you want and need..you might consider taking a break from posting and using the time in which you have been spending on other sections as well as here to just get alone with the Lord.

peace in Christ,



wiseoldowl ... facilitator

[*Living~By~Faith*]

I'll think about it. I don't think I have much else to discuss on that right now. I'm just overwhelmed and confused. I think I may try talking to my pastor or his wife soon. I feel like I don't fit in at my current church, but I know the problem is me instead of the church. I'll feel that way anywhere I go.

[turtledove]

I'll think about it. I don't think I have much else to discuss on that right now. I'm just overwhelmed and confused. I think I may try talking to my pastor or his wife soon. I feel like I don't fit in at my current church, but I know the problem is me instead of the church. I'll feel that way anywhere I go.

Good, talking to your pastor and his wife sounds like the right thing to do. This feeling about 'not fitting in anywhere you go' needs careful looking at. A good counselor or pastor can help you with that. Also I read in one of your posts that you have been let down lately by an individual in your church. That kind of disappointment can add to this. As for the "confusion" you mention in your post above; although God understands how we get confused God is NOT the author of confusion.

1 Cor. 14:33...For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace..(KJV)

2 Cor. 10:3-5 (TNIV)For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
(TNIV)

Philippians 4:8 (NIV) Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

1 Peter 5:8-9 (NIV) Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

2 Cor 5:7 (KJV) For we walk by faith, not by sight...

Peace.

[scaredALLways]

I just wanted to say I understand how you feel because I too used to attend a church that was very 'energetic' and I felt like I was missing something but I have been reading "The Purpose Driven Life" and I certainly do NOT want to offend you, simply sharing something I am learning myself...It's not about you. Go, be happy in knowing you are making God smile, You are going to worship Him and if you merely focus on this, I would imagine you won't notice the folks around you and how they react to the service if your focusing all your thoughts on praising God and letting him know how AWESOME he is.

... our God, we give you thanks, and praise your glorious name.