Sometimes I'm not happy doing His work
Sometimes I do His work with joy but other times I don't feel happy.
The reason I don't feel happy is because I feel I am serving Him, not myself.
I also feel as if I sacrifice myself for Him.
I know this is all a part of the Christian life and it's "suppose" to be this way but at times my emotions of frustration bottle up SO much that I basically tell God to leave me alone and for a few days I ignore Him.
This lasts for a few days and when I feel 'better' I return to Him to do His work (with frustration).
I think I am kind of stuck in the state of mind, "what's in it for me." When I do His work and I see people around me getting all the things they want, getting away with sin, experiencing happiness and joy, I feel like doing His work has no benefits (for myself).
Yes, I am serving Him and if anything I can help bring people to God (which makes me feel happy), but when I walk with Him daily I just don't feel happy. I feel frustrated because I am the one who has to be as Christ-like as possible while people around me don't try as hard and still have comfortable lives.
I would appreciate advice without:
And many women were there beholding afar off, which followed Jesus from Galilee, ministering unto him.