He created mankind out of love, he chose to include me for reasons that I do not yet know. He created me with certain characteristics that are similar but different than anyone else. He gave me some power for my short time that I have on this earth. Left to my own devices I mis-use this power and talent for selfish things. I do not understand the paradox of my free will with being chosen, yet both seem to be true. I believe that I cannot do his will without surrendering the only thing that is mine which is me. I want to do this because I want to please my Creator and Savior. I am his adopted son, I am precious to him, I am royalty, my sin prevents me from fully realizing this. I want and need to feel closer to him. When he gives me something to do using my talents (that he gave me) and his power, it allows me to feel closer to him. I do not feel like a disciple, I do feel blessed that he uses me sometimes.