24 February 2009
I have a negative attitude to life in general.
When I was a child I was continually reminded that I am not willing to give anything a go. My teachers in school used to say to my parents ‘Robert has many good qualities and skills but he is not willing to give life a go, he has set his mind to give up before he has started.’
At some point in my young life, I made a decision to ‘not try anymore!’ I am not blaming anyone, my decision was made by me and at that point I had two options -
1. Learn from this experience and move on.
2. Focus on this experience and let it control my life.
I chose decision #2.
Every day that I wake up I have my plans for the day already written down in my mind [subconsciously.]
I have only become aware of my behaviour in recent months and for all my life I have asked myself the question: why does my life not work?
Well it sure is obvious to me now why my life does not work.
I believe in God and I see Him as my creator and provider; I am not a religious person by any means but I read the Holy Scripture on a regular basis and just recently this scripture has JUMPED out at me. It is
Romans 12:2 Don’t copy the behaviour and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. (New Living Translation)
This passage is saying to me, ‘be willing to let go of your old way of thinking, and let God change your thoughts.’ I could be seen as a no hoper and it is all because I made a decision never to follow my dreams and goals. I only have myself to blame.
So with Romans 12:2 in mind and God as my inspiration I, from this point in time make a decision to achieve what I set out to do.