This has been a real struggle for me for a couple of years now. I realize many will accept dreams from God, but not visions (that people post about)...which I don't understand why. Second while many of them are personal and what I see as lessons for me alone..private...sometimes they aren't and I want to share them so badly! But I have been very concerned about doing that much for a number of reason..first I do not want the focus to be on me...gifts from God should always be direct people to God...not to the person sharing. And second I suppose is pride...and fear...the fear of losing the respect of people on here if I post these on a regular basis...because I do have them on a regular basic...that they will think I am just a nut case (that is where the pride and fear come in which yes I realize is the flesh in me holding me back). Never said I was perfect...Oh and being told what I am doing is wrong, sinful, its the work of the devil...
And also they are so symbolic and so visual well its really hard to even put many of them into words.
Now today I did pray and ask again what am I suppose to do with these Lord? They are just so wonderful..it just seems wrong to keep them to myself. And one of His answers was to start painting what I see. I used to be an active painter...after I had my son I just didn't have time...plus I have an injury to my right hand that causes it to tremble and its really hard to paint details when your hand is shaking.Now I did start a painting of one of the things I saw in a vision last year but I couldn't take what I saw in my head and get it right ...so I kept painting over it. And finally I just gave up. I don't have the talent needed to paint what I see...how do you paint light streaming from Christ in rainbow colors? that flash and move and change like light reflecting off a diamond? Some artist can do that..I haven't yet figured it out...
So while I know to paint or draw some of this...there is just so much more too that no painting...barely even words can converge. So what do I do with them?
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Oh and being told what I am doing is wrong, sinful, its the work of the devil...
Now I did start a painting of one of the things I saw in a vision last year but I couldn't take what I saw in my head and get it right ...so I kept painting over it. And finally I just gave up. I don't have the talent needed to paint what I see...how do you paint light streaming from Christ in rainbow colors? that flash and move and change like light reflecting off a diamond? Some artist can do that..I haven't yet figured it out...
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For God so loved the world, that HE gave HIS only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in HIM should not perish, but have eternal life.
Now I have to think back and try to remember. I usually see so much..its like I am there forever. There is no time at all. And its wonderful...I don't want to come back. When I was there today I wanted to complain about feeling so bad lately..I wanted to ask for healing...about my back hurting and my neck and my dumb allergies and my teeth hurting but you know what..it all just slipped away...far far away. All these fleshly things went further and further away like I just dreamed them and then I forgot about them altogether ...when you are in Heaven is easy to forget everything else. (at least it seems like Heaven..lol)..


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