I don't feel peace and joy
I need some advice:
When I pray, read my Bible, I feel peace, comfort. It's subtle but there.
But when I go out into the world and start evangelizing, spreading the gospel there is a lot of discomfort.
I'm not sure why.
I try hard with my family members to get them to come to Christ. A few of them have but a few of them are skeptical. I can deal with the skepticism because I used to be a skeptic for most of my life.
God continues to tell me to spread His word. And I follow his will. But when I actually go out and do it, I don't feel the fruit of Joy.
It stems mostly from people not listening, not accepting, trying to convince me my way is 'stupid' and 'useless', etc.
I then get angry at God and tell Him, "If you want me to continue like this, give me Joy at least!" But no, nada. Just frustration and hesitation to continue evangelizing the next time.
And many women were there beholding afar off, which followed Jesus from Galilee, ministering unto him.