I am so sorry to hear about your husband. I can understand how hard it is to watch someone reject God, Not from a husband prospective but a father and brother. I will pray for your husband. I watch how hard it is for my mom, my dad will not let her tithe and that is so hard for her, her gift is giving and she feels stifled. I think it is so wonderful that you have found ways to serve God despite that! God Bless you and your family!