Moving on

[JohnnyD]

Hey guys, I'm new here, so first of all, hi

For the more serious talk, I've been struggling A LOT over the past 6-7 months. I became friends with a wonderful girl, who was such a strong Christian--she always helped me out and uplifted me, told me that I was an amazing, talented person. I must admit, I suffer from depression--it comes with a melancholy attitude--and I really don't like being around people after a few of my friends died, it was hard to talk to anyone, but somehow, God brought my friend into my life.

So a year go by, everything is lovely! She's helping me stay on task with my spirituality and I really grew in faith...but it didn't last forever. About eight months ago, she started calling me names: stupid, pushover, follower--when I'm not, but I'm a sensitive, decent and caring guy. But what I struggle understanding is how someone who used to bring me so much joy, could bring me so much pain now....

For years, I prayed and prayed for someone to help me and just take me under their wing...it didn't happen...then one day, she comes along, and everyone agreed, this is the one that you need to be with. I mean it, everyone. My minister, family, friends...but she ruined me.

I've slipped into the habit of feeling depressed, lustful, and angry towards other people. This just made me digress from being able to trust in people again. I don't know...I'm 19 years old and I have no clue what's going on anymore. So, I'll stick to my boring routine and keep my head low...and I'm embarrassed of it...

[Josie]

Hi Johnnyguy, I have noticed in our lives sometimes God uses people for a season.
I have had this happen many times in my life, and apparently is beginning for you.
God's will is best, in every situation.

[JordanW]

Hey Johnny, I definitely can sympathize with you bro. I don't have really any friends in real life, all of my fellowship usually comes from the computer actually, but I too had a lady friend that was really nice to me and then after we had known each other for quite some time she began to act completely different, almost like a completely different person, so I can relate to you there for sure. We do know that all we go through is ultimately because God has a plan behind everything, and you are dealing with trials and tribulations for a reason, and it will all work together for the good, because we love God and we are called according to His purpose! Amen! (Romans 8:28)

[JohnnyD]

Thanks for the replies.

Somehow expressing how I felt, and I'm sure a bit of divine intervention, I don't feel down at all. To tell you the truth, I'm feeling quite upbeat!

I know that happiness isn't a constant and all, but I'm going to enjoy this as much as possible.

Thanks you guys! Now...it's 4:15a and I have to get to work. lol

[JordanW]

I'm glad that you are feeling better bro.

[Elijah's Mantle]

I wished I would have seen your post sooner Johnny D , I will be adding u to my prayer list I know when some one uses their words to strike u down it can be terrible
keeping it inside makes it worse though .

one thing is don't slip into the down side of depression , this is a time u may want to increase reading God's word it is one sure remedy for depression

[Friend of Jesus]

Whatever you do you don't want to seek validation as a man from women. I suggest reading Wild at Heart if you haven't already. The author (John Eldredge) speaks about how every man/boy wants to know that he has what it takes. To know that he is strong. He says that we are meant to recieve validation from God first and foremost (although our own earthly fathers were meant to have an important role) so that we can then offer our strength to others, especially the woman in our life.

It sounds as if you have taken this "Do I have what it takes" question to women and as a result you give this girl the power to strip you of your masculinity by giving you a bad verdict (which is what it sounds like with all the spiritual attack you are having with the depression and lust).

You need to seek God first, then you can offer your strength to this woman. But you cannot let her give the verdict on your life.

Private Message me if you want to speak more about this
Sam