Struggling with something
That I am not sure how to approach. If you have any advice please feel free to speak up... in need of it.
I had a journal that I wrote in occasionally... prayers, situations that I was dealing with at the time that I wanted to jot down, etc... . I brought some of my books over to my grandmothers house because I'm going to be living there in about a week. Anyway.. I came home from Church on Sunday and my mom said "Your grandmother just called me, she was snooping through your journals and was reading me what you wrote"... in the beginning my first reaction wasn't anger, it was just why? So I went over to her house, picked up my things and not once did she say sorry. All she said was " I was sitting in your room and saw your books and I just wanted to read it" I asked her why she thought she needed to read my personal writings outloud (which I am not upset about, it's just the fact that she'd want to start a drama fest over what I wrote and said that I am in a "cult" and "too biblical" to my mom) and she said, she was just reading and thought nothing of it. So I left... This morning I wake up to find out that my uncle called my mom and told her that my grandmother had called him and read him all my entries.... WHAT??? Seriously... What is the point? She hasn't said sorry, she has turned the whole situation around and said that it was my moms fault that she told me she was reading it. Let me remind you, my grandmother gets like extremely excited over arguing and gossip drama... and I am not a fan whatso ever.... BUT... her's the but... am I adress this? Am I to ask her why she would first lie to me, second tell everyone my busniess, and third not only apologize to me but to Jesus because she claims shes a believer and trys to tell me all the time "I love Jesus, I talk and pray to Him everyday"... Why am I not seeing fruit? Should I speak up? I don't have anger inside of me at all Thank the Lord Jesus... but should I speak up and correct her???
Why are you searching for love? Why are you still looking as if I'm not enough?