Isaiah 61:3 "...Put on the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness.
This is what keeps coming to mnd. There's nothing like praise to lift heaviness and to redirect our focus.
I suggest you get up a few minutes earlier everyday and just spend time with Him in praise and worship.
Read a scripture or two and meditate upon them as you drive to work.
IMO you're making things far too complicated. God just wants you to focus your attention on Him.
Jeremiah 31:16-17 "Thus says the LORD: Refrain your voice from weeping, and your eyes from tears; for your work (raising of your children, prayer) shall be rewarded, says the LORD, and they (your children) shall come back from the land of the enemy.