Thank you so much, Moonglow
Thank you for being so honest and straight forward with me in my other thread. I looked over my past threads and see a pattern in some of them. I cannot believe how many threads I have posted over the past year and a half about wanting to give up and about not being happy at my church. I can say Iím not about to give up on anything. I know I can press through anything as long as I keep my focus on God. Iím also not going to another church, until God makes it clear for me to leave. But that isnít a topic that I want to talk about in this thread. I feel like I need to begin seeking Godís direction more on that and leave it at that, instead of discussing it with others.
I believe, actually I know, that God has been working on me over the past several weeks. I also know that the devil has been bothering me more because of this. After all, the devil doesnít want us to be Christ warriors. I know God is trying to reveal some things to me to help me cleanse and change some things about myself. The problem started when I began to put the focus on my new friend that God has placed in my life. I donít really know why I did that. Maybe it was because I was in denial that I am the one that needs to change some things, especially my ways of thinking.
Thinking about this now has helped me realize that my focus needs to be completely on God. I know itís all about God, but I also know that I have to take a look at myself and my own Christian walk in order to become the person that God intended me to be. I have to learn to put on the full armor of God daily so that I can be prepared for any battle the devil throws my way. I have to learn how to make conversations Christ centered. If someone/anyone is talking about something that I donít feel is honoring or glorifying to God, then I need to change to subject to something that is Christ centered. But I know in order to do that, I have to begin to dig deeper into the Bible so that I can be prepared to know what to say.
I have made this into more than it ever should have become. I have been such an idiot in all of this. I have made it seem as if this person is trying to get me to do something awful like get drunk or something. After all, if someone did try to get me to drink, I wouldnít have a bit of a problem telling them no. All this person is doing is talking about things that interest her. I either need to learn to be blunt and tell her that I donít want to talk about those things because I donít feel they are Glorifying to God or I need to learn to change the subject. I know saying I need to be blunt may sound harsh and I will try not to be. But I feel that sometimes there comes a time when you do have to speak up or take a stand for your convictions.
There are two amazing Godly women in my church that will be straight forward and blunt with anyone about anything. They will just tell you like it is, but they donít come off as mean or hateful. I want to be more like them. I wish I had a more bold and outspoken personality like them. Maybe I should start praying that God will change that about me. I can see Christ through these two women and I want people to see Christ through me.