I am new to the forum/website. This is my first post. So, please bear with me.
Lately, due to a number of events in my life, I have found myself wondering whether or not God would punish me for my sins by punishing someone I care about. This mostly relates to my mother. Does God punish children for the sins or their parents, and on the flip side, does God punish parents for the sins of their children?
With these questions in mind, let me explain my situation.
Two years ago, my mother was diagnosed with a stage four glioblastoma (severe brain tumor). They told us she had four months to live. Clearly, she is a fighter. However, as if dying isn't enough, she seems to be suffering an extraordinary amount. Her first surgery was an emergency surgery the day after she first found out about the tumor. Then, they removed the drainage tube in her head too early which cause her to have a brain hemorrhage. This left her paralyzed on the left side of her body. There were bad results for her vision, senses, and memory as well. Since then she has had another surgery, radiation, chemo in an IV, and chemo by mouth. She has now stopped responding to all treatment. This is it.
There's something you need to know about my mother - she is amazing. My father left her and my younger sister when I was three and my sister was just born. Since then, she sacrificed everything for my sister and I. She has always put her children first, with only God before us. She never drank, did drugs, or even had sex before marriage. My mother is by no means perfect, but she does not deserve all of this suffering. In addition to everything listed, she is constantly throwing up everytime she takes a bite of food or even a sip of water, she can't/won't eat, she is sick all the time because of her basically dead immune system, and she has also had shingles. (If you've had shingles or seen someone who has, imagine that times 100. The poor woman has a strip of scarring from the blisters that looks like she was in a horrible grease fire of some sort.)
HERE IS THE DEAL.
I want to know if God is punishing me for my MANY sins by allowing or causing all this to happen to my mother. I'm a dirty-rotten sinner. I have accepted Jesus as my Savior, and I have never denied the existence of God or His Son. I still come up short, of course. I was a "druggie." I lied to my mother. I told her I hated her, and at the time I really thought I did. I am not a good person, but I am trying so hard to improve myself. Can my sins and shortcomings be the cause of all her pain. I find myself wondering this almost on a daily basis now.
What do you think? Yes, it's my fault? No, it isn't? It's some of both? Please let me know what you think, why you think that, and any Bible verses you have to back up your claim.
Please, if you have ever come across anything about this in the Bible, post. I'm not really sure who to ask or where to turn for advice on this question. I need guidance. Of course, I am and have been praying for God to show me the answer as well.