I am very confused right now. I received salvation a few years ago. At the time I grew in Christ through my Christian friends, a wonderful bible study I was attending and finally by going to Church. Three years ago I was baptized. About a month later we moved away and ever since I have grown further apart from God until very recently when I have been trying to renew my relationship with God by reading the bible and Christian message boards, praying and repenting. I don't believe I have ever received the Holy Spirit. I feel empty inside. I have not spoken in tongues... ever. I don't feel that happiness and joy I imagine most Christians filled with the Holy Spirit must feel. I have asked God repeatedly for the gift of the Spirit without any noticeable change. I have never felt particularly led by the Spirit either nor felt a presence in my life. When I was attending the bible study the group prayed over me with a laying on of hands without result although at the time I don't believe I truly understood what was happening and did feel some fear. Does all this mean I am not truly saved? I desperately would like to receive this gift before it is too late for me. I was sincerely born again... at least I believed I was. Is it possible to believe one has been saved only to find out they weren't truly sincere?? Will I go to Hell if I am not filled with the Spirit?