I know that this is a forum about breaking bondages and problems. Needless to say, I'm still locked in a spiritual warfare for a year (the most intense) and have been experiencing very unusual things and I feel like I'm the only one who is going through this.
I have been experiencing spiritual attacks even when I was a child not knowing any better. Abused as a child (forgiven my parents for it and moved on) and lived in a state and experienced some of the most disturbing things at the time as a teenager.
Lived at a house that was haunted that I heard noises, footsteps, felt cold chills, saw black shadows, saw a outlines of black and white ones. Been choked in my sleep, heard voices while sleeping, been tossed over the bed, heard eerie laughters, and yet, in this specific time, I heard a very calming small voice saying, "wake up and pray" I would get many wake ups from this small still voice warning me of danger before I get attacked in my sleep. I felt a very inner warmth of a hand that calmed me from my throat to my stomach and I felt at ease and joy at the same time. I felt God's presence in my darkest hour. Also in this point in time, I was praying, reading my bible, and trying to understand more about God.
The only times that I felt the feeling of night terrors and choking is usually if I was so tired that I couldn't wake up or if I played a game that contains violence/horror or watched a movie horror/spiritual movies. You would think I would know this from now that it was opening portals to the demonic kingdom.
I've done many things I wasn't proud of as I was trying to blend in with this world. Sexual immorality, alcohol, drugs, rock, rap (vulgar music), techno/trance, horoscope, psychic readings, and so forth. I've became so corrupt in character. God was with me during those times because, the things that I faced is unimaginable.
I know that I've experienced so much of the supernatural both good and bad (more on the bad side) that, I would recommend to steer clear of anything that would open yourself up to spiritual attacks that are through movies, music, images, books, games, etc. Use discernment by all means. You have to keep yourself guarded at all times. Not to say that God isn't powerful enough to break the bondages because, he's God Almighty. There are unnecessary warfare not knowingly through these things. Some is just from every day life. Others can be prevented if you put on your full armor of God. Granted all who believes and received Jesus as their Lord and Saviour as children of God we are seated in heavenly places with Christ and are given spiritual authority to command demons to leave. It doesn't work effectively if you intentionally lure them your way. I'm certain that God is still with me, otherwise, I wouldn't be here to tell you this. I'm glad that God is so merciful, full of love, slow to anger, and compassionate. God has been my superman many times in the past in the face of danger (some close to death).
I fasted just this past week seeking for answers why can't I hear from God. Is it a test? Is he waiting for me to press harder, going through another trial? All I hear is the enemy and they are blowing themselves up as if they were bigger than God.
From this fast, I've seen things much clearer of the demonic side, big black pythons, dragons, hellish creatures, list goes on. I've read my bible, prayed, tried to rest, and worshiped him. Nothing. Different shapes and sizes. They went as far as telling me that its too late to go back God. I'm their chosen one. The fact is, never to trust what the enemy says. Since their objective is to steal, kill, and destroy. So that also means lies.
I would love to encounter God again and thats why I'm asking for all your prayers. I need all the encouragement I can get to breakfree of all bondages. Help me to breakthrough this tough challenge in my life. I believe that God allowed me to go through all that I have gone through because one its freewill, but, I believe he has a bigger plan. Perhaps use all my failures as a testimony to people who are going through one of these things right now.
I'm still holding on to the promises of God. Through several Prophets who spoke to me regarding me used by God for his agenda and that its going to lead people to repentance.
I've done alot of repenting and asking God to set me free. Even had to renounce some of the things I did. God has the solution and I'm open to it. I'm waiting on him to respond and in the meantime once again, please pray for me to be delivered from all evil. I spoke to a a few people about my spiritual attacks and they told me that its a good thing and that means that I'm a threat to the enemy's kingdom. Ummm... Its not easy going through it. The enemy is telling me to give up and to surrender to them. Thats not an option that I'm taking. I'm putting a resistance and getting back in God. I don't blame God on anything but, yet, when I read the bible. Job was tormented by Satan and thought it was from God. David was constantly being persued by Saul, his own son Absalom tried to kill him, Daniel was in the lions den, Elijah was being chased by Jezebel and so forth. I'm no hero of any kind, so, I'm glad there are actual men who led a life that were constantly relying on God to deliver them of their enemies