Young Adult how to get over breakup?
Hi my name is Justin! So I am a young man. I am 20. I was courting a young lady in my church. We were very serious about each other. Had been seeing each other for a year. I was going to buy her engagement ring with my next paycheck, take her to the beach in June, and propose to her. All of a sudden out of nowhere (well really not b/c I had been praying about some things) we got in a fight over something stupid, I said something I didn't mean, and hurt her, and she hurt me with how she reacted and acted hurt me. We took a week and a half break, and she felt that she did not want to be in a serious relationship right now. After telling me she loved me wanted to be with me forever and all that stuff.
Now God is healing me through this, and is showing me some areas I had put away for her. I believe that God wants to take 4 years to work on me so I am going to Bible College, and I am still and have been pursuing the ministry, b/c I believe God has called me to work in the ministry. I want to stay humble, and I love her too much to talk any bad about her.
Of course though therer is the side of me that just hurts. I keep dreaming about her, can't stop thinking about her, amd just talking to her at church hurts real bad now. I still have a part of me that just wants her back. I still wake up after dreaming about her and feel pain in my chest real physical pain. I have been eating either like a pig or like a ghandi, and I am just a huge mess.
Any scriptures tips hints cheat codes anything to move on with my life. I am focusing on God alot more now and that is helping, but man I just want her back so bad. However I am excited about what God is going to do, but, Im human. The pain is still there. She was beautiful. She loved the Lord. She wasn't perfect, but I didn't care! I loved her so much! Now she's gone gone gone :'(
He died a bloody death for you, but you want to live a scratch free life for Him, something seems wrong here...