hi.my mind is consumed with this a lot of the time. Lately especially. I keep thinking how to stay healthy and have a beautiful skin. Keep reading, searching on info and getting myself deeper into obsession. Most of the time I eat healthy, and am strict about it. But I feel embarrassed to show it, to let people know about it. I have a history of anorexia and bulimia. Felt similarly then, but I was destructing my body and now I think I am trying to ''fix'' it. I put so much energy into thinking whats good and whats bad for my body, like food, and sleep, suplements, activities. A lot of things I do, doesn't happen without me thinking how it is going to effect my health and my skin. See, I have a bit of acne, and am quite sensitive about it. So skin is my No. 1. I am soooo ashamed of it, to tell anyone. People just think I am health conscious, but I think I am obsessed. I don't even go to doctors, (and I probably should cos I have some pains and aches that are bothering me)I just try to know a lot myself and ''do the right things, eat right foods, be the right kinda person''. Deep within I am very easy going person, optimistic, light hearted and genuinely can say I love normal kinda food, not vegan, not vegetarian, not just healthy. I feel like I am dragged into some SINFULL paralyzing thinking when it comes to them things. Read books and articles about ''right diets and so on'', want to get them out of my head, and can't. It's as if I opened some door and can't close it. It gets better at times , but I am never completely free of obsession or acne on my skin, which in fairness isn't that bad, no matter what I do or don't do. Please, God, help me.