
Originally Posted by
thomasmind
Oh my, Thank you all of you for your responses!
I have learned so very much. I have to say that I understand everything that you are saying on one level or another, and now I understand truly what I have misunderstood about the term being born again. Perhaps the people in my life do simply not understand they have to believe, accept and let Jesus into their hearts. People try to be saved by doing good acts, but it is the fact that Jesus died for us that allows us to be saved, so if someone does not believe and just, does good acts to sort of like pass a test they are not saved. It is the grace of Jesus and our belief in him that shows us the way to acts of good, and not our own personal effort. I think I have always felt this but never really recognized it. I think I found Edgar Allen Poe’s class of fancies; in digging for this I think this might be the best way to describe what being born again actually means. You believe, Jesus shows you because you believe, you do good actions because of his will not your own, because you believe.
To expand upon this, if I told you I can do electrical work and you believe me, then I show you, it will be a reality and you would give my number to others to do work in their homes. If I tell you that I built this electrical panel and all of the lights work and everything I will still have to prove myself. Belief is the essential first step. Just saying, “yea he can do electrical work” and walking away with the knowledge that I can really does not mean much. If someone does not really truly and honestly believe in Jesus there is no way they can really dedicate themselves to his work because it is their own will that has to push it along.
I think the baptism thing is important as a symbol, because we need these things to mark new beginnings, if these symbols were not there; perhaps to many, there would be no real change, or understanding, or recognition of what has been given to us.
Also; since we could never understand the complexity of Jesus and God in this lifetime we can understand that Jesus and God are one; this makes an infinite complexity a bit more understandable, or that is how things work in Heaven. On this I also think that many things in the Bible need to be recognized as the fact that over two thousand years ago there were not words to describe many things, therefore things like ambiguity, symbolism, objectivity must be used for everyone to understand.
Pardon me but this post is gonna be another long post but I do think it is important since you have dedicated your time to help me.
If any of you have ever wondered if your actually doing Gods work, you all are. I have to say that as I have been reading over all of this stuff, and first confused it makes sense to me now. I do still have a few quirky beliefs left that will never go away because I think (no one knows) that our God is so complex we will never really understand so very many things. But I am coming to realize that perhaps I am a Christian. Because of the people in my life I have thought that no matter what I did there was no hope, they, preacher, and people that go to church every Sunday while I prayed in my home, were saved no matter what and I was not. So I just did things as I thought God would want me to do anyway, minus the drama, control, competition, and politics of human interaction. Now my hope has been restored in the fact that it is not that even if I do the right things I am still not wanted.
Most people reject me and tell me no matter what religion, and it is many, that I am lost. Not feeling wanted and alone is something that I have quite grown accustomed to. The only saving quality from it though is my ability for separation, which was a bitter gift from my adopted sister whom considered my not to be her brother when she found we were adopted. Because of this there is no reason to worry about forgiving people when they simply are not in my life making me miserable. Perhaps it has been a circle for me because from there people really have been a nasty bunch, so for most of my life I have been trying to find out the truth. I have spent many many many years asking for vision and wisdom, and though I have an ability to see people for who they really are I still want to really understand as much as my little brain can about God. The actions of people in my life have just prevented it until now.
I half heartedly expected my question to be answered by outrage and rejection as normally happens. Thank you for your understanding; and with your understanding I am now more understanding. I no longer feel quite as much of a total and complete outcast as I have felt all of my life.
God bless all of you!
Thank you!
Thomas
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