My story is, im sure, the same as many others on this site who have shared their struggles and have had fellowship here to help them through. I was saved nearly 3 years ago, and the lustful sin that was in my life before has not taken a vacation since then. I find myself struggling more than ever since being saved. I, even after being saved have given in to sexual immorality time and time again. I love my church, and am glad god led me to it. I have since become active in a couple of ministries which include guest service relations and i was chosen to be on the mens ministry council board. I love being a part of these, but also feel ashamed and guilty for continuing on in them while being a slave to lust and sinful acts of sexual immorality. I have slept with girls, including my girlfriend now. Also have looked at pictures i know are wrong, pornography and such. Thinking it was ok to look at these and using self gratification to make myself think i was not commiting adultry since i was not sleeping with anyone. I have thoughts in my head of girls in lustful ways and struggle to work on that. I now, when talking to girls and start lusting for them, look away sometimes while talking with them but dont feel as if it really matters. I have fallen over and over and continue to ask god for forgiveness. I have met with my pastor on this and had fellowship with other christians in regards to this and still struggle. Every time i give in i feel horrible and now days i feel there is no hope, I feel maybe god has given me enough chances. I have been told this is not true but i just feel this way. Although i have gotten my gf to start coming to church with me, and she ahs fully embraced it, including having her daughter baptized there, there is just something inside of me that feels lost and empty, mainly scared that my salvation is long gone. I found this site and have read many informative articles on this subject and seen how people have struggled with this and overcome it. I feel since i havent overcome it, i am lost. It scares me to think this way, and also i feel ashamed for calling myself a christian, being in my ministries, but still falling short of what a christian is suppose to be. I have now started studying more in the bible, and do find relief. But i still feel those urges and keep thinking to myself its only a matter of time before i fall again. Im tired of making excuses for the reasons ive fallen, trying to justify my actions, i know its wrong but its very hard to overcome this. I just anted to share this and wonder if anyone else has experienced, or is experiencing this issue. Thank you for your time.