Re: I feel like breaking down
Well, I certainly wouldn't like that situation myself; but it is not hopeless. Christ in us remains the hope of glory!
You need to forgive him and keep praying for him and, I know it is hard, but give him to God. Like just said above..the "treatment" on him is the Lord's job.
You said you have tried relationship counseling. Maybe continuing to find a pastor or another Christian counselor for both of you to go to would help.
Anyway, being married now 50 years to my husband I do recall the early years when we were both immature and had to learn to start recognizing our own selfishness and give way to the other. God brought many improvements; but not until I let go and let God do it. Once in the middle of an argument I remember the Lord actually shutting my mouth. Really, I couldn't speak. It happens.
Anyway.. with a few scriptures to ponder:
Proverbs 19:11 "A man's wisdom gives him patience, it is to his glory to overlook an offense."
1 Peter 4:8 "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins."
1 Cor. 23:4-5. "Love is patient, love is kind. It is not easily angered."
peace and blessing of the season.
"The flowers appear on the earth,
the time of singing has come,
and the voice of the turtledove
is heard in our land ." SofS 2:12 (RSV)