Thank you Brian for your words of encouragement. Yes, I have been trying to deal with my cravings by myself. Everytime I crave I would run around and do everything I possibly can to not go and use. I would check that all my safety nets is in place and keep myself as busy as I can. The mistake I made with this, is that I did everything myself. I had safety nets in the past also, but that did not stop me.
I found during this week, that I was doing it all wrong! Yes safety nets are important, and I am right also to do something to occupy my mind to ride out the craving, but what I did not understand is that I was fighting this battle on my own and I alone know from past experience cannot do this by myself, even though I tried to proof to myself many a times that I am capable of doing such.
This week I have learned that all I need to do is pray when I feel out of control and quote scriptures. Before I know it, my mindset changed and instead of just riding out the craving, I spend more time then I planned in prayer and reading scriptures, which is helping also helping me grow in other areas of my life. I never understood when people said God will equip us, but I think I am learning to understand that. I might be a slow learner, always was, but I things are beginning to make a little more sense each time I overcome, not in my strenght, but HIS!