Re: Things that recently make me say: hmmm
Good morning MM. I am reminded of something the Lord did with me a while back. I had read/heard about confessing all our sins to the Lord. I think it was about Ms. Bertha Smith but it may have been someone else. Ms. Smith was teaching on being filled with the Holy Spirit. She had instructed the ladies to go and write out on paper all the sins they needed to confess to the Lord. This one lady finished and brought back a page full of sin! There was writing all over it. She handed the page to Ms. Smith and Ms. Smith glanced at it. Then looked at the woman and said "Is that all?" LOL! I chuckled when I got to that point in the story. Anyway, it seemed a good thing for me.
As a side note, it took me a while to get to this point in life. But eventually, the Father taught me that I cannot know my own heart. David said in Psalms 139 that God knew him inside and out and that such knowledge was "too wonderful for me". He starts the Psalm and ends the Psalm talking about God searching him. The last verse says this...
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me and know my anxious thoughts;
24 And see if there be any hurtful way in me,
And lead me in the everlasting way.
So I got before the Lord and started writing out my lists of sins. I wrote one down and the Lord spoke "Did I tell you to write that one down?" "No" I responded. I scratched it out. Then I wrote another one down. To which the Lord asked "Did I tell you to write that one down?" Again, I responded "No" and erased it. Finally, I asked the Lord "Lord, what do you desire to deal with me about today?" In my own way, I was asking Him to search me and to try me and to reveal to me any hurtful way in me. He told me this "I want you to deal with the concept that you have to perform for my love." In me, there was something much deeper, far more dangerous to my well being that God wanted to deal with than the sins I was writing down. He desired for me to learn to understand something about Him and His love that would help me deal with the more "surface" things I saw.
Perhaps, there is something the Lord wants to deal with in you that is deeper than smoking. Maybe it's related to smoking. Maybe it's not. I don't know. Just food for thought.
Along those same lines, God directed Israel to Jericho first and Ai second. When we fight our battles, it is best to follow his lead concerning what we are to battle against first and second and third and so on. God told Joshua to follow behind the ark (the presence of God) by such and such a distance. Why? Because they had not been this way before and it was important to follow the Lord in all things.
Food for thought... could it be that if you are freed from addition to smoking, a worse addiction takes it's place? Could it be that the Lord wishes to deal more with maybe a deeper cause of addiction instead of the actual addiction? God is not speaking to me, I am just expressing that there could be more at work here than just cigarette smoking and how important it is to allow the Lord to search our hearts instead of assuming we know.
Grace to you.
"May the Lamb that was slain receive the just reward for His sufferings." A quote by Moravian missionary that sold himself (along with a friend) into slavery to reach those that the slave owner prevented from hearing the gospel.
May I live for Him and not for me.