yesterday the attacks lasted for hours and were violent but it's been quiet since then except it has made itself known to me and when it did descend on me instead of getting angry and or cussing it , I quietly asked it to please leave me alone . And it has . Now this is not the first time it has shown me Mercy and that just bewildered me even more . makes me wonder what the bible means when it said an evil spirit of the lord was sent to torment Saul . Was it one of God's angels or did it actually come from Satan . I cant imagine God letting me be tortured like this . The result is that i have been seeking God with all my Heart and have learned to trust him for everything , maybe not as much as I should but I am learning to and when Jesus saved me from the worst attack my faith just skyrocketed . I think about what it means to surrender all to Jesus , it's easy to say but i don't think i understand the full meaning of it yet .