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I know your dark place. One of the best things that ever happened to me (seriously). Didn't know it then, though. Back then there was just all kinds of dark. So ... I'm here to tell you with utmost confidence that there's all kinds of hope and a future for you! God knows how to bring life from death. That is what I learned. And, that He is very good at it. But it is a kind of death you're dealing with here. So let yourself grieve and mourn the loss, k?
A look at the Hebrew alephbet didn't give me the exact thing I saw. It was similar though to the letter that means house, but there were two lines above it instead of one. Don't suppose anyones seen that, huh? Strange, but the letter that I saw at first didn't look anything like the two identical ones that it divided into. It was like two not perfectly round circles with a line extending up from them, (at least I think there was a line) almost like back to back B's, but when it was divided into what meant two houses, the symbols were sort of like the symbol for Pi (in math) except with two lines above them instead of one.
Why don't I pay more attention in my dream?! But then, the answer to that is that in my dream I understood it perfectly. It was only when I woke that I was confused.
blessings and prayers
My soul does GLORIFY the LORD, my spirit REJOICES in GOD MY SAVIOUR
"To be entirely safe from the devils snares the man of God must be completely obedient to the Word of the Lord. The driver on the highway is safe, not when he reads the signs but when he obeys them." A.W.Tozer
The Lifehouse Skit
It took me about 4 years. And my faith was quite strong back then and Jesus and I were very close. It then took about 10 more years if not more to completely let it all go just because certain things continued to bubble to the surface needing to be dealt with.
Just to give you an idea.
Then again I'm of the highly stubborn sort and so it's possible it'll be far shorter for you.
Also, grieving has nothing to do with lack of submission or trust (not trying to argue with you, just trying to help you understand that you are in fact a very godly woman going through a very normal thing). And the kicking and screaming and anger is a normal part of the process. God gave us the grieving process to help us deal with loss, because so much of life here is about loss.
It's good that you're getting sick to death of the kicking and screaming though, because that means you're transitioning to the next stage.
And I have no idea what your Hebrew letter post was all about. Sorry.
So you're saying it was all Greek to you?
I hear you both. Iwill try to be easier on myself.
I will have a huge mug of hot chocolate.
With whipped cream.
I have the niggling feeling that something rough is coming to us all and I want us to not bicker and to be ready. Sorry I'm so all over the place. I'm pretty restless. The last time I became even remotely this restless, I had that dream about the U'S. splitting into three big chunks. And yes, I know I'm making no rational sense. I'm a bit exhausted from all this crying.
Oh, danih is so right in her response to you here. She is SO right that I think it bears repeating. LOL!!
We all grieve differently. Some of us sob until we can't breathe and some of us hold the tears back, but inwardly fall to a million pieces and can't even think straight.Also, grieving has nothing to do with lack of submission or trust (not trying to argue with you, just trying to help you understand that you are in fact a very godly woman going through a very normal thing). And the kicking and screaming and anger is a normal part of the process. God gave us the grieving process to help us deal with loss, because so much of life here is about loss.
It's all normal and in my opinion it's necessary to get through the tragedy and move on to what lies ahead. That way, we won't be like Lot's wife - constantly looking back when the rescue DOES come and wondering "what if"?
".....it's your nickel"
You know girl, there's time to be an intercessor, and there's time to be just a woman and human being. The world will not stop rotating if you take a break from it for a little while (ask me how I know ). God gives wounded troops time to heal. So heal.
Might as well have that hot chocolate with whipped cream in a bubble bath with some candles. If you're gonna do it ... do it right.
Hot chocolate helped.
Read your post in dream thread. Cool beans. Nothing hinky or gnarly there at all.
School starts up again tomorrow. Might not have time to come back for a while again.
Best to have school to distract me if I have to be in this again right now. No sense forcing things - tried it last time - doesn't work.
Thanks for your encouragements and your gentle way.
I know it's been 9 months but don't forget to keep praying for my husband please.
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