Don't really know where to begin.
I wasn't raised terribly Christian but I was exposed to it a little by my grandmother. As an adult, I have tried (admittedly half heartedly) to be and understand what being a Christian means. I have shelves & shelves of books and bibles, most of which I have read. There were times in my life that I read the bible faithfully everyday and I still try to read but I find it more and more difficult. At times in my life I have felt really close to God but at this point, I feel further away than I ever have. I still struggle with my prayer life and things that I know I shouldn't be doing. My prayer life has gone from almost daily to almost nothing. I feel like I'm talking to the ceiling. I can't feel God anymore at all. I love God, I do and I want to do what's right but...I just can't seem to.
I suppose I'm here for support, questions and answers. Just to have somewhere to come. I don't attend church and I haven't in years but the years I was attending church, I didn't feel closer to God for it.
I feel like I'm rambling now. Thanks for reading tho.